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molimoli
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Hi ladies,I hope this is the start of a blessed, renewed strength week end for all of you. I have read your different journeys and spiritually  travelling with you all.May the goodness and grace of the Creator find you wherever you are.and cause you renewed spirit,renewed health and most of all a certain kind of peace of mind that leaves you mentally free to plot and plan your fight . Life itself is a fight , the reasons and the challenges keeps changing but life picks a fight with your mental state , allways. I wish you Peace of Mind.

To update: I met with my new oncologist, a delightful man, He viewed my file prior to our visit ,knows how I feel re :treatment options, placed only Chemo on the table, said anything at all that they do for me is simply palliative. My fast growing recurrence is troubling for him but surgery is not an option.He said he is going to take the liberty of scheduling Chemo to start Sept. 8th. as we spoke he was putting in his Chemo order.but was doing so in a take charge fatherly way,bless him , I didn't oppose, I didn't agree, I was there to listen with an open mind and that's what I did .He must have sensed that I loved my dad and wished him back from the grave to take charge and comfort me.  I am yet to be convinced that doctors can take all of my God given furnitures out of my pelvis and I stayed  alive , Then an  intruder enters the empty room,setting up house but any attempt to remove this intruder will cause me to be dead. I still don't buy it, mainly because  my tumors are not attached to any organs or vital structures yet,and not as far back in the pelvis as I was made to believe, as per last scan.which I ordered and looked at in details.  Inside of me , I talked without speaking , mostly hugged silence.Didn't want to oppose this kind gentleman who only wants  to help me, but his way.

 

This I voiced, "Can I get scanned ,just to see how many other tumors popped up and how much growth in the 2  existing ones , so that my decision will be based on my current condition and not out of fear of conditions around the bend" He agreed, so I had the scans yesterday. waiting on results.

Also met with my family doctor on Wednesday,She was very happy that l  'promised a decision' as soon as results are in.She feels more stressed in my limbo position than I am. Unknown to her today Friday I made an appointment with a naturopathic doctor for next week, I also confirmed an appointment with a gyne surgeon with 35 years experience. Her condition is that I get the referral letter to her office before my appointment. I dare not ask my doctor for that letter until the scan results are in ,dare not,

I really do suspect that there are other mets but wait with me ,we'll see. Nuff nuff love to you all. I care about us.

 

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Thanks for the update Moli

you are thoughtful and caring for the members in this board.  I hope you find the answers you need to make your decision on what to do

i wish I could say more but I am not thinking clearly as I am tired but I wanted to respond to your post

my best to you 

Kathy

molimoli
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I  care about us and  our well being together as a team and I feel the love and support coming to me from you all so I  out of gratitude must continually tell you and all my sisters that I without a doubt give praises to the Creator for directing my stumble into this wonderful family who in turn accepted me with all my confusion and pain, accept and or excused  my contrary opinions.without trying to make me over , Thank you for being part of the settling team Kaleena. I now must go to bed , I am a night owl. so must be sleeping by sun up..

A blessed and wonderful day to you all,, Nuff love Moli.

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So glad to hear from you. Really appreciate the update. I sure hope the scans give you the answers you seek. And, seeing the surgeon is a great idea. One more opinion is not a bad thing.  I so want you to find the peace you need. Sending you lots of love and hugs Moli.  Love Cindi

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I think your decision to have an MRI to assess whether there are other tumors is a wise choice.  I realize that choosing chemo is a difficult choice for you, especially at a time when you want your daughters to be unaware of your cancer diagnosis. I soon discovered during the 4 plus months that I received chemo how difficult it was to hide my treatments from others, including strangers. I had no hair on my head- eyebrows and eyelashes included and my coloring was off. Emotionally, it was difficult, but I managed to put one foot in front of the other and lived each day the best I could. Not sure why your oncologist thinks surgery is not the treatment choice for you. Could radiation be the answer? I saw a radiologist early on and he told me that radiation would not help me because I didn't have tumors.

Whatever you decide, moli, know that I am praying for you and for your daughters, as well. 

With a Big Hug,

Cathy

 

molimoli
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From the top of my head to my big toe, and Helen's post  dragged me  kicking and screaming into UPSC university ,educated me on reasons why things won't always  actually be how I think it.

I learnt that whack -a mole is sometimes the only game of choice, In my situation it seem to be the game  I am destined to play. I now realize that it's not if I'll play it, it's how I'll  play it. Bottom line. it's a year and  six  months since surgery with no treatment since mets were found 6 months ago.getting scarey, so must act pronto since my fight about surgery is now a none issue, common sense is prevailing.

Thanks for your unwaivering support everytime. Yes Chemo is a hard swallow for me  but alternatives are out there, ,How and if they work well, I intend to find out.The girls  and boys are fine I was with them on Sunday,Its amazing how well I feel, No one would guess the intensity of the storm I am facing ,so sneaky, this demon.

Thanks for the prayers and the hug is warm  ,I need and want both,

Thank you all for calling me in from the rain and never cease to give me equiptments to weather the storm. You have all been my rock of ages. Nuff Thanks Nuff love.

molimoli
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Thank you Cindi, I feel the hugs ,sense the love ,it is mutual,

As you bravely embark on your fight  I admire your strength and positive vibes that are infectious, I hope that the treatment will enhance your life and keep this terrible crap at bay,We cannot direct life's wind ,but we can always reset our sails.

Stay positive and eat ,not because you want to but because you must. Eating is a way of biting chemo back. Awful disease , awful Chemo  Awfully brave women,

 Renewed strength everyday, plenty,plenty love, close your eyes and  imagine us there hugging you when the going gets tough. if you are claustrophobic,take a pill, we are hugging,yup.

 

PS: When I grow up I want to be a brave warrior just like you and all my other sisters ahead of you.

 

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I didn't realize until your other post that you never had chemo. While it is a scary thing.... It isn't nearly as bad as we make it in our heads. Moli, no one but you can make the decision on what is best for your care. I sure hope you come to the conclusion that chemo can be your friend. (Sorry, don't mean to tell you what to do.) I am looking at this as a gift of life for myself. And, I do still have my down times but deep down in my gut, I know what I need to do for ME.  My next decision will be if I do the Brachytherapy or not. My doctor wants me to. My husband wants me to.  And, I probably will. But for now, putting it aside and staying focused on the chemo steps.

Please take care of yourself. Glad you spent time with your kids. Lots of love your way! Cindi

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Thank you, moli!  Sending HUGS your way.

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I feel the hug and I thank and appreciate you, You ladies ahead of us have become our light house, almost like Captain John's  but better lit with compassion to boot,

Cancer took me out of darkness and introduced me to a wonderful crew of light house keepers  and soul sustainers. words cannot express my feeling of belonging,Thanks you for taking the time to care.  .  hugging,  nuff love

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I am happy for you that you aren't leaving any doors closed while you determine what is best for you.  I think certain people are put in front of us when we need them but don't know that we do - it sounds like this new oncologist is a good guy.  I remember the conversations we have had with two different surgeons and others about why my mets are inoperable.  My main oncologist explained it the best to me; other dialogues were more for my husband and brothers.  They needed it laid out in a way that made sense for them.  

The only, unsolicited (apologies) advice I would suggest is that you make your oncologist aware of the naturopathic doctor and their suggestions.  Frequently the two work together for an individualized approach - that would benefit you thE most and make sure one isn't doing something to negate what the other is doing.  

Keeping you in my prayers as always.  Hugs!  Anne

 

molimoli
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Even more so today,Re Helen's post which led me to a revelation which makes perfect sense of my situation and ungoing battle with my doctors and my inner self,I now understand fully about their unspoken fears.  and if they are not fearing that then they should be because  my request smells of morbidity,really..

Don't worry I will tell them about each other and treatment suggestions.I know how they hate to be in the dark.For my own safety I wont take the chance

Thank you for letting me stay in your prayers as you'll stay in mine. I will focus  more  on treatment options and not dwell on surgery. Scan results are pending so we'll see where we go from here.My doctors will be happy not to hear anything about surgery, I will be meeting with a surgeon but with reservations, I had booked it before my revelation so I must go.

 Same here hugs and nuff love. Moli.

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I am so sorry you have to go through this.  I am hoping you find a treatment plan that you can be comfortable with .  It looks like you are coming up with good ideas.  We are all different, and we all need that plan that suits us best.  I could fell God's presence in each decision that we made.  He will be with you too.

the hardest thing I had to do was to tell my 4 adult children.  They are scattered from one end of the country to,the other.  My youngest daughter was upset that I had told a few friends and collegues before her( school was starting in two weeks and I needed to tell them what was going on).  I waited a little to tell the kid because I wanted to have all the details before I told them.  I was surprised at how well the took it.  It was awesome to have their love and support through all of this.  There is nothing I couldn't ask them .  Hugs and prayers headed your,way,  Lou Ann

molimoli
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I must get things in order  re; treatment before I go ahead and pull them into this . I am closer to this goal with good wishes and all the shoulders here to lean on.I have had an amazing wake up call from Helen's post to me ,Don't know what route I'll take but it will be fast. Lots of wasted time looking at things from one side of the fence.Thanks ,I can feel all the hugs and well wishes ,and its coming right back to you .  Nuff love. Moli.

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I so feel for you and what you are going through at the moment.  Trying to decide which are the best treatment options are never easy and there are so many questions - often ones that don't have clear answers!

For what it's worth, my "take" on why they are saying that they can't operate is this.  The tumours in the pelvis are probably not touching other organs or structures, but they may be very close to them (there's not a lot of space "down below" even after the major surgeries that we all experience).  So it is possible that they do not believe that they can get good, clear margins of healthy tissue around the tumour.  If they can't get this, then there is a very, very high chance of further recurrence, which would mean you had gone through horrendous, major surgery and a long recovery only to see this evil beast pop back up again.  There is also the possibility of other mets elsewhere (although I hope and pray for you that your most recent scans shows that there aren't).  In which case, there would be no point in attacking one area, when another was also causing issues. 

I've been there, Molimoli - further surgery is not an option for me, either.  But I am 5 years down the line from my last surgery, having been on various types of hormone therapy since then.  Chemo is always in the wings, but I am still here, leading a good quality of life.  This whole disease is like a giant game of "whack a mole" (do you have that game in the US?) where you knock one tumour down and it pops up somewhere else.  Keep whacking, is what I say!

Hoping and praying you find the best way forward for you.

Kindest wishes
Helen xx

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Helen words cannot express my gratitude for your brilliance ,confirmation : we all truly need each other.  I can look at things from both sides now,I needed a sensible reason for their refusal.I got none , just "Not an option'  . One oncologist did explain that there could be many others waiting to pop up.  My request was ,remove the 2 large ones that we can see and then I will agree to the chemo afterwards to mop up the stragglers.  No one mentioned the importance of clear margins and the difficulty to achieve that in that space.  and as brilliant as I fancied myself to be (go on  you all , roll your eyes and LOL as much as you want, LOL again) I never thought of that at all. They could have frightened me into chemo long ago if only they had you as a consultant on their team. I'd be almost done.

As I read your post I could feel  port going in and  neuropathy setting  in my toes. My AHA !!! moment has come along. I am physically giving myself a protective hug, Big S_C_R_E_A_M !!!! with no sounds from this girl from La Mancha ,dreaming the impossible dream for months.

I appreciate you for the eye opening straight forward way you brought the Clear Margin- AHA !  to me  but hate that you voiced  (ok, penned ) it and burst my protective me, against them destroying my body  bubble.. Now that I know the impossibility of that which I asked , What shall I do ?  What a way reality can whack us upside the head. Can't wait to tell my  doctors  that you saved them their eye rolling and their counting to ten, then ten again then ten again and again, I will be less suspicious, (just less ) less combative and less dictational. so they can give their poor eye balls a rest from the rolling that I sometimes catch from the corner of my suspicious eyes. Ok I feel paranoia setting in, haha ,I better just say on my and my doctors behalf I / we thank you and they really really thank you.They don't know it yet but they will.

Seems like you have come to terms with this horrible thing ,yes enjoy life and continue to analyze, share and encourage. Nuff nuff love Helen.

 

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If I have helped you clarify things in your mind, Molimoli, then that's good.  But if I have frightened you or been too straight talking, then I apologise wholeheartedly.  My trouble is I have "been there" "done that" with this blessed disease and sometimes forget that others need more time and space to get to where I am!  When I was told that no more surgeries were possible, it hit me very hard - somehow I saw "cutting it out" as the only option, but once it was explained to me about clear margins (and the futility of anything less) then it was easier to look at other options.

I'm afraid I will never come to terms with this evil business and I will continue to "whack" it however I can.  Last year, I had Cyberknife radiotherapy on my tumour.  If your latest scan shows just two areas of concern, perhaps this is something you could raise for discussion with your medical team?  It is a very targetted form of radiotherapy, which spares surrounding tissue considerably, and can sometimes be used in areas which have already had a full course of external beam radiotherapy.  Might be worth exploring as an option alongside chemo etc?

Kindest wishes
Helen xx

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Just speaking for myself, I can't thank you enough for your post. It was so well stated and made more sense than most of what we are told. I think our doctors could learn a lot about how to approach us if they took the time to read this board. So THANKS for the insight. Love, Cindi

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Moli, Helen is right about those clear margins.

However, I and if I already told you this, I am sorry, but I was told I had a recurrence and because I did not have clear margins they would not operate.  They wanted to do chemo and then try surgery.  The doc was ready to start chemo right away, but I got a second opinion.  This second doctor did a biopsy, which came back positive.   But he sent me back to the old doctor and my old radiologist.   The doctor would not do surgery and wanted to do the chemo stuff first.

However, I went to a completely different facility that wasn't related to most of the hospitals in the area.  After carefully reviewing all of my records and reconfirming the positive biopsy, he indicated to me that yes he could do surgery and had clear margins.   He did the surgery and the mass ended up testing negative when removed but I did have a positive lymph node but did a wait and see approach.

By the way, I have tons of scar tissue throughout my body from the 3 C-sections I had and my ultimate surgeries.   What happens is that doctors don't want to take the time to go through all that scar tissue.  With that past surgery, it took my doctor at leat 45 minutes to meticulously cut through scar tissue to get to the mass.   Some doctors don't want to do that so they say it is inoperable.

With radiation, as I believe Helen has indicated to you, once they radiate, they cannot radiate the same area again or you will have to have the procedure that Helen had.

Sending you hugs, Moli

Kathy

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this thread, I am awed and grateful for the knowledge, experience, compassion, openness of the women here.  Moli, as a newbie, I have no insight. I can only offer my hope and prayers that you find the path that is right for you and follow it.  Know that whatever that path is and wherever it goes, we will be with you, step by step.

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Some practice should hire you as an advacate For the patients and the docs.

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I learned most of what I know independent of what my docs told me - from folks on here, other patients I've met along the way, and online research.  Or at least I understand it more now. They told me a lot, but it took me a while to actually understand.  I don't understand if there is a reason why surgery is "not an option" they can't explain it to you in a language that you will understand.  Part of a physician's job is to educate patients about WHY they are recommending a certain protocol. 

I had a very interesting experience recenly.  My friend had her kidney cancer metastasize to a lung about a year ago.  This was 5+ years after initial surgery to remove the cancer.  She received her medical care at Stanford.  I went to all of her appointments with her.  Those folks spent a lot of time explaining to her (and I listened) why they recommended the treatment they did.  Duh.  It was very clearly presented in laymen's terms and they answered all of her questions kindly and thoughtfully.  Why can't all docs be like that?  It would make life and decisions so much easier.  

 Good luck on your decisions, Molimoli.  Your scan results will give you more information.  The issues that Helen and others have raised should give you some additional questions to ask.   Make them answer them.

Suzanne

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We were told right away that my mets were in operable for a few reasons.  The number of mets and where they were located was spread out from kidneys to heart and diaphragm.  None of the mets had direct organ involvement but rather - were "resting" on the organs.  They were/are all adjacent to arteries.  Even one would be hard to remove given the locations without damaging the artery/organ.  The arterial proximity and number of mets make radiation a non option.  My oncologist actually showed us what a surgery would entail to even get to look at the mets or biopsy them; mainly because my husband wasn't getting what he was saying.  I got it almost right away.  

I have a systematic issue that requires a systematic solution Being some sort of chemo or similar therapy.  We met with many more doctors and my family still didn't get why they couldn't just cut out the cancer.  Those meetings were for other opinions and to discuss trial or treatment options.  In my mind the doctors were consistent in what we were told but I realize now that my family wasn't hearing what they wanted to hear.  Big difference.  We are moving forward in a clinical trial and I have new mets now but I feel well and my confidence in my doctor never waivered.  I know that some of the dialogue was because my family was having such a hard time with what we were being told and different doctors have different ways of sharing that information.

hugs to all!

molimoli
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I have read all your  posts ,in them  I hear words of wisdom, concern , encouragement,  snippits of  personal journeys, understanding and compassion,Most of all I feel cradled,for it all I am grateful.

I will give serious thoughts to all suggestions and advice including the suttle ones, LOL  From you ladies I get my strength. I hugged your imaginary selves in return.

I will keep you posted after scan result

Helen, you have not offended me in anyway, I needed answers that no one was giving,Your opinion opened my eyes as to a  possible answer,One that I should have thought of but didn"t,  one that makes 100% good  sense.In doing that  you have helped me to see what the doctors couldn't voice.  I simply thank you, my load is suddenly lighter.  As penned by the other ladies , they and newbies coming round the bend also thank you..

Your streight forward way of delivery knocks  wonderment and procrastination out of head. PS; wonderment is not a word but it suits the purpose.lol.

                                                                       Showers of blessings and Nuff love to all.   Moli.

molimoli
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Hi Ladies, hope you are all weathering the storms , And treatments going well. 

I had my scan review yesterday.

Good news ,no new mets

Bad news; the 2 Pelvic tumors are still growing. one as big as an orange and the other a tangerine as per my doctor, we both laughed when I blurted out, that I suddenly feel like an engraphed tree.      Again Chemo is presented as a must,  I am  all cancered out and suspending any thoughts.

Wonderful news: Planning a trip to Negril,Ocho Rios and Montego Bay,Jamaica.

Anyone  feeling up to a trip? I really, really do.

Nuff love Thanks for the company. Moli

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Well that is good new no new mets.   But those darn pelvic tumors better stop!

Sounds like you are going on a cruise?   Sounds relaxing.

Sending you hugs!

Kathy

molimoli
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 .No cruise  Kaleena, those destinations are in Jamaica and just miles apart on the north coast . Haven for tourist

Need some head clearing pampering. Fresh fruits and vegetables. seafood of every description. long walks by the ocean day dreaming and night dancing.My head will be relieved of the pressure, if only for a little while lots of times. My promise to me.

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to clear your head and make way for the decision(s) to come.  Happy to hear about no new mets, not so much about the progression of the others.  A deep breath of ocean air, the call of the sea birds, the lull of the waves.  All good for the soul and heart.  Drink it all in, dear Moli.

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You are making me want to go  right this minute, travel agent working on a best deal thing for me , since I am insisting on going alone and all the good  deals are set up for double occupancy. Deal or no deal I am going the day after the grand kids return to school,  I will be thinking of you all when I pray ,hope or wish for healing. Hang tough with your treatment and don't neglect to make nourishment a priority even when you feel like crap. A well nourished body will always stand up to the challenges. Blessings,my wish for all of you my chemosabes..

Nuff nuff love

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Not happy to read about your"orange and tangerine", but happy for not having more and new ones

and for the vacation- yay!!! Have a great time!

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What a wonderful gift to give yourself, Moli! Turquoise seas, fresh seafood dinners galore, Bob Marley's place in the highlands and Dunn's River Falls all await you and will soothe your soul. I would enjoy a trip like that alone, especially if my plate was as full as yours is right now. I hope this trip will give you the time and space to develop a plan of action that feels right to you. I am glad to hear that you don't have new mets. I think those 2 fruit-size masses are treatable. I agree with what Suzanne said about doctors taking the time to provide informed consent. The ladies here with children, Lou Ann and Sandy, gave you much food for thought.

Take good care of yourself, my friend,

Cathy

 

molimoli
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To all of you thanks for your responses full of well wishes and concerns. I am grateful  for all of it ,bless you.

 Must share, last night I  watched a few videos posted by Ms.fanciful from the ovarian board .an amazing eye opener and a lesson in  perseverance. If you find the time I recommend  watching the youtube video,I will find the name used  and let you know. Nuff love all the time. Moli

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To all my sisters I will be away as of this morning,I hope your treatments will be successful,your pained bodies will be healed, your support systems will be strengthened,loneliness will only make brief infrequent visits if it must,your resolve to live through cancer will be renewed with fresh determination,and a cure is found quickly,in our life time so we can celebrate our luck and the good fortune for the generations behind us. Thats my prayer my hope,my wish.

My prayer for us Today.

My Creator ,my Lord ,my emotional sustainer, today I place our plight in your hands and I will leave it there without worry. For us and sufferers of all illnesses ,Today I am asking for sustained remission and peace of mind .I shall not worry.it's in your hands.

 Good luck ladies, I am not abandoning Fort  but Cancer has been my constant companion for too long now. Although it will be travelling with me in my gut,,when I leave home in a couple of hours I will eject it from my brain ,I swear to God I will eject it from my brain.when I do that successfully half my battle will be won,if only for 2 weeks.

I will post periodically if internet connection is there and affordable on my cell.

Big ,Big Hugs  ,whispers of hope and NUFF love.  Be good to you and kind to those around you ,even if you wish some of them was around someone else..lol. Moli

Cucu me
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We are going to wait for you!

Have a great time!!!

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Sending hugs and love.  As always, keeping you in my prayers.  Enjoy the sunsets, some rum, the sound of the waves and focus on clearing your head and heart.  You inspire me.  Anne

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Have a wonderful time - we'll all be here waiting to hear all about it when you get back.

molimoli
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A Quick note to say I am  keeping my promise to enjoy the time that I have here, I am. eating too much but the  sun is very hot so I sweat the calories off daily(don't know how I would know that  since I am suddenly allergic to scales and avoid them like the plague).

For those of you who are experiencing set backs ,I am saddened and still converse with the Creator about you/us.Maybe I am just talking to myself , that's something I will never know for sure but the hope my one sided conversation gives me  buys me a certain peace of mind that I have placed you /us  in good hands. I am ok with that.

For those having small showers of blessings, I am glad and encouraged.

Anyone noticed I haven't once used that C word ?,Just keeping my promise to not do negatives on this trip.

Hope you all find yourselves today and hug you tight,if only for a little while.

Plenty love from  me to all of you my sisters warriors. Nuff nuff blessings.

Back in a week Thanks for all the well wishes.I received them with thanks. Moli.

 

 

 

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Sounds lovely, I'm hoping for lots of lounging and too much Sangria next week.

LA xx

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Lily-Anne , I am really sorry about  your setback, hoping for a quick change of direction.

Please try to go on your planned trip,Don't let this disease dictate every bit of your existence., your going will be giving your pained self a needed gift.

Realistically speaking mets or the anticipation of it will be a part of our lives going forward, we can only hope that it is later than sooner, but since none of that is really in our control  dying while we are still alive must never be an option that we embrace, carry on I say, do your trip, do many trips Please.

I for one wasted many years been dead while still alive, worrying over things that none of my actions caused.Never ever again will I allow occurences to kill what's left of my life, until I am really clinically dead.

  You didn't cause the cancer or the recurrence , it is not a punishment from any entity.therefore, I hope your feeling of devestation will be fleeting,I beg you ,let it be fleeting.Stay clear of depression ,it robs. .I understand ,I have been there ,I am mentally hugging you in hopes that together with our  warrior sisters here we can embrace you and break that fall. We are joined as below the belt comrades and so we will stay. Be strong, for the most part dictate your fight, we will support.

I am hugging. Moli. 

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So glad to hear from you.  I hope you enjoy this next week as much as the first one and come back refreshed and ready to fight!

I have thought of you often over the last week. And, no scales this week either my friend! Who cares? Vacation is meant to gain. Smile

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Editgrl
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for a vacation.  Eat, lounge, relax, enjoy!

 

molimoli
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I am doing fine, How one can be so sick and feel so well is beyond understanding.I am grateful for the feeling well days though. Showers of blessings to you all . Nuff love. I will be home on Friday,Will post all the drama shortly after.lol.

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TeddyandBears_Mom
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Looking forward to hearing all about it!

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debrajo
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Welcome home Moli!  Glad to "hear"you sounding stronger!  I, too will look forward to hearing all about your trip.  I'm sure it did your soul a world of good.  Best, Debra(Jo)

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