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kapper48's picture
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Well here I am again 15 months ago I was told I had stage 3 colon cancer. I went through the surgery had 18" of my colon removed 12 horrible rounds of chemo and this **** is back again.
I dont understand what is going on I thought I had this beat, But I guess I was wrong. So here I am again going back to surgery and I can only imagine I will have to do chemo again also. How much more of my colon can they possibly take before I run out of it??????. Feeling very depressed right now and not to sure of what to do.

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I'm sorry to hear your news, that's not anything that anyone would want to hear. Cancer is one of those things that are tough to beat. You did do it before so you know you have the fight in you.

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Nana b
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So sorry to hear those words! Keep pressing forward, one day at a time!

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cancer just pops up when it feels like it , Hang in there, I am sending good vibes to you.


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The exact same thing happened to me but it was less then 15 months that I was told the cancer was gone. So I had surgery on my right lung and they said they got it all but I had to do 8 rounds of Xeloda (two weeks on and one week off was 1 round) I just finished it in fact and I have my PET Scan on the 22nd to see if the crap is still gone. I pray it is and that is never returns. What part did it come back to?


kapper48's picture
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It came back almost in the same spot (colon)

PhillieG's picture
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Have you thought of getting another opinion or team of doctors to take care of you?
Just a suggestion

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I have done just that Phil. I went and had my 1 year checkup in March after my colonoscopy the Dr. I had told me that I had a tumer again I waited the 7 days and they called and said it was not cancer so I thought everything was fine. I figured if he wasn't to worried then I would'nt be worried either. He said that he wanted to see me in 3 months instead of 6 months because he was a little concerned about 1 area he looked at. Then about 3 weeks ago I started having trouble going to the bathroom again so I called him and told him what was going on and he said to not be worried and we would do another scope in about 3 weeks. I then called my oncoligist and she had me come in and do a c-scan and that showed something and she then had me do another colonoscopy with a different Dr. and boom I find out a have cancer again. So now I am seeing different Dr's and I feel much better about that. I see my new surgeon on Tuesday and I hope they will want to do this right away. I am also hoping they can do the lyproscopy instead of the way they did it the last time wich is cut me wide open. Sorry for my spelling I am not to good at it with all these words they use.

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Hi Pat,

I'm sorry to hear it's back again. I experienced thinking I was NED and just 4 months after that is when mine came back. I know the emotion of feeling empty and like you were kicked in the guts at the same time. I was so positive all the first time & then after I knew it was back, I just felt drained and didn't think I had it in me to do it again. I certainly didn't want to go through chemo and fighting the beast again. After I went through my feelings of despair and then anger for a couple of weeks, then I centered my thoughts and feelings into knowing that "yes, I CAN and WILL fight this again". I turned my anger and feelings of despair into fighting power! It will come for you- being upset and even grieving over the news of cancer's return is normal and natural. Even feeling depressed would be normal, but don't let yourself fall into that- it's not conducive to doing well. If you can't deal with things, please don't feel hesitant to ask your doctor for a prescription of antidepressant, antianxiety, or something along those lines if you think it might help.
Just because it came back does not mean this "is it" for you- you've got a lot more fight left in you and you have a whole lot more living to do, so look up!!

God bless,

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Thank You Lisa

Fight for my love
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Please keep your chin up and fight the battle again.Good luck to you!

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I am so sorry. When I found out I had a recurrence (almost 2 years after my initial surgery) it was horrible. In some ways, worse than the initial diagnosis (hard as that is to believe! But I think you know what I mean).

Well, I have had 3 recurrences now. Each time it is a blow.

But, I am still alive and kicking 6+ years after my initial diagnosis. I am NED.

You CAN get back on that horse again. Kick butt.

Best wishes,


ps I agree with previous post -- if you are feeling very depressed, please do speak to your doc about antidepressants or seek counselling -- whatever it takes to get through this.

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I'm so sorry you got this news. I'm sure it's such a blow. Don't let it defeat you, though. Keep fighting!


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.....and you'll beat it again, keep the faith, and hope, this is just a setback, and just think positively, you'll be fine, and in my prayers!

Hugsss to you

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Hi Pat,
You are not alone in your fight..There are many of us that have recurrences and keep on fighting the fight. It is depressing news but you did the first round and kicked butt so you can do it again..I am stage 4 and have been fighting since Oct. 2005 and right now I am still ticking. I have been depressed about recurrences, so I agree if you need something , ask your doctor..I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...Hugs to you, Audrey.

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Hi Pat. That news really sucks. I know you are feeling very low right now. Go ahead & express how you feel. Then pull up your socks and get back into the fight. You know any time you want to vent you can come here; we understand how absolutely disappointed you are.

Lots of hugs,

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