Four years cancerversary

Four years ago, I was diagnosed with an ugly 10cm monster, just few months after our first wedding anniversary and in my 30s. I was sure it would be impossible to survive. Three of my grandparents and my friend's son, all passed away few months post their diagnosis, so I imagined the same story would happen to me too and these thoughts made me even more frustrated and depressed. BUT My story was different. My urologist told me the pathology report was the best we could expect from such a large tumor and since then all follow ups reports are NED and hopefully will continue to be. I had my ups and downs in last four years but one thing I learned is nothing is predictable so I need to remain vigilant but don't need to imagine the worst. Here, this board played tremendously important role in my emotional recovery, So thanks everyone. Forough