Aug 11, 2004 - 12:06 am
Where to start... not sure. My dad, who is a vietnam vet and yes exposed to agent orange was diagnosed with prostate cancer this past Oct. He had surgery in Nov, and on follow up appointment they discovered it had mets to the bone. They are treating him with Lupron, but basically have said there really isn't anything to do. They gave him 18 months last Nov. I am very overwhelmed right now. I think it has just hit me how ill he really is and the past month he seems to be going down a lot. I'm not sure how to be supportive, loving, and really how to feel. I know I am coming out of being numb from it all. It feels, and the reality is that I am facing losing him, and I don't know how to do that. I try to enjoy each and every day with him, cherish the moments we have. But its hard, seeing him losing ground, knowing there is nothing I can do. I'm not sure which is worse, the cancer or knowing that I am so powerless over it. Any advice, or experience of others is greatly appreciated.