Good morning!!! - My nerves are shot ...

ludasue

Hi all!!! I'm going in for a mammo on 5/10 and then a check-up on 5/15 with the onc. Since it has been 4 years since my dx, you would think I would be used to these visits, but I'm definitely not. Is it just me or does anyone else get 'wound up' around check up time? I get very irritated, easily agitated, snappy, grouchy, and don't sleep well for about 3-4 weeks before and sometimes after the check up. It seems like everytime I go, there is something they need to 'look into further'. Fortunately, the doc has not found any mets, but last year, I was told I had a spot on my liver, in my ribs, and on my left ovary. All turned out to be clear, but my gosh, the scare was enough to send me over the edge. I didn't have this kind of anxiety during the original dx and treatments. I was just wondering if anyone else has this extreme anxiety? Thanks, angie

nocarb1

Hi Angie,
I have only been through 2 sets of scans since my dx in Sept 2001, but I know exactly how you feel, I have some much anxiety. Let me tell you what my onc does. He knows I get so anxious, he will not tell me until the day of them. Last week I went in for my normal checkup and he said ok we are ready for your bone and cat scans. I said when? He said right now go on down. I do live in a smaller town so when he wants to get them done they can be done pretty quickly. It does save me the anxiety of knowing they are coming up. Then he calls me with the results within 2 hours. When I tell people this they ask me why he does this, and I truely beleive he does it to save me anxiety. I wish you the best of luck with yours coming up!!
Carlye

banker

Hi,I am new to this site also. I feel very anxious before each check up also. I have been dx again in Feb.of this year.This time it bothered me more, I was a complete wreck for 2 weeks. Doing good now. I take XANAX .05 mg at night only, then I can sleep.I am sure your doctor can give you something. I think the not knowing is worse then the fact. Hang in there, we all here know what it is like. keep in touch. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Take care...Emmi

bullfrog13

I think it is normal... i get it to be a bundle of nerves also

maud

Hi Angie,
I have been out of treatment since Nov,2000 and I still am a wreck when it comes time for my mamogram and pet scan.It sure doesn't help when they say we need to do another film.I am waiting now for the results of my pet scan that I had on Weds.I think that we all feel the same when it comes time for our check ups and waiting for those results.While we are in treatment at least for me I felt better because they were watching me every week and I felt safer I guess if that makes any sense.My prayers are with you and let us know how your tests come out.Feel free to email me here or at maudsemills@aol.com. God Bless Debbie

nasa2537

Hi Angie...I kind of know where you're coming from. I just had my 1st post-tx mammo Wednesday. I was an absolute wreck!!! The day I had it, I came home and cried. Thankfully, they realize the waiting is difficult, and they called Thursday morning to say it was benign. I bawled like a baby! The pressure was off, and it was amazing. I can't imagine hearing them say that they saw a spot somewhere...the waiting on those results must have been awful. Some women in my local support group said they get very anxious every time they go, and some are 10 year or more survivors. So, unfortunately, it sounds like we might be stuck with the anxiety. I'll say a prayer for you, and please keep us posted here, or e-mail me to let me know how yours turns out. Cyndi
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lemon

You are not alone. I don't know of anyone who has had it that isn't a mess. My poor DH said he can tell when it is time for another one. I become personality challenged.Isn't that a nice word for what I become? I even get all upset getting my pap done now. I have never considered myself a chicken, but you should hear me cluck.