Talk about the other side of the fence....I am a Critical Care RN and a volunteer Hospice RN. I lost my father to cancer when I was 7 and then my wonderful step dad when I was 29. My biological dad asked me to promise him when I grew up that I would take care of people like him, well I knodded my head yes, but hated the thought of doing so. Well I kept my promise, but now have more then I bargined for. I recieved my DX of Breast CA on Jan 2 2003, mast. surg on the 15th of Jan. Now I am going thru 6 months of chemo, with a good prog. I had an active Hospice pt at the time of my surg. I didnt think I could finish his case, I was way to emotional. I did. I was very hard for me and painful as I still had two drains hanging from my chest. I could not remove myself from the case since he was so close to death and the family had grown to depend on me. We are a Christain family and many people were praying for me. God gave me the strenght to minister to this family when I needed so much myself. I wont be taking any other Hospice pts now until my chemo is over. I still work 1-2 days a week, if the fatigue is workable. One of my many problems is that I only see the worst cases, and had a very bad outlook for myself. I knew enough to be dangerous to myself. Its been hard to get over my luggage I bring with me on this journey. I am a very active person,is hard to tell if I am having fatigue or depression. It stinks what ever it is. I hope this discussion group will help me thru the next 6 months and beyond.