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Sonia32
Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
edited March 2011 in Colorectal Cancer #1
anything will pay. :-) Yes it's that time of the year, when the birds chirp and flowers bloom..and yet it's still cold and no sign of spring yet. Lol ok I will get to my point, it's scan time again for me on Monday. Appreciate anything you can send or throw my way. If I pass this scan, then I will be only scanned yearly, plus it will be my two year mark.
Been feeling very down and drained lately, hoping it's nothing physical and just because I'm drained mentally. The divorce will be finalised in six weeks time, felt down when I knew about the decree nisi being read on Wednesday, felt I let my mum down. Anyway hugs to all my csn family, would be lost without you.

Love to all
Sonia
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  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117
    ok
    here it comes vooooodoooooo hooooo dooooo did you feel it.best of luck to you.remember take one day at a time.have a good weekend and just breath...Godbless...johnnybegood
  • Lovekitties
    Lovekitties Member Posts: 3,364
    Prayers coming your way
    Praying that you will find each day that you have a lighter heart.

    Divorce is difficult, but not necessarily a failure. Most times it is the best decision to make in light of the circumstances. You will only let your Mom down if you fail to move forward with life and do your best with all you are given.

    Hugs and best wishes for a clear scan Monday.

    Marie who loves kitties
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    :)
    You'll be in the clear:)

    -Craig
  • pepebcn
    pepebcn Member Posts: 6,331
    Sundanceh said:

    :)
    You'll be in the clear:)

    -Craig

    You got everything from me, vibes , prayers and voodoo?
    you really want it as well?
    My prayers! dear Sonia!
  • luvmum
    luvmum Member Posts: 457
    Will pray for you
    Dear Sonia,

    I'm sending my best wishes to you as well. I'm sure your mum would want to see you being happy more than anything.

    Love Dora
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625
    prayers
    Hi Sonia,

    You know I'm praying for you! My scan is Thursday & who knows what that might show- I'd appreciate prayers too. I'm still working on the skype thing- maybe I can figure it out.
    We'll talk somehow!
    Your mum would want your happiness & I know you had a rough time when you were married. Allow yourself forgiveness- it's okay and you will move on in life. Don't be so hard on yourself, my friend.

    Hugs to you,
    Lisa
  • soccermom13
    soccermom13 Member Posts: 224
    do something just for you
    this weekend. Lunch with a good friend, uplifiting movie, etc. Positive vibes coming your way this weekend and on Monday for the scan. Keeping it positive helps me through the anticipation!
    Hugs
    Shanna
  • Love2Cats
    Love2Cats Member Posts: 127
    Congrats on the 2 year mark
    Sending my most powerful mojo your way. Please try not to stress over your mom's feelings, I am sure she is more concerned about your health and happiness, and the divorce is secondary to all of that. Do something nice for yourself this weekend to help take your mind off things :)

    Sandy
  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238
    Beautiful Sonia
    Aww Sonia....you have all the good stuff I can pull together and then some. You're going to have a great scan and have a wonderful day when Monday comes! Have a relaxing weekend and get out in the sunshine....enjoy the weekend my dear.

    Love and hugs, Gail
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673
    Sonia
    I am throwing lots of good your way, even though I truly think all will be well for you. I don't think you let your Mum down, + as the Mom of two daughters I would never want either of them to be in a marriage that was not wonderful. I be your Mom would want only your happiness. I bet once this divorce is behind you, you will be able to look ahead to your future with great excitement. Sonia, I really believe there is a wonderful world awaiting you!
  • Crow71
    Crow71 Member Posts: 679
    I got vodoo hodoo out the
    I got vodoo hodoo out the wazoo for you.
  • Lori-S
    Lori-S Member Posts: 1,277
    Sonia
    Sending out some prayers and good vibes for your scans and just for you. Congrats on getting to this 2 year mark! Scans only once a year is a lot less stress too.

    I remember my divorce 24 years ago. All my friends wanted to take me out to celebrate the day the decree was final but, I felt it was the biggest failure of my life and stayed home crying instead. To this day, I consider my divorce to be my biggest failure. The one thing in my life that I couldn't make work no matter what I tried. Of course I was much younger then with less experience and personal growth to put into it. Though it was a failure to me it was also a wonderful personal education about relationships but, especially about myself. I grew a lot from the experience. Hang in there and just feel all the feelings so you don't have to carry them with you. Try to look for the lessons learned and apply them to your life as you go forward. It will be ok even for your mum.

    HUGS
  • christinecarl
    christinecarl Member Posts: 543
    Prayers coming your way
    I think the scan will be clean and then you can put your mind at ease. I am sorry about the divorce sh*t, it will be good to get it finalized perhaps some closure can be found in that. It is hard not get stressed or feel depressed with the scan thing weighing on your mind and I know it is hard not having a mom there to talk to or lean on their shoulder, they always knew what to do to make it all better didn't they :(

    {{hugs}

    -Chris
  • karguy
    karguy Member Posts: 1,020
    Sending
    Sending vibes,luck,wishes,and prayers.Your scan will be fine,your mother would want you to live your life well,and happy.
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731
    Be strong
    I will keep you in my prayers, be strong and keep the faith...

    HUGS
    Beth
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071

    ok
    here it comes vooooodoooooo hooooo dooooo did you feel it.best of luck to you.remember take one day at a time.have a good weekend and just breath...Godbless...johnnybegood

    I felt it :-)
    Hugs Johnnybegood thank you. Hope you are ok, and have had a good weekend.
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071

    Prayers coming your way
    Praying that you will find each day that you have a lighter heart.

    Divorce is difficult, but not necessarily a failure. Most times it is the best decision to make in light of the circumstances. You will only let your Mom down if you fail to move forward with life and do your best with all you are given.

    Hugs and best wishes for a clear scan Monday.

    Marie who loves kitties

    Thank you Marie
    Hugs to you, you are right. My mom wouldn't want to see me upset if she was around, I just know before she died she was so desperate to make sure I was settled. But anyway, really nervous about tomorrow, yikes. :( Hope you are ok.
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    Sundanceh said:

    :)
    You'll be in the clear:)

    -Craig

    Bro
    You better be right! :-p

    Hugs hope you and Kim are ok.
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    luvmum said:

    Will pray for you
    Dear Sonia,

    I'm sending my best wishes to you as well. I'm sure your mum would want to see you being happy more than anything.

    Love Dora

    Thank you so much Dora
    How are you? and how is your mum? Sending you both good wishes

    Hugs
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    lisa42 said:

    prayers
    Hi Sonia,

    You know I'm praying for you! My scan is Thursday & who knows what that might show- I'd appreciate prayers too. I'm still working on the skype thing- maybe I can figure it out.
    We'll talk somehow!
    Your mum would want your happiness & I know you had a rough time when you were married. Allow yourself forgiveness- it's okay and you will move on in life. Don't be so hard on yourself, my friend.

    Hugs to you,
    Lisa

    Awwww Lisa
    Hugss, your scan will show so much improvement I know it! Praying for you too.
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071

    do something just for you
    this weekend. Lunch with a good friend, uplifiting movie, etc. Positive vibes coming your way this weekend and on Monday for the scan. Keeping it positive helps me through the anticipation!
    Hugs
    Shanna

    Thank you Shana
    Went to see a friend on Saturday for coffee was not in a mood for it. But I forced myself to go and glad I did. Uplifting moves, do horror movies count? lol

    Hugss
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    pepebcn said:

    You got everything from me, vibes , prayers and voodoo?
    you really want it as well?
    My prayers! dear Sonia!

    Hehe Pepe
    I was trying to accommodate all faiths ;-) Thank you for the prayers.

    Hugss
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    Love2Cats said:

    Congrats on the 2 year mark
    Sending my most powerful mojo your way. Please try not to stress over your mom's feelings, I am sure she is more concerned about your health and happiness, and the divorce is secondary to all of that. Do something nice for yourself this weekend to help take your mind off things :)

    Sandy

    Sandy thank you hugs
    if I pass this scan, then I will have hit the two year mark. And my mom passed away 4 years ago in August 10 days after I got married. :-( I was so close to her and I know she wanted the best for me. But you are right she would be more concerned for my health and happiness.
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    plh4gail said:

    Beautiful Sonia
    Aww Sonia....you have all the good stuff I can pull together and then some. You're going to have a great scan and have a wonderful day when Monday comes! Have a relaxing weekend and get out in the sunshine....enjoy the weekend my dear.

    Love and hugs, Gail

    Beautiful Gail :-)
    Thank you so much. The sun has been out today and I did manage to go shopping and to church.
    Hope you have had a good weekend my friend.

    Hugs
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    AnneCan said:

    Sonia
    I am throwing lots of good your way, even though I truly think all will be well for you. I don't think you let your Mum down, + as the Mom of two daughters I would never want either of them to be in a marriage that was not wonderful. I be your Mom would want only your happiness. I bet once this divorce is behind you, you will be able to look ahead to your future with great excitement. Sonia, I really believe there is a wonderful world awaiting you!

    Anne
    You are so sweet, taking time out to reply to me as always. Your daughters are so lucky to have you as their mom. I really hope so about my future Anne hugss
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    Crow71 said:

    I got vodoo hodoo out the
    I got vodoo hodoo out the wazoo for you.

    Hehe thanks Roger
    Btw I love your profile picture.

    Hugss
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    Lori-S said:

    Sonia
    Sending out some prayers and good vibes for your scans and just for you. Congrats on getting to this 2 year mark! Scans only once a year is a lot less stress too.

    I remember my divorce 24 years ago. All my friends wanted to take me out to celebrate the day the decree was final but, I felt it was the biggest failure of my life and stayed home crying instead. To this day, I consider my divorce to be my biggest failure. The one thing in my life that I couldn't make work no matter what I tried. Of course I was much younger then with less experience and personal growth to put into it. Though it was a failure to me it was also a wonderful personal education about relationships but, especially about myself. I grew a lot from the experience. Hang in there and just feel all the feelings so you don't have to carry them with you. Try to look for the lessons learned and apply them to your life as you go forward. It will be ok even for your mum.

    HUGS

    Lori
    Hugss, thank you for sharing about your divorce with me. I will try and learn from it, and apply them as I move on.
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071

    Prayers coming your way
    I think the scan will be clean and then you can put your mind at ease. I am sorry about the divorce sh*t, it will be good to get it finalized perhaps some closure can be found in that. It is hard not get stressed or feel depressed with the scan thing weighing on your mind and I know it is hard not having a mom there to talk to or lean on their shoulder, they always knew what to do to make it all better didn't they :(

    {{hugs}

    -Chris

    Hugs bud :-)
    Thank you for letting me ramble on yesterday. And your right about mom's, they always do know (or did in our case) to say the right things. And mom's are so wise, you wouldn't think it as you were growing up if they disagreed with your choice of bf etc. But they were always right, and still are to this day.
  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 Member Posts: 1,071
    karguy said:

    Sending
    Sending vibes,luck,wishes,and prayers.Your scan will be fine,your mother would want you to live your life well,and happy.

    Thank you soo much
    Hugs how are you? hope you are doing ok.
  • tina dasilva
    tina dasilva Member Posts: 641
    ok hun
    i'm sending right now best of luck hugs Tina