Post Hysterectomy Depression and I have it
Hi Ladies, I've been holding this in but I just have to vent and I'd take a kind word if this all doesn't leave anyone speechless.
Fact is, I don't feel good. Everyday is a challenge for me. I have to see the post operative doctor tomorrow. Husband told me to make a list of things. I filled 3 pages.
if anyone has any answers, please let me know. I know you are all kind and sensitive and considerate. But I will admit, MUCH stronger than me. Here is my list
1. What stage is this cancer? When you said "early cancer," what does it mean?
2.Do I still have cancer?
3.Where does it recurr? I've read vaginal cuff or vault?
4.I have chest pain off and on - never had it before this surgery. why?
5.Belly Button started bleeding on Sunday night. I don't know why. it has stopped now
6.I have a lump under the sutures. It is huge and painful to touch
7.Have pains in ovaries (bad cramping) but I have no ovaries. IS this what they call Phantom pains? why? does it hurt so bad?
8.Hurts to have a bowel movement. Very painful. I am afraid I will get that thing, Rectocele?
9.I feel things moving around inside of me when I walk like all my organs are looose
10 have constant pain on left side where the nurse so boldy pushed in a blood clot in the recovery room. It bruised me down my leg on the left side. all this bruising is painful.
11 I feel this surgery has aged me.
12 the bruising is so severe, it actually makes me sick to my stomach to look at it. don't want to wash it. am in pain for hours afterward
13 my stomach is swollen. It doesn't seem to be improving much at all. I am sick of wearing yoga pants
14 I am depressed. will not take depression pills. I was on those for hot flashes and they make me sweat, hallucinate and very sick. usually vomit.
15 I have started bleeding. now what?
16.my hot flashes are from HELL. I miss my HRT. don't feel like the same person without it.
17 I wonder who I am now. Or what I am
I also have fits of anxiety where I want to tear my hair out. I suffer from chronic migraines and that is enough to deal with and now there is pain in my head and down below. I am SO DISGUSTED.
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