I don't remember the date of my actual diagnosis but it has been one year, give or take a week, and I am still here. As I've written before, my sister died one year ago 7/12 from breast cancer followed by my mother on Nov. 9, 2002, also breast cancer. I was with both of them in their last moments. This discussion has helped so much, but I still feel those waves of deep depression, and feel a real emptiness in my life. I know that is grief running a normal course. I still feel fatigue and can't conjure up the energy and motivation to do some of the things I love. My onc. says for follow-up I am to see him every 3 mos., and will get a chest x-ray and blood work. Is that typical? Just got another mammogram and had a cyst which was not aspirated, but I'm going to bring that up to MD.s. It is difficult for me to be in this discussion because I know my sister was on this site. Her greatest support was from her internet friends. I want to ask if any of you knew her. Her name was Nancy Ballone and she lived in Ohio. Had 3 children. She had mets to liver and bones and was involved in study on Carboplatin(I know this is spelled wrong) and taxotere combined. Also participated in double blind trial of cancer vaccine. She was diagnosed at 39 and passed away at 44 y.o. She was an incredible bright and caring person. I don't know how finding out that any of you knew her will help, but my grief in losing her overrides my feelings about having bc myself. I know that many of you can relate to this because you shared your losses and triumphs with me the first time I posted. This truly is the only place to go late at night for solace and healing.