My first exposure to "scanxiety"

BLKJAK

I must say that "scanxiety" surprised me in regards to severity. I was doing OK keeping my mind occupied, but I am having some interesting symptoms. For the past three nights I have had some pretty nasty nightmares that I cannot get away from. Normally I will have an occasional bad dream but I can force myself to wake up and end the dream. These recent dreams are very persistant and withstand waking up. I will wake up and remind myself that it was just a dream, but when I fall back asleep, there it is waiting for me where I left off. Crazy stuff. Last night I took my Lorazepam along with an OxyCodone and the dreams were a little less intense. No memories of something horriffic happening in my dreams.

I had my first scan after three months of votrient use this morning. I had to drink contrast at 7:30am and then again at 8:30am before going in for the scan. That has got to be one of the worst tasting liquids I ever put into my mouth. To me it tastes like a swimming pool cover smells like right out of the packaging. Bonus - I got to the hospital for the scan and learned I was getting more contrast via an IV. What the heck? Why didn't they just skip the personal torture and use the IV for all of it like they did the first time three months ago? My wife and I also noticed that they keep the contrast in a locked refridgerator. Is there some street value to contrast? Do the elderly perhaps like the warm feeling they get after injecting the contrast so they turn to the streets to get their fix? Anyway, I have one more night to get through and I will hear the results tomorrow at noon. I am praying for shrinkage of the tumors. I would settle for no growth. I don't know how I'll react if there is new growth. Regardless, it's out of my control. I can only pray for the best.

Thanks for letting me vent and to share my experiences with all of you.

BLKJAK

Djinnie

BLKJAK said:

No mets either!

While the shrinkage is small, it is there. There were also no mets found! I want to thank everyone for the support and information shared over the past few months. This site has helped to keep my thoughts realistic and has given me courage. This is sounding like an awards ceremony speech, lol. I guess in some ways it is. 

Keep fighting and kicking cancer's a$$!

Congratulations!!

That is such great news!! Congratulations!! I can imagine you must both be feeling emotionally drained, waiting for results always seem like an eternity. But what a good result! No bad dreams for you tonight:)

 

Djinnie x

I am alive

Djinnie said:

Congratulations!!

That is such great news!! Congratulations!! I can imagine you must both be feeling emotionally drained, waiting for results always seem like an eternity. But what a good result! No bad dreams for you tonight:)

 

Djinnie x

Sweet!

Ahhhhhh relief is so sweet! Congratulations!

garym

I am alive said:

Sweet!

Ahhhhhh relief is so sweet! Congratulations!

WINNER, WINNER...

CHICKEN DINNER!!!  Kickong the big C's ****...ain't it great!!!

Eims

mrs_blkjak said:

The word is that many of BLKJAK's tumors have shrunk! And a couple look necrotic! So we are moving in the right direction. What an emotionally exhausting day. But a good one. 

fabulous, fabulous,

fabulous, fabulous, fabulous....well done you xxxxxx

MDCinSC

BLKJAK said:

No mets either!

While the shrinkage is small, it is there. There were also no mets found! I want to thank everyone for the support and information shared over the past few months. This site has helped to keep my thoughts realistic and has given me courage. This is sounding like an awards ceremony speech, lol. I guess in some ways it is. 

Keep fighting and kicking cancer's a$$!

OUTSTANDING!

I am very very pleased and excited for your news! 

You are showing the rest of us just how to kick Cancer in the a55!

Keep it up!

Michael

alice124

BLKJAK said:

No mets either!

While the shrinkage is small, it is there. There were also no mets found! I want to thank everyone for the support and information shared over the past few months. This site has helped to keep my thoughts realistic and has given me courage. This is sounding like an awards ceremony speech, lol. I guess in some ways it is. 

Keep fighting and kicking cancer's a$$!

Fantastic!!!!!!

YES YES YES YES YES!!!!

 

Awards ceremony it is -- time to celebrate!

 

Congratulations on a well deserved WIN.

TillieSOK

BLKJAK said:

No mets either!

While the shrinkage is small, it is there. There were also no mets found! I want to thank everyone for the support and information shared over the past few months. This site has helped to keep my thoughts realistic and has given me courage. This is sounding like an awards ceremony speech, lol. I guess in some ways it is. 

Keep fighting and kicking cancer's a$$!

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Texas_wedge

TillieSOK said:

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Tillie, it seems there's (No subject ) you don't want to talk about!

TillieSOK

Texas_wedge said:

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Tillie, it seems there's (No subject ) you don't want to talk about!

There WAS a picture there!  I

There WAS a picture there!  I swear there was! 

angec

BLKJAK said:

No mets either!

While the shrinkage is small, it is there. There were also no mets found! I want to thank everyone for the support and information shared over the past few months. This site has helped to keep my thoughts realistic and has given me courage. This is sounding like an awards ceremony speech, lol. I guess in some ways it is. 

Keep fighting and kicking cancer's a$$!

AWESOME!  The first few times

AWESOME!  The first few times of scans there is anxiety, but i am told you get used to it after awhile!  I don't know how but some do! So glad the results are looking good.  Give wifey a big hug and sit back and enjoy some quiet time!  A big sigh of relief!  Keep up the fight and show cancer who is boss!