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Shayenne
Shayenne CSN Member Posts: 2,342
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
Hello my guardian angels! Thank You so much for all your prayers, good energies, and good vibes. Note: I am still here, and hoping for miracles. The stupid cancer got to my brain, spine, still in my liver, so where it's hard for doctors to get too. These doctors really tried to their best, especially my being a mother of 4.

I didn't get to read all the posts on this board, as I've been taking it easy now, and waiting the hospice nurses to adjust my meds, Now, this doesnt mean I'm dying tomorrow, or next week or anything. They are really good people who just making me comfortable especially with pain. They are putting me on pain pump for me on Friday, for when the
time comes, I will not be in any pain. The hospice burse said it will make me more comfortable. So, I don;t know how morphine will be on me, hope it doesn,t make me oopy or anything.

I did read the prayer board though, and so touched by ALL of you! thank you, all my angels, as you have all touched and inspired. I came here so scared, and you all took that away for me, now not scared...well maybe a little heehee...more scared about my kids, have had some great talks with them. I love them so much, how they helped me though this.

My prayers and good vibes will be with you all as well. Even even when I go to where our creator is, I'll even make sure I stand where the door that Angel is standing at welcoming us back home Michelle :)

You all have been very special to me, and will try to get on here as much as possible, If I missed posts, I apologize, theres a load of posts to get tbrough. Now I'm off to have some ice cream, and note that I love each and everyone of you!

Hugs and Loveeeeeeeee,
~Donna
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  • msccolon
    msccolon CSN Member Posts: 1,917 Member
    #2
    welcome!
    It sure was heartwarming to read your post! As you know, we are all praying for you and here to support you with whatever you need! Maybe your kids could read some of the posts to you that you don't have the energy for! I know you are having a really hard time now, know that we are trying to help you with your burden; you have been a strong warrior and I don't doubt that you are continuing today! Stay strong and continue to do as you have been in this fight, what's best for you and your family!
    mary
  • CherylHutch
    CherylHutch CSN Member Posts: 1,375 Member
    #3
    Yo! Donna!
    You do realize, girlfriend, in the middle of all my running about, it was YOU who managed to get me to come back and post on the board... I was doing one of my long, rambling babbles, while you were over here posting. Go figure? And how the heck do you manage to say everything you want to say in a nice, concise, easy to read post, where I go babbling on for pages and I'm still not finished?

    Girlfriend... you are going to be just fine. Your kids are amazing and they, too, are going to be just fine. And no matter which way your journey takes you, you are always going to have angels around you... the hospice guys/gals are totally amazing. Where DO they get their angel qualities from?? All of them? But because of this, you are not going to have to worry about how to juggle pain management on your own... that worry will have been taken away from you :)

    Ok... I know your time online is going to be cut back, but what the heck... I think I'll go fertilize your farm and feed those chickens and send you a honeybee or two :)

    Hugggggggggs!

    Cheryl
  • z
    z CSN Member Posts: 1,414 Member
    #4
    CherylHutch said:

    Yo! Donna!
    You do realize, girlfriend, in the middle of all my running about, it was YOU who managed to get me to come back and post on the board... I was doing one of my long, rambling babbles, while you were over here posting. Go figure? And how the heck do you manage to say everything you want to say in a nice, concise, easy to read post, where I go babbling on for pages and I'm still not finished?

    Girlfriend... you are going to be just fine. Your kids are amazing and they, too, are going to be just fine. And no matter which way your journey takes you, you are always going to have angels around you... the hospice guys/gals are totally amazing. Where DO they get their angel qualities from?? All of them? But because of this, you are not going to have to worry about how to juggle pain management on your own... that worry will have been taken away from you :)

    Ok... I know your time online is going to be cut back, but what the heck... I think I'll go fertilize your farm and feed those chickens and send you a honeybee or two :)

    Hugggggggggs!

    Cheryl

    Donna
    Hi Donna,

    I'm so glad to see you post. Your posts inspire me. I am praying for miracles for you, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Lori
  • just4Brooks
    just4Brooks Member Posts: 980 Member
    #5
    Now that's
    A wonderful woman!!!


    Love ya Donna
    Brooks
  • CanadaSue
    CanadaSue CSN Member Posts: 339 Member
    #6
    Donna,
    Good to see you back
    Donna,

    Good to see you back here girl!

    Prayers are on going, for a miracle for you and your family!


    (((((HUGS))))

    Sue
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member
    #7
    z said:

    Donna
    Hi Donna,

    I'm so glad to see you post. Your posts inspire me. I am praying for miracles for you, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Lori

    Oh Donna
    you are truley an amazing person , Thank You so much for always keeping me and angel close to you. And angel will be waiting with a smile love you

    huggs

    michelle
  • Patteee
    Patteee CSN Member Posts: 945
    #8
    Oh Donna I am so glad to see
    Oh Donna I am so glad to see you, er, read you :)

    Love you! Wish this wasn't happening to you, or any of us :( But it is, damn it.
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh CSN Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #9
    Hi Chicky:)
    So good to see your face and "hear" your voice:)

    You really shook our world up - only you could do that.

    Morphine can make you feel loopy if you take too much, LOL:)

    One day in the hospital (when I was briefly on the pump), I went to sleep sitting up. It was adjusted to a gram every 10 minutes and I had too much that hour. They did not let me keep it long, but it does help when you have pain. After that, it was a 2-gram shot every 4 hours for breakthrough, but still got me up and moving around to get my walks in and such. I hope that works out good for you as well.

    Devastated to hear about the spread. Seems so many of us have a situation right now. The brain scared me to death - and to be truthful, hearing your story shook me back to my core roots. Made me think if it could happen to Chicky, it could happen to me, but we'll fight in the lung right now and just take it as it comes. But you got my attention, honey.

    You handle things so well. I've thought of you often and just wish I could do something besides sit here. I'm laid up pretty hard right now. Been home just under a week now. Won't bore you with my story, you are our priority case right now.

    I'll let you go, but just wanted to say "love you." You should see a card from me this week. Kim picked one out for me as I could not physically go - she is worried and talks about you.

    ~Your Lion
  • snommintj
    snommintj CSN Member Posts: 601
    #10
    Sundanceh said:

    Hi Chicky:)
    So good to see your face and "hear" your voice:)

    You really shook our world up - only you could do that.

    Morphine can make you feel loopy if you take too much, LOL:)

    One day in the hospital (when I was briefly on the pump), I went to sleep sitting up. It was adjusted to a gram every 10 minutes and I had too much that hour. They did not let me keep it long, but it does help when you have pain. After that, it was a 2-gram shot every 4 hours for breakthrough, but still got me up and moving around to get my walks in and such. I hope that works out good for you as well.

    Devastated to hear about the spread. Seems so many of us have a situation right now. The brain scared me to death - and to be truthful, hearing your story shook me back to my core roots. Made me think if it could happen to Chicky, it could happen to me, but we'll fight in the lung right now and just take it as it comes. But you got my attention, honey.

    You handle things so well. I've thought of you often and just wish I could do something besides sit here. I'm laid up pretty hard right now. Been home just under a week now. Won't bore you with my story, you are our priority case right now.

    I'll let you go, but just wanted to say "love you." You should see a card from me this week. Kim picked one out for me as I could not physically go - she is worried and talks about you.

    ~Your Lion

    Still hope
    I don't know exactly where your tumors are in your brain, but I'm sure you could go overseas and have them treated with stereotactic radio surgery. I am praying for you and wishing you the best.
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan CSN Member Posts: 3,673 Member
    #11
    Donna
    Donna,

    It is unbelievably nice to hear from you. We all care about + love you so much. Your attitude and approach to life + cancer are truly inspirational. Thanks so much for letting us know how you are doing. Know you are loved!
  • P_I_T_A
    P_I_T_A Member Posts: 133
    #12
    Hey
    I was so stunned when I learned about your mets update. You were so supportive and inspirational towards me when I joined the board last year. I'm sure you'de probably be amazed at just how many people you've touched in our unique family here. Hoping and praying for the best. Take care of yourself.

    -DJ
  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 CSN Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #13
    Thinking of You
    So glad to see that you are on the boards, even if it is for just to post once in awhile. It's good that hospice is helping you with this pain, they definitely are such angels on earth. So sorry to hear that it has spread so. Praying for a miracle for you.

    Hugs! Kim
  • TLG320
    TLG320 Member Posts: 167
    #14
    Prayers and love
    Donna,
    You and your beautiful family are in my prayers right now. As someone said above, no matter what road your journey leads you on, your sweet children are going to be just fine - they've been raised by an amazingly strong, wise, and resilient woman!

    You've always been so sweet to me and everyone else on this board - thank you for being one of the first to welcome me here. You demonstrated to all of us that life doesn't stop after a cancer diagnosis - I know that I speak for many when I say that you are truly an inspiration to keep on living - and have a lot of fun along the way!

    I am devasted that you've experienced this turn of events. I'm still praying for a miracle and sending you lots of love!
    Tashina
  • Aud
    Aud Member Posts: 479 Member
    #15
    Donna
    so good to see your post. Holding you in the Light for healing, hope, and peace.
    love,
    Aud
  • coolvdub
    coolvdub Member Posts: 408 Member
    #16
    Aud said:

    Donna
    so good to see your post. Holding you in the Light for healing, hope, and peace.
    love,
    Aud

    Glad you posted
    Donna,

    I'm so happy you were able to share with us what is going on. I'm sure things are very hectic right now, but I hope and am praying for a miracle for you. You have been so sweet and caring to so many, and you are such a strong person. I agree with the others who said your children will be fine, yu have done a wonderful job of raising them. Your spirit always shines through when you respond to another member.

    Don
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 CSN Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #17
    Love hearing from you!
    Hey!!!

    I'm SO glad you posted!!! We've all been thinking so much about you. Today when it was 3 here, I was part of the group praying for you. I did a solo at church Sunday, "I Want Jesus To Walk With Me." I dedicated it in my heart to you, dear lady, and today I sang it again just before I prayed.

    You are such a precious lady!!!

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 CSN Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #18
    Love hearing from you!
    Hey!!!

    I'm SO glad you posted!!! We've all been thinking so much about you. Today when it was 3 here, I was part of the group praying for you. I did a solo at church Sunday, "I Want Jesus To Walk With Me." I dedicated it in my heart to you, dear lady, and today I sang it again just before I prayed.

    You are such a precious lady!!!

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #19
    What A Woman
    Donna, I just wish I was half as strong as you, your so amazing. So great to see you back, yes Miracles do happen my friend, and I have been praying for one. God needs to know how much you are needed here, and maybe he will wait a while. Praying for you...dont give up...stay strong...know we love you very much...

    HUGS
    Beth
  • WinneyPooh
    WinneyPooh CSN Member Posts: 318
    #20
    Glad to Hear from You
    donna, so glad to hear from you, i have been away from the board for a couple of weeks dealing with cancer and family issues and to come back and read such sad news, I was shocked but to see you post reminds me of how strong you are and that is good, I know you have found peace in coming to grips with what this cancer has set in your path<:

    I have found great wisdom in your words and I thank you, My prays and good wish to you

    Live, Love, Play
    I know you will.
    Winnie
  • SandyL
    SandyL CSN Member Posts: 218
    #21
    WinneyPooh said:

    Glad to Hear from You
    donna, so glad to hear from you, i have been away from the board for a couple of weeks dealing with cancer and family issues and to come back and read such sad news, I was shocked but to see you post reminds me of how strong you are and that is good, I know you have found peace in coming to grips with what this cancer has set in your path<:

    I have found great wisdom in your words and I thank you, My prays and good wish to you

    Live, Love, Play
    I know you will.
    Winnie</p>

    So like you
    to think of us and post about your situation as it is now. I can't tell you how devastated we all are to hear of your latest spread. However, that being said it's good to know you are still able to fight this thing and I hope you know that we are all praying for you daily. You are such a brave and wonderful "friend" and I feel honored to know you just a little bit (as much as you can know someone online). Keep the gloves on....we need you here.
    Sandy

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