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Feeling sad today ,not very usual on me but not very positive today !

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Some body would give me a hand? Thank you! Love you!.

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back to the fight again ,and asking me what for ? 4 more months of Ned.. is worth it?.I don't know sorry for vent it!
Hugs Graci.

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Pepe,
Hope this will make you smile a little. When my husband fell through the coffe table the other day, I removed the broken glass piece. A little while later, our big fat cat came running into the room and leaped for his favorite resting place. You should have seen his expression when he landed inside the table. I have since replaced the glass. My point being even if the glass has been broken for a while, it can be fixed for many years to come. Please feel better. Everyone needs you here.

Picture is on my expressions page.

Take Care,
Wolfen

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Love the picture, what an animal! What a good shape! LOL.

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Ahhh our Spanish friend, do not be sad. The sun has risen and kissed your face, can you not feel it's warmth? Another day to look at you wife and feel her love? To hear the laughter of children around?
Ahh my friend, we are thankful for each day your are here, for each day we our here. These thoughts of wondering why we struggle is just temporary. You will smile later today for some reason and then realize that is why you keep trying.
Thinking of you and sending bright thoughts your way.
Winter Marie

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Maybe tomorrow sun rises ,but today was dark not only the wheather that it was but my in my mind ! Well just a bad day!
Hugs!

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is thinking about you! I hope you are feeling better very soon. We all have our down moments/hours/days. You may get a lot more than 4 months NED this round. You are a hugely important part of this group, + I am hoping for you to feel better soon. Tonight we set our clocks ahead 1 hour; that usually makes me grumpy the next day!

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but I think we steel have for a few weeks more! I Love to set the clock ahead for springtime! I'm gona check the date right now!
Anything interesting for reading?

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We change time earlier the last few years; I think President Bush's administration initiated this in the US + Canada followed suite. My husband read in the paper that on the Monday after the time change there is an average of 17% more car accidents. I just finished reading "The Glass Castle" by Jennifer Wells; it was very well written but somewhat shocking to me. How about you?

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Arizona and new Mexico by spaniards and it's fights against native Indians ! Like a western but with spanishs royal Dragons instead of Cowboys! hahahaha! The name is Tucson Resist!

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Hey Pepe,

I have lived in Arizona for 56 years. It is a beautiful state, but HOT in the summer. People settle here from everywhere.
Guess what? Everyone is still fighting everyone today,lol! Enjoy your book.

Wolfen

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than 300 years most of the US Southern Territories from California to Florida , it was an story of courage, different cultures ,no Britons there yet!, dressed in a new land with armors can you imagine how warm? lol , they broad the firsts horses , the mustangs actually, indians stollen them, a very unknown and forgotten story overall interesting to remember a few hundred of years later!.

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Hugs Pepe!

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Hugs!

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We love you Pepe!

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Oh, Pepe.

I'm so sorry you're feeling so down today. I understand your questions about just a few more months and is it worth and such. I'm not in that position, so I can't honestly say that I've been there. I do know what I said when I presented my "mission moment" at our last captains' meeting for Relay For Life. I was discussing research that had been able to grant some cancer patients at least 3 more months. I remarked that on the face of it, that didn't seem like a lot, but that I have friends in my support group (this group!) who would love to have 3 more weeks, much less 3 months.

Hope you can find your spirit again soon, my dear.

*hugs*
Gail

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The problem is that chemo has worked always worked wonderful for me! even making disappear any tumor! but don't find solution for
cells hidden probably somewhere in the lymph nodes, this is not operable as you never now where it is , so as much optimistic we are seen shrinking
any tumors i always know that in a short period this thing is going to appear ! so it makes you feel exasperated and tired! Any way ges much people would like to be in my case , so I ask the sorry for my egoism!
Love you tootsie! Promise you tomorrow will be a better day!

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Hey, I'm not blaming you. You go ahead and have your down day. Sometimes we need one of those! Just remember that we love you here, and I'm sure your family loves you tons more.

*hugs*
Gail

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to continue my fight!
Thank you all!

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Pepe,

Love you! You have a sweet and happy spirit that I admire greatly.

*hugs*
Gao;

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It gave me a little of happiness, thanks for remember me spring is coming!

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Dutch knuffels, Kathi

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I'm really jellous of your cycling family plan of thi week! Hope you will explain it very soon ! And please take me one of this weeks to a cycling tour!
Tote and me need it!

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When I feel that way, I always tell myself that since I am at the bottom, there is nowhere to go but "up". Why don't you get out of the house and go visit friends, or do something fun that you have wanted to do for awhile, to take your mind off things. Or, do something silly like fly a kite or go play miniature golf.

I hope you feel better soon. Sandy

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cold, misty falling buckets of rain, and called friends but most of them out of the city with their kids we are in what we call white week, it suppose they take the kids to skiing or somewhere out! Not good plans here ,and it gives you time to think, and think!
Any way all of you are an excellent companion!

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I know that today is one of those days that everyone of us have once in while,and without Sun all things looks darker (at least for me)I am sure that tomorrow you will see things diferent,look for your blessings,you are not in pain, you have a family that love you, if it takes another little fight from you, I am confident that you you are going to make it and you will be fine,and listen, not for sure but I might be going to Spain in September,so cheer up because I want to meet that optimistic and wonderful guy that you are.
Praying that tomorrow you will see things diferent.
Big hug for you.
Betina

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great big huge....stage IV live forever survivor hugs....

the sun will shine....I promise

gosh I hope it will.....hahah never seems to in canada.....

mags

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shine here as well, LOL.
Je te le remercie Madame !

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I love you.....you make me smile in English, Spanish and French....oh and Basque and Hungarian

je t'aime cheri

mags

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No way ! impossible !LOL. I think is the oldest language in the old world , no Latin, Saxon, Slavic or greek roots! Just let it for those crazy people of the bay of biscay! Mad people! LOL. But really beautiful place, probably the most beautiful place in spain!

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Just let me know about!

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Pepe,

4 more months, 4 more years, 40 more years...only God knows. Don't ever give up fighting for your beautiful life. Te amo,mi amigo.(hope I spelled that right)

Hugs,
Sara

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Perfect spell Sara!

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Is that the best you can do -). It's the time change, that's all.

Best

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Don't get too close, I don't want to get you sick!!

*cough* *cough* *Sniffle* *snort*

It's ugly at my house. Love you my Spanish friend!!

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Hi Pepe,

Sorry to hear you have been down. You've come to the right place for being uplifted again! It's normal to have ups and downs and with all we go through in this cancer fight, one couldn't expect someone to always be positive. I'm glad you're usually positive & I know you'll get back to that again.
For now, sending cyberhugs and prayers of feeling good again :)

Lisa

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Sun is raising again today!
I love you!

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Pepe....sending you lot's and lot's of hugs and kisses to bring your spirits up! When I have had my down days this board has always been there to help me through it. I've learned it just happens and there is really no stopping the feelings, you just manage your way until it passes....so for now my friend....

Love and hugs until it does, Gail

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Today Sun rises , and I had a lorazepam , a glass of wine and lunch with my Wife , Mother and one brother ! It worked wonders, I don't know how bad it is to mix some lorazepam with just a little of wine while lunch! ,but it makes me a different person! Hahahaha!
Hugs my friends! Menu : Tuna ,Montserrat tomatoes, and onion salad,.Back of baby pork glasse, and tiramisu cake! Just a glass of Rioja wine and a coffee !Now a nap! .Is that unhealthy? Hahahaha! Ahh! and a nice walk under Spanish sun!.

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Well....although....you're not supposed to mix them.....1 Ativan (lorazapam) and a little wine with a DD and a sunset walk will make for a restful sleep and a happy awakening tomorrow! :)

Be careful Pepe :), Gail

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Promise to don't do it any more! Gail !
Hahaha!

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We all have been there, take the time to fully experience the blues, then you can pick yourself back up again. I know how much I appreciate you, when I see a message from you on FB, asking how I am doing when you haven't heard from me in a while. It's so nice to know that our connection here has extended beyond just his board, you are such a caring individual. And the fact that I'm not the only one you keep tabs on is a wonderful thing as well. I pray your blues are short lived and you are back to enjoying the day! Today, outside my hospital window, I see the sun and blooming pear trees! It's a good day.
mary

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I really appreciate you as well, Thanks again for your support,and for make me see this nice blooming trees!,Yes today was a nicer day!
how are you? are you at the hospital? I thought you were out since couple weeks ago, after your bowel problems were sorted out!
I pray you feel much better than then!
Blessings!

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dear pepe,

some days sad is good.
we would not be human if did not feel sad, especially on this little cancer trip.
is a few months of ned worth it ?
only you can say. its 6.15am and another day is dawning over the bay here.

just breathe and relax, you'll find an answer.

Pete

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I agree sometimes we need some low moments to can realize how beautiful next day will be!
Of course Any days NED are worht it!.
Hugs&thanks!

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to be blue sometimes! Give your self permission to do so and then jump right back out to the sunshine!!!
Hugs to you friend!
Shanna

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again for your cares last week!

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Maybe the last to post but here I am Pepe to your rescue! Ha!HA! Do feel better, get out there in that sunshine and think of me strolling on the sand with you, arm in arm.

I can feel the sand between my toes, the sun on my hair and the splash of the waves as they break and run over my feet! Oh, that was so cool! Almost as cool as that sky that I am looking up at! If we can just make it over to those big rocks, we can sit for a bit and just listen to the sounds of the ocean and the birds diving in to the water looking for fish! Breathtaking....Thanks for the walk amigo!

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What a nice words, thank you for that Amiga!

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Don't make me fly over there and tickle you!!!

Hope you're feeling better. We all have down days ... that's how we know how good the up days are.

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