I've never been involved in a discussion group and am not really sure how to do it. My question may seem a little off, but here goes. When a mammogram showed abnormalities and I had a surgical biopsy of both breasts, the report that came back said, "bordering on ductal carcinoma". After a visit with an oncologist, I was advised that I should have a bi-lateral mastectomy. He said that because of the fybrosistic tissue and the difficulty in reading the mammograms that there was no guarantee there wasn't more that they couldn't see. He told me that if I had the surgery while it was still "borderline" that unless more was found, I shouldn't have to have the chemo or radiation. I have also been on horomone replacement for about 10 years. He said that if I waited until it was no longer "borderline" that I would have to go off the estrogen. Not a fun thought. So after some soul searching, I opted for the mastectomies. Nothing more was found in the lymph nodes and my doctor told me I had made the right move because if I had waited another six months, it wouldn't have been such a happy ending. Now a year later and after reconstruction, I feel kind of isolated. It's like, I know something big happened (everytime I look in the mirror), but I almost feel guilty that I didn't have to undergo what most of you did with your chemo or radiation. I don't know what to call myself. Am I a cancer survivor?