TO BLUEROSE

bluerose said:

Hey Monica
How nice of you to have remembered about my appointment to create this posting. You are very special, thank you so much.

Actually I did start to write about the appointment but then the phone rang and I forgot to finish the posting (chemo brain) and when I reread it it didn't sound right and I wasn't sure where to post the update so this is perfect, thanks again.

Well the appointment went kind of like I expected but with a twist - of course, nothing is straightforward with my health it seems. To my surprise, something my GP didn't mention to me was that not only was there a 'node' in my right ovary but there is some 'tissue' in my uterus as well - sigh, why not. So she said there were 2 choices, like my GP said by the radiologists suggestion, one was wait and see, ya right, and the other was take out the right ovary for biopsy so I chose the later on the spot. Because of the 'tissue' in the uterus the Gyno said that she would do a D & C as well when I was out and biopsy that too, then remove the right ovary and the tube that's attached. She said that they will probably biopsy other areas but not everything unless things looked strange. She said there will be no major extraction of anything else at that time like the omentum or other ovary etc. She also said, after I asked about her opinion of what she thinks this 'node' is and she said she would bet her house it was just a benign cyst - of course I don't know how valuable her house is to bet it. lol. If I trusted her that would have made me feel much better but sadly I don't.

I was prepared for this to be a surgery of some kind but wasn't sure if there was maybe something else she could offer that I hadn't heard about.

When I was in about 2 years ago having a dental surgery - asked to be knocked out for that too - the anaesthesiologist said he wouldn't do a general anaesthetic because with my pacemaker and heart issue it was too dangerous for me so he did conscious sedation which is alot easier but for this surgery of course they do general anaesthesia so that's a bit worrisome for me. Another complication for me in this surgery is that I don't like this Gyno. She is really condenscending and rambled off a list of what could go wrong during the surgery like perforated organs and such and she said it like she was rambling off a boring short grocery list. After that, and after scaring the pants off me, she then says the chances of that are 1%, couldn't she have said that first? Also she is rough when she does internals and after she did mine she just walked away, not offering me a tissue or anything and not helping me up at all (I have pretty bad arthritis). I don't know but I can't see myself going under the knife with her careless attitude holding it.

I left a message for my family doctor, on Saturday, to refer me to another Gyno but I know she is going to try and talk me out of it but I am standing firm on this one. I did some research on RateMds. com for Gynos in my area and came up with a few names. I am going to give her those names as possibilities for the new referral. All the tests have been done so copies can be sent to the new Gyno so she doesn't have to start from scratch. No matter what I am facing I want to know that my Gyno gives a rat's - - - and I have faith in her skills and that she has HEARD me. Know what I mean?

I really hate to start all over with another doctor and the wait that might bring, especially during summer holidays, sigh, but I am worried enough without having a doctor I don't trust.

So that's the update. Tuesday this week I have to go to my new rheumatologist for a recap of her findings, she has already confirmed fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis but when I was in her office last time I was so stunned by all her findings over the misfit rheumatologist I had before her who diagnosed me with 'stress' only and then find this one who was so thorough and packed full of diagnosis that I forgot the other issues she said I have. Most of them are due to the cancer treatments I had years ago.

Anywho, thanks again for the interest Monica, I really do appreciate it. Hope you are feeling well today. Blessings, Bluerose.

P.S. My back pains were worse yesterday and I had mentioned them to the Gyno and she said that it wasn't likely they were because of the node in my ovary but what about the tissue in my uterus causing it? Oh come on I got the pains not long after the node came about - coincidence? - I think not. Just wanted to mention that.