"The REPURPOSING of Our Lives In and Out of the Cancer World” - The Concept That Evolved Into an Ide
What is Repurposing?
Well, Merriam Webster’s definition is: “To give a new purpose or use to.”
What started out as an abstract concept has now evolved into an ideology that I firmly believe holds a great deal of promise in how we look at our own lives – our lives when we have cancer – and our lives when we don’t have cancer.
It is my hopes that this philosophy will one day take root in cancer patients all over the world as I believe that we have the innate capacity to examine and draw similar parables between those two worlds and then apply them to our own individual situations.
Its biggest benefit lies in the assertion that this newfound ideology is universal in its nature and therefore becomes as symbolic as the string on a musical instrument that we pluck from the Common Chords of Humanity - which are the human feelings that we all unequivocally have and share in common.
For me, the roots of this topic actually stem back to the moment in time where I successfully wrapped up my 3rd cancer fight, while reaching a remissive state, also for the third time in what has been a very long and tough fight for life.
I thought it was a great story…Craig gets cancer 3x…Craig defeats cancer 3x…Craig lives happily ever after…
But, I guess only Aesop wrote fables like that one…
All of us have seen, or have been personal witnesses to the fact that is a very hard feat to defeat cancer even one time…much less going three times with an undefeated record.
It’s hard…very hard…the absolute hardest thing there ever is to do…
And then to be able to assume your life once more, three different times….holding onto your career, saving your house, trying to salvage your relationship…
I was expecting all of these magical transformations to be taking place…and that it would be treated as something almost unheard of or unprecedented…
I guess at the heart of it, I just wanted everyone to recognize what an achievement it was…but I found that numbers are just that…numbers….and they never really register with anyone until they find themselves at the exact precipice of an event like that.
Anything else is just sheer speculation…because; we can only really know “when we get there.”
I could sit here and talk three recurrences…and then you get your second…and it’s bad…and you understand what the second felt like…but you would still be emotionally unavailable to understand what the subsequent recurrence(s) would do to you…until it finds you.
Then you know…
So, being among a small group of folks here, who had accomplished this monumental achievement, I began searching for the MEANING in “The Meaning of Life…”
And to date, if I’m being truthful, I’ve been somewhat disappointed and disillusioned about what I felt my expectations should be after such a long, grueling campaign that I’ve fought – along with the expectations that I expected from others to have for me…to be able to truly understand and recognize that this kind of stuff just does not happen all the time.
And I’ll tell you why…
Perhaps, the biggest enlightenment for me was why I wasn’t feeling as happy as I felt I should be feeling after walking away from the biggest challenge that any of us can ever face – overcoming cancer.
And not just once mind you….three times now…
I wrote a big chapter in the book about where I was then and what I was feeling. That feeling was important then, but I have since drawn some conclusions from my own story and have come up with this hypothesis.
I expected my life to get easier I suppose...
Or, maybe the real truth is that I wanted my life to be made easier for me…
After all that I have endured and suffered through (and that of my wife) with cancer, I suppose the plain and ugly truth is that I expected this sense of ENTITLEMENT to be bestowed upon us.
Somehow, I felt strongly and convinced myself that I was owed this – after all of those years of serving in the Cancer Army and fighting on the Cancer Battlegrounds of my Mind, Soul and physical Body.
It would only be right…
Sadly, it doesn’t work that way at all…the reality is it never will…no matte
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