Nov 26, 2011 - 8:37 pm
Hi Everyone, I lost my man 3 weeks ago to bowel cancer with peritoneal mets. He was ok for a while then suddenly went downhill. He was in hospice and died just over a week after he got there peacefully. I am totally filled with despair. I don't know what to do or who to turn to, since the funeral everyone has been going back to their normal lives and I have been left alone and bereft. I wish I had died and he was ok again. I have been on auto pilot for a few weeks but now I am just feeling terrible and wander around not knowing what to do with myself or who I can talk to. It's horrible. From being with the person 24 hours a day to having nothing now, my whole life seems ruined. I am only just 35 and have no kids to keep me busy. I am just miserable.