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Dreaded tests - Again

lfondots63
lfondots63 CSN Member Posts: 818 Member
in Colorectal Cancer #1
Hi Everyone,

I haven't been on the boards for a long time so I doubt anyone will remember me. Short history. I was dx 2005 with stage 3 and on my birthday had it removed. I went through chemo and only was able to do 9 out of 12 because of my diabetis. Chemo plays havoc with that. I found out about a month ago that my CEA was slowly climbing. Granted it is still under 'normal' (hate that word!) but it is still climbing. I have a colonoscopy Thursday so finding myself slowly freaking as it draws near. I just wanted to post something since I know many of you understand and it is so hard to talk to people that don't go through this. I'm now at the 'Canceritis' state again. Afraid that it is back but I know that I will fight it again with all I have if it does. Trying to cope with humor. Telling people in my life that if it is back, I lost a ton of weight before on chemo.... maybe I can get to my goal weight this time with it?? I try to see the positive side. LOL. I'm pretty sure I'm fine but there is that 1% chance I'm not. HUGS to everyone here fighting against the beast.
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  • Brenda Bricco
    Brenda Bricco CSN Member Posts: 579 Member
    #2
    Hang in there... I hope for
    Hang in there... I hope for all good news.
    God bless you.
    Brenda
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  • Sonia32
    Sonia32 CSN Member Posts: 1,071 Member
    #3
    Big hugs
    Sending, prayers, good vibes anything that I can your way. I'm sure your scope will be ok.
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  • Luckygirl2
    Luckygirl2 CSN Member Posts: 308
    #4
    Thinking of you
    Will have you in my prayers.. Waiting on my 3d CT in July since December. Understand entirely the anxiety !
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