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srndpty4life
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I am going for CT scan #2 of my right lung. A 9mm "spot" was found in the right upper lobe and is being checked again tmrw. Recent COPD diagnosis, and the fear of not being able to breath has got me quite worried. Anyone out there just starting this journey? 

srndpty4life
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I had my second scan done yesterday of this "spot" on my lung. I now know that this is called a nodule only because the tech referred to it as that. The wait contines, so in the meantime, I have called the Doc and asked for a Pulmonary referral. I know it's early in this diagnosis, but I feel like I am getting most of my info on this site. Still waiting on the call to see where things go from here.. The waiting is the worst!!Cry 

 

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jorola
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Nodules can be fairly comman. They can be caused by scarring from infections, diseases and even arthritis. It can only be confirmed as cancerous through a biopsy not a CT scan. Scans are often done to monitor for growth. Not that is a tell all for possible cancer either but often does prompt a biopsy - if it is big enough. A referral to a pulmonary specialist will get their opinion and if a biopsy is warranted. May your nodule not be cancerous and you continue on without cancer in your life.

srndpty4life
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I want to thank you for responding to my posts, I'm not sure where to begin. I saw your profile on here and your responses to others going through their cancer journey, including your husband. I actually started to reach out to you, I even began typing to you some of my questions, worries, and fears. I never sent it on as I'm not sure what is going on yet. I just want to say, what a nice surprise to get a reply from you! Thank you for sharing your knowledge and explaining these things to me, you seem to know quite about this and I can see why. I hope your husband is doing well, and you too! 

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jorola
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You should always see your dr and listen to their expert advise as I am no dr of course. I am only relaying yes what i have learned in my 4 1/2 years of having to be aquainted with this beast. God forbid but I can be wrong. I just have known a number of people that scared themselves to death that they had cancer and in the end they did not thank goodness. Sometimes it is just not cancer and I truly hope for you this is the case. I get it is scarey. Even still knowing what I do, if I was in your position I am sure I would still be freaked out until I knew for sure! Hey we are human. The thing that worked for me to try to remain calm and not focus on "cancer" was to do things I loved the most - hobbies, being with best friends, watching fav movies. What better way to spend your time right? That was advise I got from someone on another cancer site when I first started this journey and she is a very dear friend now. I  give that same advice to whomever needs it. Waiting sucks, but keep busy as above and wait to see what comes of the results. All the best and please let me know how things turn out. Fingers crossed!

srndpty4life
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Going to the Dr. for a follow up which will be a relief, things are moving along now and that seems to help. In the meantime, I have been staying away from digging too deep into anything until something is determined. The tech even told me the internet can be your enemy, imagine that!! So, I will take your advice and put this in the back of miy mind, and start focusing on the good things in my life. Spring is right around the corner, and I have alot to look forward to! Thanks again for your support and kind words. I will be back on here again once I see the Doc. 

LOWE2019
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I went for a random ct scan Dec. 13, I wanted to see if I had any calcium on heart, no calcium but to my surpise a 9mm spiculated nodule in lingual.  Terrified is an understatement even tho I smoked on and off for 20 years, 3 weeks later went for a PET scan that showed no uptake anywhere, not even the nodule, not even a little, so If it were to glow anywhere they would have got me right into a pulminologist but because it did not I see him Feb. 13.  I have been on every site possible and when it comes to nodules and spiculated it is not good, although I have talked to a few dr. who say spiculated does not always mean cancer.  The waiting is awful and I feel like my life just shut down, i am praying that it has not grown.

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jorola
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Like I said above, heck ya this is scary. I completely get that. But the only thing you can do is take things step by step. Jumping ahead to a diagnosis of cancer is only going to drive you nuts. I can see it in your post. I know you are beating yourself up for smoking. You can't change your past. As much as we would all love to it is what it is. You can change your future though. Whether you have cancer or not, if you haven't quit, you can quit now. Yes it does make a difference even now. I encourage you to STOP googling. That is only feeding your anxiety right now. If you can't find calm, talk to your dr about something to help you while you wait for results. Also if it is cancer, 9mm is very small - like stage 1 or at most 2 which both are very cureable. My husband's tumor was 7 CM across - just across, not even sure how big ALL THE WAY around it was. He was stage 3b and after some tough chemo and radition he is now 4.5 yrd no evidence of disease (cancer free). PLease take heart LOWE. Take deep breaths. You are in good hands with your dr. Let us know how things turn out for you as well ok?

ElsaMay
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Your words of advice have taken a weight of my shoulders - I too am waiting for test results.
I'd been having increasing trouble breathing so doc ordered xray. Xray showed pleural effusion on right lung. They drained two litres (!!) of fluid off on Thursday and I had CT scan on Friday (plus full bloods, ECG, etc, etc). ECG and bloods all fine. Fluid has been sent for testing and will see the doc this coming week for CT and fluid results. Have been beside myself with fear - I had breast cancer (stage 3 invasive) 10 years ago on my right side and doc said there's a chance this could be a reoccurance. Am absolutely terrified that it's come back and am expecting the worst even though I know that's irrational.
It's the waiting and not knowing that is the hardest - which I'm sure everyone on here knows.
Anyway I just wanted to say a huge THANK YOU - your post has provided me with some reassurance and sensible advice :) 

LOWE2019
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Thank you for your response.  I quit smoking the day I found out about the nodule almost 2 months ago, cold turkey.  The doc did give me something for my anxiety, doesnt seem to be working lol.  I am so happy to hear that your husband is now 4.5 years cancer free, that is very encouraging. I wil get back on after dr. appt. next week with update.

srndpty4life
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I had my second scan, and follow up with family doc. What a relief to find no new growth! That being said, I am in a much better place than I was a few wks ago. I do NOT have cancer!! Thank the Lord above! Being as I did have a recent COPD diagnosis, I am going to follow thru with a pulmonary dr. just for peace of mind. I would like to say to LOWE2019, I totally understand your fears, just as JOROLA said. Stop digging too deep into this as I did, it will just cause you great stress and worry, and that's not good for anyone. As the tech told me, "the internet can be your worst enemy", and she is right.Jorola, you are a God send to those of us with these scary scans! And to you Lowe2019, I wish you good results and peace of mind. 

LOWE2019
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I saw the pulmonologist yesterday and he said the pet scan looked good but yet sometimes there is no uptake on small nodules.  He also pulled up the pet scan disc and looked and said I also have a 1mm nodule in same lung, he didnt seem to think that was anything (ofcourse I am freaked out), the main thing is though, he said the nodule looked very round and not spiculated, he also showed it to me and it didnt look spiculated at all, so he said to small to biopsy, doesnt think i need to get agressive and have the vats (yet) wants me to come back in April and see if the nodule has grown.  I was very encouraged by the no spiculation but then I looked it up and it says ct scans are better then pet scans...uggg why do I do this to myself.

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jorola
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always remember take things step by steps and breathe. you will find your way. You are most kind with your words, thank you but I am just returning the favour once paid to me when I was once in your position. Seriosly no need to thank me. Just promise me to go live, laugh and most of all love.

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jorola
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A pulmonary specialist knows their thing. I am sure he looked at both scans. You can ask him when you follow up again but until then you are in no danger. 1 mm is extremely small. Even if it was cancer it would be stage 1 at this most with is totally curable. My hubby's tumor was 7 cms across, that's not even the total circumference. He was stage 3b and you know his story. Again breathe. You will be ok. Your doctor will figure this out and the best way to deal with it, if it even needs to be dealt with at all. There is no confirmation you even have cancer and I hope you don't and never do get that diagnosis. Stay away from the internet and go live. Talk with your dr at your next appt and got from there.

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