The Way God Sees Us

Sometimes things in life don’t always go the way we planned. This cancer thing has definitely been devastating news to all of us. We also may have had expectations and dreams virtually shattered. Things we fear most in life can come upon us. We also may do things in this life that we just are not very proud of at times. Find ourselves reacting to things in a way God never intended for us to. As these things slowly unfold in our lives, we many times begin to loathe ourselves and/or loathe life itself. I know at the age of 50, all of these things have happened to me at some time or another. I began to examine myself before God and wondered why He made me so selfish, such a failure, impatient with others, so melancholy, easily offended and just downright unhappy because of events in my life yet at the same time birth in me such a thirst and desire for His word and such a need and desire to know Him. Did He actually make me this way or has my choice of attitude to life’s surprises made me this way?? At times I despaired for my life to end and thought nothing of it until one night God revealed to me my sin. I dared to not see how precious my life was in His sight. I have learned that He placed within each of us this deep desire to know Him and His word, but we may not realize that it is only He that can fill this void in our lives. We search for it in other things but will never find it there. It is only found in God. We will wander through life with empty holes in our lives without Him. One moment in time you and I were precious thoughts in God’s mind and the apple of His eye. So much did He think of you and me and love us that He recorded all the days of our lives before any of them transpired and then He created us just the way He intended. (Psalm 139). In another moment in time, when God was thinking of you and I (like He does every day) He decided He loved us enough that He gave His very life for you and I so that we could live this life more abundantly and not only that but that we should live and never die but have eternal life. I thought how dare I hate my life and loathe my being that He so fearfully and wonderfully created…..me….who was and still is and always will be the apple of His eye. God gives us a many choices in our lives…Our lives are but a series of choices…..choices of blessing or cursing. We choose. One of those choices we have is how we respond to adversity in our lives; to circumstances that come our way. To those things in life that we fear would come and then eventually do and that we feel we just cannot handle or live with. So much loss and so much pain this life can dish out. In these moments I will choose to get BETTER and not BITTER. I will choose blessing and not cursing. I will not allow the enemy to steal, kill, and destroy all that God sacrificed in order to redeem my life and the joy and fulfillment found only in seeing His plan and purpose for my life. I know that God is faithful and almighty and well able to deliver me out of all evil that this life throws my way, but even if He does not deliver me, I will yet choose to serve, trust, and love Him with all that is within me for I know He is ever with me to carry me through. He could have come down from the cross but He didn’t. His plan and purpose was in redeeming us because He loved us so much. I know His ways and thoughts are higher than mine and know that He works ALL things together for my good. Therefore, I will choose this day to pick myself up from these ashes and I will yet rejoice in Him; in what He has created because I choose to do that from my heart. I mediate on all that God sacrificed and how he paid the ultimate price for me by redeeming me with His precious blood. I consider myself not my own but His and I choose to offer myself a living sacrifice to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I ask Him for His forgiveness for counting my life as worthless when He loved my life so much that He gave His own to save mine. So Lord forgive me and help me to forever glorify you in this body, your temple where Your Holy Spirit dwells. Help me to be forever mindful of Your sacrifice and Your love for me so that I never look at this life the same ever again, but see it through Your eyes and Yours alone. I will give You glory in what you have created for Your word tells me the I am fearfully and wonderfully made by Your design. Thank you Lord for sparing my life and for filling my life with Your precious love, purpose and plan for me. Thank you for the privilege to be used of You and allow Your river of life to flow through me out to others who also desperately need those things that only You can supply: Your salvation, love, healing touch, comfort, strength, grace, mercy, understanding, peace and hope. The list goes on and on. Every good and perfect thing comes from You Lord. It is an honor and privilege to serve and represent You Lord. So I pray that You work through me….in this vessel you have created for your glory….the very apple of You eye. Praise to my Father and my King. Choose blessing!
Lorrie