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reddreamer
reddreamer Member Posts: 6
in Ovarian Cancer #1
My story begins with a trip to the ER because of some insane pain. That Doctor came back and told me there was a grapefruit sized growth on my ovary but not to worry because woman my age"26" don't get this type of cancer. I was refereed to gynecologist surgeon who took one look at the scans told me not to worry "Women your age do not get ovarian cancer but I wan to refer you to a gynecological oncologist just to be on the safe side. I went to the oncologist he said we will remove but not to worry same as everyone before. Went into surgery have mass removed. Doctor tells me we got the whole mass it's a solid teratoma usually these are benign nothing to worry about. A week and half later which was two days ago I received a lot of information My pathology reports came back from having my ovary an tube removed. I had a malignant teratoma on the right ovary. There was good news that it was stage one. They think they got it all but I have to go in next week and talk about undergoing Chemo treatment. I am angry and sad and all sorts of emotions and all anyone wants to tell me is to be happy it could be worse, be happy so things will go well. Then I ask when the hell is my turn to deal with the news. I can fake a smile and go on, but doesn't holding in the emotion make it worse? Maybe

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  • poopergirl14052
    poopergirl14052 Member Posts: 1,183 Member
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    so sorry you had to go through this
    This is horrible news. Every dr. is not the same to poo-poo yiyr age saying it is not ovca. We have several young girls on this site who do have cancer. Thank God you went to a gyc/onc. I can feel your emotions of being angry and let down, but you are on the right path and you will get through it!. what kinf of chemo will you be getting and for how long? Keep us posted and come back if you have more questions. Under going chemo has many side effects so make sure you ask !!!..val
  • kikz
    kikz Member Posts: 1,345 Member
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    I am so sorry you had to come to this board.
    But having said that you will find support and knowledge here. You have been dealt a terrible blow and you need time to grieve. You have every right to feel all the emotions you mentioned. It is hard for people around us too and I think that's what makes them want to see you move on quickly. Of course that is not possible. There is never a timetable for emotions. Please come here to vent whenever you need to. I cried so hard when I found this board, because I knew these ladies would understand everything I was going through. I am sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

    Karen
  • reddreamer
    reddreamer Member Posts: 6
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    poopergirl14052 said:

    so sorry you had to go through this
    This is horrible news. Every dr. is not the same to poo-poo yiyr age saying it is not ovca. We have several young girls on this site who do have cancer. Thank God you went to a gyc/onc. I can feel your emotions of being angry and let down, but you are on the right path and you will get through it!. what kinf of chemo will you be getting and for how long? Keep us posted and come back if you have more questions. Under going chemo has many side effects so make sure you ask !!!..val

    Chemo
    I am not sure what type of Chemo they will do I will go back next Thurday 19th to talk about the treatment plan when and how long and all those details.
  • reddreamer
    reddreamer Member Posts: 6
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    kikz said:

    I am so sorry you had to come to this board.
    But having said that you will find support and knowledge here. You have been dealt a terrible blow and you need time to grieve. You have every right to feel all the emotions you mentioned. It is hard for people around us too and I think that's what makes them want to see you move on quickly. Of course that is not possible. There is never a timetable for emotions. Please come here to vent whenever you need to. I cried so hard when I found this board, because I knew these ladies would understand everything I was going through. I am sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

    Karen

    Thank You

    Thank You
  • clamryn
    clamryn Member Posts: 508
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    Cry as hard as you can
    My advice for right now is to cry, cry and cry some more. You have a RIGHT. At the time when people tell you to be strong, ignore them. You need to go through this period. In a short time you will want to start asking questions, you will want to learn what you can about what to do. Then you will start the fight. YOU can do it. I was diagnosed with ovarian 20 years ago and it was stage 1C. I went for 17 years cancer free. I believe you will be fine.
    Please come here to vent, holler, or whatever. And please come back and let us know how you are doing. We want to hear the good news.

    ((((Hugs to you))))
    Linda
  • srwruns
    srwruns Member Posts: 343
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    I just finished chemo about
    I just finished chemo about 2 months ago. I received tons of support from others on hear.
    Grouse all you want. Its cathartic then you'll be able to take the bull by the horns and do whatever needs to be done.
  • LaundryQueen
    LaundryQueen Member Posts: 676
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    srwruns said:

    I just finished chemo about
    I just finished chemo about 2 months ago. I received tons of support from others on hear.
    Grouse all you want. Its cathartic then you'll be able to take the bull by the horns and do whatever needs to be done.

    sorry you had to join us
    Red: Go ahead and be mad--it probably IS good for you! Tell people to shut up if you need to.

    Cancer just sucks. Get ready to fight it.

    Life is gonna be rough for a while and then it will get better...it...will...get...better.

    (((HUGS)))

    LQ
  • mopar
    mopar Member Posts: 1,972 Member
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    HUGS & PRAYERS
    So sorry you are going through this. I'm not familiar with a teratoma tumor. However, I can relate. My gynecologist sent me to a gynecologic/oncologist 'just to be sure'. My CA125 was slightly elevated, and since I had a fibroid on the uterus and a history of endometriosis, he didn't think it was anything to be concerned about, but 'just in case'. The gyno/onco said he would remove the fibroid and look around and explore everything, but he would be 'very surprised' if it were cancer. He removed the one ovary, uterus, and sent the 'growth' on the ovary to pathology. Fortunately, it came back before he even had me closed up, so he removed everything, as it was stage 1C OVCA.

    Take heart - it was caught, removed, and after your treatment I believe you will do just fine. I know this hasn't been easy for you, but I'm grateful because I had no symptoms whatsoever. Had it not been for the fibroid, I never would have known, maybe until it was too late.

    Please keep us informed, and we can help with any questions you have before, during and after chemo. This discussion board is loaded with wonderful women (and sometimes men!) who will help see you through this.

    Till then, sending lots of hugs and prayers.

    Monika
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  • Radioactive34
    Radioactive34 Member Posts: 391 Member
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    Extremes
    I really dislike that you had this experience. My sequence of events were strikingly similiar with the exception that no one sugar coated the seriousness. I had an urgent care visit for abdominal pain. From the moment the mass was felt to the moment the urgent care doctor released me for the night, I knew it was serious. Cancer was mentioned upfront. No one doctor or nurse gave me the "Yes this is serious but we can beat it speech." From the moment I was diagnosed, it felt like I was a "Dead Woman Walking."

    Which is worse....feeling like your world is literally ending or having hope that things will work out?

    Getting this news is brutal. There is no way to break this gently. I have numerous friends and family. I have tried sugar coating. I have tried being blunt. No one takes this well.

    Reddreamer, if you are like me your brain can't stop. It is a blow out of the blue. It is just wrong. If you were just diagnosed then we will be undergoing chemo at about the same time. Please pound the keyboard away...we will listen.
  • childofthestars
    childofthestars Member Posts: 251 Member
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    Radioactive34 said:

    Extremes
    I really dislike that you had this experience. My sequence of events were strikingly similiar with the exception that no one sugar coated the seriousness. I had an urgent care visit for abdominal pain. From the moment the mass was felt to the moment the urgent care doctor released me for the night, I knew it was serious. Cancer was mentioned upfront. No one doctor or nurse gave me the "Yes this is serious but we can beat it speech." From the moment I was diagnosed, it felt like I was a "Dead Woman Walking."

    Which is worse....feeling like your world is literally ending or having hope that things will work out?

    Getting this news is brutal. There is no way to break this gently. I have numerous friends and family. I have tried sugar coating. I have tried being blunt. No one takes this well.

    Reddreamer, if you are like me your brain can't stop. It is a blow out of the blue. It is just wrong. If you were just diagnosed then we will be undergoing chemo at about the same time. Please pound the keyboard away...we will listen.

    Radioactive34
    Having just read your message I so relate to the phrase you used
    'Dead woman walking'
    This is EXACTLY how I felt when I was diagnosed last June. I didn't have any sugar coating with my diagnosis either and it also came completely out of the blue.....
    However, I had surgery, finished my 18 weeks dense dose Taxol/Carbo on 8 Dec and am now doing ok.
    I still feel a tad anxious at times (well at least once a day actually) but I am getting on with life.....
    wishing both you and Reddreamer lots of luck with treatment etc.
    Keep me posted.
    Michelle x

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