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  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238
    Can I will my neutrophils to come up?
    Well...it's been a long month for me. I want to think I was managing life pretty well, but when I heard my onc tell me I think you're under reporting symptoms and then I started answering yes to questions like do you drop things, balance, messy writing and then began adding my own like tingly lips and metal taste and numb cheek and hair pain (on and on) the tears came rolling down as I thought I failed folfox. But in reality, I survived 6 treatments. Now I'm welcoming the end of it and in an odd way looking forward to beginning Folfiri. I know I already mentioned I will start this but unfortunately I've had two delays. Last Tuesday I was supposed to have my first Folfiri but my platelets were 84. I was to give it a week and start yesterday, Monday. So I go in all hopeful and yesss! My platelets are up, but my neutrophils dumped :(:( to 1.0. Onc said he would treat me at 1.3 but no way at 1. So I asked if I can try again tomorrow, Wednesday since they only have to come up a small amount and I can still get the pump disconnect on Friday.

    On a positive note, no more sharp objects in my throat :)and tingly fingers are feeling better. I still have some of the symptoms but hoping they disappear soon.

    And for those that remember my son was sick, he is finally doing so much better! Yeah! He tested positive for influenza B and man did it hit him hard. And I want to thank everyone for the suggestions. I tried many and most of them or at least checked into them. But I never got to the mustard one. LOL.

    Sooo.....that's what I've been up to for the last ...hmmmm 3 weeks or so. That and being amused by Charlie Sheen's sad self destruction.

    Love and hugs to my CSN family, Gail
  • Nana b
    Nana b Member Posts: 3,030
    plh4gail said:

    Can I will my neutrophils to come up?
    Well...it's been a long month for me. I want to think I was managing life pretty well, but when I heard my onc tell me I think you're under reporting symptoms and then I started answering yes to questions like do you drop things, balance, messy writing and then began adding my own like tingly lips and metal taste and numb cheek and hair pain (on and on) the tears came rolling down as I thought I failed folfox. But in reality, I survived 6 treatments. Now I'm welcoming the end of it and in an odd way looking forward to beginning Folfiri. I know I already mentioned I will start this but unfortunately I've had two delays. Last Tuesday I was supposed to have my first Folfiri but my platelets were 84. I was to give it a week and start yesterday, Monday. So I go in all hopeful and yesss! My platelets are up, but my neutrophils dumped :(:( to 1.0. Onc said he would treat me at 1.3 but no way at 1. So I asked if I can try again tomorrow, Wednesday since they only have to come up a small amount and I can still get the pump disconnect on Friday.

    On a positive note, no more sharp objects in my throat :)and tingly fingers are feeling better. I still have some of the symptoms but hoping they disappear soon.

    And for those that remember my son was sick, he is finally doing so much better! Yeah! He tested positive for influenza B and man did it hit him hard. And I want to thank everyone for the suggestions. I tried many and most of them or at least checked into them. But I never got to the mustard one. LOL.

    Sooo.....that's what I've been up to for the last ...hmmmm 3 weeks or so. That and being amused by Charlie Sheen's sad self destruction.

    Love and hugs to my CSN family, Gail

    Glad your son is better!!
    Glad your son is better!! Enjoy the break from chemo! Do something fun!! Hugs!!!!
  • okthen
    okthen Member Posts: 232
    Nana b said:

    Glad your son is better!!
    Glad your son is better!! Enjoy the break from chemo! Do something fun!! Hugs!!!!

    Wow, Gail, I didn't realize
    Wow, Gail, I didn't realize what a tough time you were having! I guess I've been pretty wrapped up in my own (hubbys) situation. I sure wish I had offered a cyber hug or words of support! Here they are now!

    Jacks onc told him today any Oxal s/e he's having should not get worse and when two years are up, they will be what they are. Crossing my fingers for both of you (and anyone else) that all the neurpathy dissappears wayyyy faster than two years.
    Chriss
  • pepebcn
    pepebcn Member Posts: 6,331
    okthen said:

    Wow, Gail, I didn't realize
    Wow, Gail, I didn't realize what a tough time you were having! I guess I've been pretty wrapped up in my own (hubbys) situation. I sure wish I had offered a cyber hug or words of support! Here they are now!

    Jacks onc told him today any Oxal s/e he's having should not get worse and when two years are up, they will be what they are. Crossing my fingers for both of you (and anyone else) that all the neurpathy dissappears wayyyy faster than two years.
    Chriss

    Gail, nice to hear about you!
    Just keep patient neutrophils will come up very soon!.
    Hugs!
  • Lori-S
    Lori-S Member Posts: 1,277
    Well since you asked ...
    hahaha

    Most of my attention this last week has been on my son. He went blind in his left eye and it's been round and round to docs. Yesterday, we saw 3 doctors with the last one being a retina specialist. The first 2 told us his retina had dettached and that with surgery he would only gain back what he could see at the time of surgery. The problem with that is that he is totally blind .. happened in less than 3 days. We were shown an educational video explaining dettached retina and the surgery. My son just checked out. I couldn't get him to call his doctor (he's 23 and I try very hard to have him manage his own care as much as physically possible) but, he feels so defeated and said "It's just one more thing and it's a losing battle so why even bother?". I wouldn't settle for that so took charge yesterday and got him everywhere he needed to be. He's very weak and I have to hold his arm because his legs will give out sometimes but, he doesn't want a wheelchair.

    We may have gotten lucky. At the retinal specialist, after long exams and an ultrasound of his eye, the doc said that he doesn't think the retina is dettached. He can't be 100% sure until he does surgery. There is a lot of bleeding in the eye and we have to find out why. We are hoping that surgery on this coming Monday will show what is going on and possiblly cleaning out and stopping the bleeding will bring some of his vision back. Please send some positive thoughts that we get lucky with this. He just bought a car a week or so ago that he saved up his money forever to get and hasn't even driven it other than home. I didn't realize at the time that he was losing his vision. That's just not right. Hasn't shown it to his friends or taken it for a spin or anything. I'm going to talk to his primary about his depression though I'm not sure that my son will take more pills. I feel so helpless when he feels defeated and wants to give up.

    As for me ... I have appointments with onc and an MRI on Saturday to see what is going on in the abdomin better since I can't have contrast and the CT is showing new growth in a new spot in the colon. I am waiting for a reschedule of my colonoscopy that was supposed to be tomorrow but now I'm not sure how soon. Also waiting to start Xeloda or FOLFIRI until after surgery. I want everything done at once ... hernia repair, resection and reversal ... but the docs all seem to just want to take care of the new cancer. UGH ... Let's just do one surgery and be done with it. I'm really getting tired of all the doctors and some days am so tired of having cancer dictate my life that I just wanna walk away and go about my life as if it doesn't exist. But, those are fleeting momemts ... but still the thought is there. It's been a tough couple of weeks for me but, I'm still here .... You can't get rid of me that easy! hahahahaha
  • pepebcn
    pepebcn Member Posts: 6,331
    Lori-S said:

    Well since you asked ...
    hahaha

    Most of my attention this last week has been on my son. He went blind in his left eye and it's been round and round to docs. Yesterday, we saw 3 doctors with the last one being a retina specialist. The first 2 told us his retina had dettached and that with surgery he would only gain back what he could see at the time of surgery. The problem with that is that he is totally blind .. happened in less than 3 days. We were shown an educational video explaining dettached retina and the surgery. My son just checked out. I couldn't get him to call his doctor (he's 23 and I try very hard to have him manage his own care as much as physically possible) but, he feels so defeated and said "It's just one more thing and it's a losing battle so why even bother?". I wouldn't settle for that so took charge yesterday and got him everywhere he needed to be. He's very weak and I have to hold his arm because his legs will give out sometimes but, he doesn't want a wheelchair.

    We may have gotten lucky. At the retinal specialist, after long exams and an ultrasound of his eye, the doc said that he doesn't think the retina is dettached. He can't be 100% sure until he does surgery. There is a lot of bleeding in the eye and we have to find out why. We are hoping that surgery on this coming Monday will show what is going on and possiblly cleaning out and stopping the bleeding will bring some of his vision back. Please send some positive thoughts that we get lucky with this. He just bought a car a week or so ago that he saved up his money forever to get and hasn't even driven it other than home. I didn't realize at the time that he was losing his vision. That's just not right. Hasn't shown it to his friends or taken it for a spin or anything. I'm going to talk to his primary about his depression though I'm not sure that my son will take more pills. I feel so helpless when he feels defeated and wants to give up.

    As for me ... I have appointments with onc and an MRI on Saturday to see what is going on in the abdomin better since I can't have contrast and the CT is showing new growth in a new spot in the colon. I am waiting for a reschedule of my colonoscopy that was supposed to be tomorrow but now I'm not sure how soon. Also waiting to start Xeloda or FOLFIRI until after surgery. I want everything done at once ... hernia repair, resection and reversal ... but the docs all seem to just want to take care of the new cancer. UGH ... Let's just do one surgery and be done with it. I'm really getting tired of all the doctors and some days am so tired of having cancer dictate my life that I just wanna walk away and go about my life as if it doesn't exist. But, those are fleeting momemts ... but still the thought is there. It's been a tough couple of weeks for me but, I'm still here .... You can't get rid of me that easy! hahahahaha

    Wow feel so sorry for all this nightmare!
    Hope you and your son get better soon, l pray for that!. Keep your strength and humor !
    Hugs!
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    Lori-S said:

    Well since you asked ...
    hahaha

    Most of my attention this last week has been on my son. He went blind in his left eye and it's been round and round to docs. Yesterday, we saw 3 doctors with the last one being a retina specialist. The first 2 told us his retina had dettached and that with surgery he would only gain back what he could see at the time of surgery. The problem with that is that he is totally blind .. happened in less than 3 days. We were shown an educational video explaining dettached retina and the surgery. My son just checked out. I couldn't get him to call his doctor (he's 23 and I try very hard to have him manage his own care as much as physically possible) but, he feels so defeated and said "It's just one more thing and it's a losing battle so why even bother?". I wouldn't settle for that so took charge yesterday and got him everywhere he needed to be. He's very weak and I have to hold his arm because his legs will give out sometimes but, he doesn't want a wheelchair.

    We may have gotten lucky. At the retinal specialist, after long exams and an ultrasound of his eye, the doc said that he doesn't think the retina is dettached. He can't be 100% sure until he does surgery. There is a lot of bleeding in the eye and we have to find out why. We are hoping that surgery on this coming Monday will show what is going on and possiblly cleaning out and stopping the bleeding will bring some of his vision back. Please send some positive thoughts that we get lucky with this. He just bought a car a week or so ago that he saved up his money forever to get and hasn't even driven it other than home. I didn't realize at the time that he was losing his vision. That's just not right. Hasn't shown it to his friends or taken it for a spin or anything. I'm going to talk to his primary about his depression though I'm not sure that my son will take more pills. I feel so helpless when he feels defeated and wants to give up.

    As for me ... I have appointments with onc and an MRI on Saturday to see what is going on in the abdomin better since I can't have contrast and the CT is showing new growth in a new spot in the colon. I am waiting for a reschedule of my colonoscopy that was supposed to be tomorrow but now I'm not sure how soon. Also waiting to start Xeloda or FOLFIRI until after surgery. I want everything done at once ... hernia repair, resection and reversal ... but the docs all seem to just want to take care of the new cancer. UGH ... Let's just do one surgery and be done with it. I'm really getting tired of all the doctors and some days am so tired of having cancer dictate my life that I just wanna walk away and go about my life as if it doesn't exist. But, those are fleeting momemts ... but still the thought is there. It's been a tough couple of weeks for me but, I'm still here .... You can't get rid of me that easy! hahahahaha

    An Old Saying....
    ....that you are never given more than you can handle.

    But, good grief, Charlie Brown, I think you've got your share + so much more to handle, I honestly don't know how you do it.....well, I do actually...you just do it.

    We need to get you and your son off of this medical treadmill - I know your strength and tenacity must be wearing a bit thin about now.

    Thinking of you, Lori - wish I could make some of this go away for you, but I'm just a mere mortal. I hope all goes well for your son, and then we can get back to work on you.

    What kind of car did your son save up for? I hope he gets to drive it very soon.

    -Craig
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673
    Lori-S said:

    Well since you asked ...
    hahaha

    Most of my attention this last week has been on my son. He went blind in his left eye and it's been round and round to docs. Yesterday, we saw 3 doctors with the last one being a retina specialist. The first 2 told us his retina had dettached and that with surgery he would only gain back what he could see at the time of surgery. The problem with that is that he is totally blind .. happened in less than 3 days. We were shown an educational video explaining dettached retina and the surgery. My son just checked out. I couldn't get him to call his doctor (he's 23 and I try very hard to have him manage his own care as much as physically possible) but, he feels so defeated and said "It's just one more thing and it's a losing battle so why even bother?". I wouldn't settle for that so took charge yesterday and got him everywhere he needed to be. He's very weak and I have to hold his arm because his legs will give out sometimes but, he doesn't want a wheelchair.

    We may have gotten lucky. At the retinal specialist, after long exams and an ultrasound of his eye, the doc said that he doesn't think the retina is dettached. He can't be 100% sure until he does surgery. There is a lot of bleeding in the eye and we have to find out why. We are hoping that surgery on this coming Monday will show what is going on and possiblly cleaning out and stopping the bleeding will bring some of his vision back. Please send some positive thoughts that we get lucky with this. He just bought a car a week or so ago that he saved up his money forever to get and hasn't even driven it other than home. I didn't realize at the time that he was losing his vision. That's just not right. Hasn't shown it to his friends or taken it for a spin or anything. I'm going to talk to his primary about his depression though I'm not sure that my son will take more pills. I feel so helpless when he feels defeated and wants to give up.

    As for me ... I have appointments with onc and an MRI on Saturday to see what is going on in the abdomin better since I can't have contrast and the CT is showing new growth in a new spot in the colon. I am waiting for a reschedule of my colonoscopy that was supposed to be tomorrow but now I'm not sure how soon. Also waiting to start Xeloda or FOLFIRI until after surgery. I want everything done at once ... hernia repair, resection and reversal ... but the docs all seem to just want to take care of the new cancer. UGH ... Let's just do one surgery and be done with it. I'm really getting tired of all the doctors and some days am so tired of having cancer dictate my life that I just wanna walk away and go about my life as if it doesn't exist. But, those are fleeting momemts ... but still the thought is there. It's been a tough couple of weeks for me but, I'm still here .... You can't get rid of me that easy! hahahahaha

    Lori
    I am so sorry to read this. Your son deserves a break + so do you. I hope your son will have great success with his eye, + I hope you also have good results. Stay strong!
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673
    plh4gail said:

    Can I will my neutrophils to come up?
    Well...it's been a long month for me. I want to think I was managing life pretty well, but when I heard my onc tell me I think you're under reporting symptoms and then I started answering yes to questions like do you drop things, balance, messy writing and then began adding my own like tingly lips and metal taste and numb cheek and hair pain (on and on) the tears came rolling down as I thought I failed folfox. But in reality, I survived 6 treatments. Now I'm welcoming the end of it and in an odd way looking forward to beginning Folfiri. I know I already mentioned I will start this but unfortunately I've had two delays. Last Tuesday I was supposed to have my first Folfiri but my platelets were 84. I was to give it a week and start yesterday, Monday. So I go in all hopeful and yesss! My platelets are up, but my neutrophils dumped :(:( to 1.0. Onc said he would treat me at 1.3 but no way at 1. So I asked if I can try again tomorrow, Wednesday since they only have to come up a small amount and I can still get the pump disconnect on Friday.

    On a positive note, no more sharp objects in my throat :)and tingly fingers are feeling better. I still have some of the symptoms but hoping they disappear soon.

    And for those that remember my son was sick, he is finally doing so much better! Yeah! He tested positive for influenza B and man did it hit him hard. And I want to thank everyone for the suggestions. I tried many and most of them or at least checked into them. But I never got to the mustard one. LOL.

    Sooo.....that's what I've been up to for the last ...hmmmm 3 weeks or so. That and being amused by Charlie Sheen's sad self destruction.

    Love and hugs to my CSN family, Gail

    Gail
    I am glad to hear your son is doing better. I want to wish you all the best with your new treatment.
  • Lori-S
    Lori-S Member Posts: 1,277
    Lori-S said:

    Well since you asked ...
    hahaha

    Most of my attention this last week has been on my son. He went blind in his left eye and it's been round and round to docs. Yesterday, we saw 3 doctors with the last one being a retina specialist. The first 2 told us his retina had dettached and that with surgery he would only gain back what he could see at the time of surgery. The problem with that is that he is totally blind .. happened in less than 3 days. We were shown an educational video explaining dettached retina and the surgery. My son just checked out. I couldn't get him to call his doctor (he's 23 and I try very hard to have him manage his own care as much as physically possible) but, he feels so defeated and said "It's just one more thing and it's a losing battle so why even bother?". I wouldn't settle for that so took charge yesterday and got him everywhere he needed to be. He's very weak and I have to hold his arm because his legs will give out sometimes but, he doesn't want a wheelchair.

    We may have gotten lucky. At the retinal specialist, after long exams and an ultrasound of his eye, the doc said that he doesn't think the retina is dettached. He can't be 100% sure until he does surgery. There is a lot of bleeding in the eye and we have to find out why. We are hoping that surgery on this coming Monday will show what is going on and possiblly cleaning out and stopping the bleeding will bring some of his vision back. Please send some positive thoughts that we get lucky with this. He just bought a car a week or so ago that he saved up his money forever to get and hasn't even driven it other than home. I didn't realize at the time that he was losing his vision. That's just not right. Hasn't shown it to his friends or taken it for a spin or anything. I'm going to talk to his primary about his depression though I'm not sure that my son will take more pills. I feel so helpless when he feels defeated and wants to give up.

    As for me ... I have appointments with onc and an MRI on Saturday to see what is going on in the abdomin better since I can't have contrast and the CT is showing new growth in a new spot in the colon. I am waiting for a reschedule of my colonoscopy that was supposed to be tomorrow but now I'm not sure how soon. Also waiting to start Xeloda or FOLFIRI until after surgery. I want everything done at once ... hernia repair, resection and reversal ... but the docs all seem to just want to take care of the new cancer. UGH ... Let's just do one surgery and be done with it. I'm really getting tired of all the doctors and some days am so tired of having cancer dictate my life that I just wanna walk away and go about my life as if it doesn't exist. But, those are fleeting momemts ... but still the thought is there. It's been a tough couple of weeks for me but, I'm still here .... You can't get rid of me that easy! hahahahaha

    Thanks everyone
    I've just been kinda laying low and hoping to have some good news to report soon. I hate bogging the board down with so much not so good stuff. But, there's going to be a break soon ... just gotta be one in the pipeline.

    Craig ... he bought a 2003 Honda Civic ex coupe ... got exactly what he wanted right down to the silver color and sunroof. He wanted a 2001 to 2005. Took about 5 weeks of looking so patience pays off. It's sad that he hasn't gotten to enjoy it but, I'm keeping my positive thoughts out for some good result from his eye surgery.

    Everyone ... Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your kind and loving words of support. You guys are the bestest!
  • Nana b
    Nana b Member Posts: 3,030
    Lori-S said:

    Thanks everyone
    I've just been kinda laying low and hoping to have some good news to report soon. I hate bogging the board down with so much not so good stuff. But, there's going to be a break soon ... just gotta be one in the pipeline.

    Craig ... he bought a 2003 Honda Civic ex coupe ... got exactly what he wanted right down to the silver color and sunroof. He wanted a 2001 to 2005. Took about 5 weeks of looking so patience pays off. It's sad that he hasn't gotten to enjoy it but, I'm keeping my positive thoughts out for some good result from his eye surgery.

    Everyone ... Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your kind and loving words of support. You guys are the bestest!

    Gosh Lori, I hope you are
    Gosh Lori, I hope you are getting some help. I know you are strong, but you do need to rest and get rid of some of stress. I am praying that it comes your way. I worry about you. Wait, I can't stress :) I do. Please take care!
  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238
    Thank you :)
    Thank you everyone for the well wishes. I don't mean to disappear from here and I do check in once in awhile and make a few comments and well wishes. It's just been a little busy this last month. Lori....thank's for the talk the other night, I sure needed it :):)! Now let's get you're surgeries done and I will gladly be the guinny pig for our Folfiri trip. Destination....NED!

    Love and hugs to you all, Gail
  • pete43lost_at_sea
    pete43lost_at_sea Member Posts: 3,900
    Lori-S said:

    Well since you asked ...
    hahaha

    Most of my attention this last week has been on my son. He went blind in his left eye and it's been round and round to docs. Yesterday, we saw 3 doctors with the last one being a retina specialist. The first 2 told us his retina had dettached and that with surgery he would only gain back what he could see at the time of surgery. The problem with that is that he is totally blind .. happened in less than 3 days. We were shown an educational video explaining dettached retina and the surgery. My son just checked out. I couldn't get him to call his doctor (he's 23 and I try very hard to have him manage his own care as much as physically possible) but, he feels so defeated and said "It's just one more thing and it's a losing battle so why even bother?". I wouldn't settle for that so took charge yesterday and got him everywhere he needed to be. He's very weak and I have to hold his arm because his legs will give out sometimes but, he doesn't want a wheelchair.

    We may have gotten lucky. At the retinal specialist, after long exams and an ultrasound of his eye, the doc said that he doesn't think the retina is dettached. He can't be 100% sure until he does surgery. There is a lot of bleeding in the eye and we have to find out why. We are hoping that surgery on this coming Monday will show what is going on and possiblly cleaning out and stopping the bleeding will bring some of his vision back. Please send some positive thoughts that we get lucky with this. He just bought a car a week or so ago that he saved up his money forever to get and hasn't even driven it other than home. I didn't realize at the time that he was losing his vision. That's just not right. Hasn't shown it to his friends or taken it for a spin or anything. I'm going to talk to his primary about his depression though I'm not sure that my son will take more pills. I feel so helpless when he feels defeated and wants to give up.

    As for me ... I have appointments with onc and an MRI on Saturday to see what is going on in the abdomin better since I can't have contrast and the CT is showing new growth in a new spot in the colon. I am waiting for a reschedule of my colonoscopy that was supposed to be tomorrow but now I'm not sure how soon. Also waiting to start Xeloda or FOLFIRI until after surgery. I want everything done at once ... hernia repair, resection and reversal ... but the docs all seem to just want to take care of the new cancer. UGH ... Let's just do one surgery and be done with it. I'm really getting tired of all the doctors and some days am so tired of having cancer dictate my life that I just wanna walk away and go about my life as if it doesn't exist. But, those are fleeting momemts ... but still the thought is there. It's been a tough couple of weeks for me but, I'm still here .... You can't get rid of me that easy! hahahahaha

    sorry lori
    hi lori,

    not much to say but sorry. your poor son. I just hope you both get some good health soon.

    prayers,

    Pete
  • pete43lost_at_sea
    pete43lost_at_sea Member Posts: 3,900
    plh4gail said:

    Can I will my neutrophils to come up?
    Well...it's been a long month for me. I want to think I was managing life pretty well, but when I heard my onc tell me I think you're under reporting symptoms and then I started answering yes to questions like do you drop things, balance, messy writing and then began adding my own like tingly lips and metal taste and numb cheek and hair pain (on and on) the tears came rolling down as I thought I failed folfox. But in reality, I survived 6 treatments. Now I'm welcoming the end of it and in an odd way looking forward to beginning Folfiri. I know I already mentioned I will start this but unfortunately I've had two delays. Last Tuesday I was supposed to have my first Folfiri but my platelets were 84. I was to give it a week and start yesterday, Monday. So I go in all hopeful and yesss! My platelets are up, but my neutrophils dumped :(:( to 1.0. Onc said he would treat me at 1.3 but no way at 1. So I asked if I can try again tomorrow, Wednesday since they only have to come up a small amount and I can still get the pump disconnect on Friday.

    On a positive note, no more sharp objects in my throat :)and tingly fingers are feeling better. I still have some of the symptoms but hoping they disappear soon.

    And for those that remember my son was sick, he is finally doing so much better! Yeah! He tested positive for influenza B and man did it hit him hard. And I want to thank everyone for the suggestions. I tried many and most of them or at least checked into them. But I never got to the mustard one. LOL.

    Sooo.....that's what I've been up to for the last ...hmmmm 3 weeks or so. That and being amused by Charlie Sheen's sad self destruction.

    Love and hugs to my CSN family, Gail

    yes you can
    Hi Gail,

    I hope your neutrophils come up real soon and you get onto folfiri asap.
    Glad your folfox sideffects are easing. It gives me hope as well, got my 10th folfox in a few days and boy I am getting nervous about making it to 12. I just hope the numbness stop at my feet.

    hugs,

    Pete