I am new to this site, but I should have come here a long time ago. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in May, 2003. I had a double mastectomy in July, 2003, finished my chemo in October, and started tamoxifen in November. This Friday I will have saline implants and nipple reconstruction. My problem has not been the surgery, not so much the chemo (except for losing my hair), but my emotions. I am not married, but I have been dating the same person for two years. He has been great during all of this, but if he continues to stick it out, it will be a miracle. I feel one way one day, and one way the next. I cry at the drop of a hat. Is this normal? A friend of mine suggested that I try St. John's Wart, which seemed to take the edge off, but I still don't feel just right in my mind! When my mom went through menopause, she became addicted to the pills that the doctor gave her, therefore, I am afraid to take any Rx. I have two grown sons and one that is 13 who is the only one at home with me. I try to keep a positive attitude because of him, but it's hard. My boyfriend wants to get married, but I'm afraid. If these things are normal, how long before I start to feel better?