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Mom has passed 9/25/14

After 6 years of fighting NSC lung cancer with brain mets my mom has lost the fight! I've been beside her from the start at the time of being dignosed to the very end. She struggled so much and was comatose for six days. I gave her all the promises she asked me to keep. I kept her home on hospice and cared for her and belive me was at her side day/night as I slept with my hand on her chest telling her I loved her so much everyday. But, September 25th at 7:09 am mom took her last breath. She fought so hard and wasn't ready, she was still so young only 61! I cried along the way then got where I couldn't cry anymore. Felt as if I wasn't doing enough or it right. The waves of emotions come and go but, the pressure in my chest hasn't gone away! I honestly just want my mom back...

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  • grandmafay
    grandmafay Member Posts: 1,633
    Sorry

    i don't come to these boards as often as I did at one time so I'm late answering this. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that doesn't change anything, but I just want you to know that you are not alone. Grieving takes time. Allow yourself to grieve in whatever way works for you. Take care of yourself now. Grandma Fay

  • Lilly9
    Lilly9 Member Posts: 155

    Sorry

    i don't come to these boards as often as I did at one time so I'm late answering this. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that doesn't change anything, but I just want you to know that you are not alone. Grieving takes time. Allow yourself to grieve in whatever way works for you. Take care of yourself now. Grandma Fay

    Your emotions will be on a

    Your emotions will be on a roller coaster for quite some time.  It will take a while before the good memories overcome the pain and grief of your loss.

     

    I lost my Dad to prostate cancer when I was just 28.  It hit me hard and it took quite a while for me to heal.   My brother lost his fight with leukemia - I was 46 at the time and I think it hit me just as hard as losing my Dad. 

     

    Since that time I've had another brother diagnosed with and treated for prostate cancer.   Then I was diagnosed with Stage 3 w nodes breast cancer    Just weeks after my bc, my youngest sister was diagnosed with ductal carcinoma in situ.  It has made me realize that what is important is the time we have together;  to share and make memories that will sustain us when it's time for one of us to leave this world.   It's never easy and you're never truly prepared.  But having the good times to remember truly helps.