Just found out I have cancer

I was in your shoes last year and was so afraid.  Between the consults and tests it seemed like an eternity.  The doctor who did the colonoscopy also told me he was sure it was cancer.  That was October 10 and I didn't have surgery until December 1.  But l learned that this type of cancer is usually slow growing so I had time to get things in order.  By the time I had surgery I just wanted it over.  You will likely have a CAT, maybe MRI.  And you will know more about your situation before you have surgery.  

As far as work goes, I told my manager and then sent out an email to my coworkers.  I didn't want to have to repeat my situation over and over.  The support was amazing.  

The surgery went amazingly well as.  I was actually planning my funeral at on point I was so afraid.  I was discharged on the second post op day.  No colostomy.  I had stage 2a and chose not to have chemo.  I will follow up annually and that is scheduled for January.  I'm in MN and went to the U of M.  Thought they were just excellent.  Also consulted with the Mayo Clinic .  Prays for peace and a good prognosis and speedy recovery for you.  There are a lot of people on this forum to support you.  

Sorry that you have to join this forum but this is a great place to come to. We have many wonderful and caring people here that will give advice and support. Some are patients (like me), some are caregivers and some are survivors. 

Colon cancer is treatable and even curable. You will have to go through some blood tests, Ct scans and MRI before the suregery. Then followed by adjuvant chemotherapy. 

Being scared is normal. When my GI doctor first told me that I have a tumor in my colon and it didn't look good. I was stunned and I was already planning my funeral in my head. That was back in July. Since I had surgery and I'm currently half way done with my chemo.

Don't read up the WebMD. I almost gave myself a heart attack reading it right after my tumor was discovered. I know it's easier said than done but worry will only stress yourself more. I know waiting is the worse. Keep yourself busy at mean time. You will beat this! 

I only let few of my close coworkers know. Eventually everyone noticed I was missing and curious and wanted to know what happened to me. They texted and FB messaged me. After my surgery I posted on my FB. By that time it didn't bother me for everyone to know. 

    I recall all too well the day I found out,  June 19. I was a complete mess, still am to some degree but a little more polished and composed. Your about to go through a lot of life changing events.  There is no way around it but keep in mind that what ever you do.  DO AS THE DOCTORS TELL YOU!   Most of them have a lot of experience, training, etc, and know exactly how to handle this.  We don't.  No matter how much reading you do you'll never catch up on 10 years+ of education and training.  If you're given an option take the one that results in more treatment, not less.  The better you are at that the better you'll finish.

  I'm sure you've read survivor stats.  We all did at first. Here are some facts they don't disclose that skew them.  After talking to the medical staff I've learned a few things. A good portion of the people who don't survive don't because they did not keep all their appointments, did not take all their pills, or wandered off thinking some ancient chinese herb or some other unproven nonsense is going to cure them.  Two examples.  While I was going to radiation I was told a lot of people quit before they're done.  Another is while waiting to pick up a load of chemo pills I saw a short clip on the TV in the waiting room that said only about 20% of the prescriptions issued are taken as prescribed.  Also, a number of those survivor stats are based on older people (70+) getting this from 20 years back. Not to seem morbid but some of them were going to die within the 5 or 10 years anyhow plus what we have now in procedures is a lot better.   At 40, even if it's stage 4 you'll make it through just fine.  Age and physical make up matters a lot. 

  Dealing with others whether it be wives, husbands, relatives, co-workers etc, keep this in mind.  They do not have cancer, you do. That was a mistake I made expecting a certain level of compassion  That's impossible and until a person has this there is no comparison to something else.  You'll get mad, sad, and all sorts of other things.  I've got a garage door and dryer with big dents so a little anger is perfectly fine and normal. 

  Time will be your enemy for the moment.  It's also ok to push for sooner appointments.  Be dramatic if need be on the phone. It worked for me in the beginning to get some of the tests done quicky.  Depending on several factors you could have an ultrasound, PET scan, CT scan, MRI, or others.  Purpose is to get the treatment ball rolling as soon as possible. 

  The treatments can start with surgery or could be radiation and chemo prior to surgery.  It will depend on where the tumour is and of course its size and so forth.  In case you're wondering, if yours is up as high as you indicated you won't end up with a bag.  That's also everyone's big fear.  I had chemo and radiation at the same time up until Sept 11.  I then had surgery which was just 2 weeks ago.  Side affects from any of that can vary wildely from person to person.  Some of them will sneak up on you without you realizing so it's a good idea to have someone monitor your drinking/eating habits.  I lost my sense off thirst and hunger plus the added bonus of getting forgetful as someone with dimensia.  I'm not convinced it's tied to the chemo entirely since a good portion of your thoughts are going to be one thing, I've got cancer. It's inescapable and will cloud your judgment and just about everything else for a while until you've got solid answers and know the course of action.  If you've got a hobby or some activity try to put as much time to it as you can.  It's not perfect but you'll find it can distract you from this for a while.

  I'm now waiting to start the post surgery chemo and ran head on into a disagreement between the surgeon and oncologist.  The surgeon said there was no lymph node involvement and it didn't appear there ever was.  The oncologist said he didn't buy that since the chemo/radiation I had prior to surgery MIGHT have masked it.  He said it was exceedingly rare to have a tumour the size I did and it not be invasive.  He wanted to give me the standard stage 3 follow up.  The purpose of which is to ensure the next PET scan doesn't show it's moved to greener pastures.  I told him I know enough to know I don't know so what ever he suggests I'll go along with. For the next four to six months I'll be a little miserable again but in the long run there won't be any regrets.  My comfort is knowing I've done what I'm supposed to.   

Sorry you are going through this, but I was in your exact place over 11 years ago at age 39 (see, not the death sentence some might think).  I too had blood in my stool that prompted a colonoscopy that found a large mass nearly blocking my colon in almost the same place as yours. After surgery, I received the dreaded news that it was Stage 3 cancer due to some mets in nearby lymph nodes. I underwent 6 months of chemo and was declared NED until the cancer came back as Stage 4 in 2013 as mets to the liver. I again underwent surgery and another 6 months of chemo followed up by 1.5 years of maintenance chemo. I was declared NED again until it returned this year as mets to another lymph node and in the vertibrae. I just completed another standard chemo regiment and am now doing 1 year of maintenance chemo but am NED for the third time. I feel pretty good (or my new normal) despite the lingering fatigue that goes along with chemo treatments.

Just remember, everyone is different and how they respond to treatment is different. Do not let any statistics get you down because they don't always apply to every situation. How your body responds to cancer and treatments has A LOT to do with your attitude and mental state. Not sure how you feel about faith, but I can honestly say that this whole experience has definately brought me closer to God and to my family. I don't know how those who do not believe in God are able to cope with the struggle of having cancer. One of my favorite scripture verses that really helped me put perspective on my own battle is Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and couraeous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

Even though this is not something you know how to cope with now, we are all here to support you through this fight. I will be praying for good results on your upcoming tests.