Long-term survival and disability problems

jab1

I have been living with Breast CA for 20 yrs. now. I was stage 3 when diagnosed, had a chest wall reoccurrence 4 yrs. later and mets to bones and large tumor in my chest behind my sternum 8 yrs later. It is now another 8 yrs. later and the denomination in which I am a minister is dropping me off their disability program because I haven't died yet. Are others having similar problems? I think my continued existence should be considered a miracle and a sign of hope for others. Instead I feel like I am being punished for not having died when the oncologist predicted. Multiple problems from treatments and the passage of time seem not to be relavent to anyone but me.