I'm sorry, I fell down a Well................

tasha_111
tasha_111 Member Posts: 2,072
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Depression as I have only imagined it. Ok I am starting to claw my way back up now. Not very well, but I am getting there. Thank you for all your support. Sorry I havn't been here for anyone, THIS IS NOT ME! I have been 'Lurking' in here and in the chat-room.............just too down to get involved, speak or join in.........I hope that nobody here goes through what I have been struggling with, but if you have, please know..... you are NOT alone. Hugs Jxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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  • tjhay
    tjhay Member Posts: 655
    Tasha Darling
    It is ok to lurk you, yourself told me that. Take the time you need to get back on your feet. Please know that I am reaching down that well to grasp your hand and help you up out of that whole when your ready. It you need to talk I am here for you my friend.
    Hugs
    Tj
  • cats_toy
    cats_toy Member Posts: 1,462 Member
    Tasha
    lurking or not, you never need to apologize. Take care of yourself and be well
    =^..^=
  • fauxma
    fauxma Member Posts: 3,577 Member
    Dearest Tasha
    You have been

    Dearest Tasha
    You have been through a lot beyond the whole ugly cancer stuff so it is not surprising that you had this fall into the well. Too bad it wasn't the rabbit hole and Alice in Wonderland. There were good drugs there. And croquet and beheadings and well it was fun. What you have been going through isn't fun. Glad you are lurking and it's okay not to be posting. Others will take up the slack, but perhaps not with your wit and humor. I am glad that you are climbing up and out. Have you been to your doctor to see if you need to increase your depression meds or anything? We are here for you, as you well know and we all have you in our good thoughts that this too shall pass.
    We daft sods and splinter fractions need our leader but only when you are ready to resume your mantle and take your place on the throne of daftness.
    Stef
  • rjjj
    rjjj Member Posts: 1,822 Member
    We miss you!
    Please know that you are not alone and we are all here reaching for your hand to pull you up and out of that well. I do very well know how far depression can pull you down. I have been having bouts that can come and go in a instant, I also hot-flash and night sweat...so i wonder how much is hormonal, how much is emotional (dealing with CA and all the other trials weve been through) and how much is mental. I try to take my anti-depressant but I get busy with work and forget. Have you got your straightened out yet?

    Sometimes I just wonder if it is my situation...angry at the beast...angry at those I thought might be there and aren't.

    Tash, go be with friends and people who make you laugh, enjoy doing things you like to do....be kind to yourself. you are definetly worth it...you are so sweet and so funny and witty. I love reading your posts.

    I am going to take my own advice that I just gave you and pull up the big girl panties and try to do what I can to eliminate the fear and anger from my life. We have so much to look forward to. I will be holding on to you as we struggle to the top.

    Love ya bunches, Jackie
  • tasha_111
    tasha_111 Member Posts: 2,072
    rjjj said:

    We miss you!
    Please know that you are not alone and we are all here reaching for your hand to pull you up and out of that well. I do very well know how far depression can pull you down. I have been having bouts that can come and go in a instant, I also hot-flash and night sweat...so i wonder how much is hormonal, how much is emotional (dealing with CA and all the other trials weve been through) and how much is mental. I try to take my anti-depressant but I get busy with work and forget. Have you got your straightened out yet?

    Sometimes I just wonder if it is my situation...angry at the beast...angry at those I thought might be there and aren't.

    Tash, go be with friends and people who make you laugh, enjoy doing things you like to do....be kind to yourself. you are definetly worth it...you are so sweet and so funny and witty. I love reading your posts.

    I am going to take my own advice that I just gave you and pull up the big girl panties and try to do what I can to eliminate the fear and anger from my life. We have so much to look forward to. I will be holding on to you as we struggle to the top.

    Love ya bunches, Jackie

    Sob
    Thank you all so much..............Jxxxxxxxxxxx
  • Akiss4me
    Akiss4me Member Posts: 2,188
    Tasha!!!
    So glad you checked in!! Ok, you can go play in your own little world now, but can we come? Hugs and smiles.....Pammy
  • Moopy23
    Moopy23 Member Posts: 1,751 Member
    tasha_111 said:

    Sob
    Thank you all so much..............Jxxxxxxxxxxx

    Oh, Julia, I can't say it
    Oh, Julia, I can't say it any better than Steff and the others have: we miss you and care about you and want the best for you. Sometimes, you can't give anything here because you are drained--there's nothing to give. That's how I feel sometimes, so I understand why you wouldn't read or post. It's taking all you have just to keep yourself standing.

    So, you focus on doing the best things for Julia. If you need a hand, many are reaching out to you here. Joe and I will keep you in our prayers.
  • Kat11
    Kat11 Member Posts: 1,931 Member
    Akiss4me said:

    Tasha!!!
    So glad you checked in!! Ok, you can go play in your own little world now, but can we come? Hugs and smiles.....Pammy

    So glad your back and out of
    So glad your back and out of that well. You were missed you know. Take care of yourself.
  • lynn1950
    lynn1950 Member Posts: 2,570
    Oh, Julia... I've been
    Oh, Julia... I've been thinking about you and wondering how you are. Should've pm'd you. Just know that you are loved here, even if we aren't nattering at you. xoxoxoxo Lynn
  • aurora2009
    aurora2009 Member Posts: 544 Member
    lynn1950 said:

    Oh, Julia... I've been
    Oh, Julia... I've been thinking about you and wondering how you are. Should've pm'd you. Just know that you are loved here, even if we aren't nattering at you. xoxoxoxo Lynn

    Tasha
    It's good to hear you are pulling your self out of the funk.
    I wish you well, Take your time and do what's right for you, we miss you, and are always here for you. Sometimes it just take time to find the new or old you. You'll get there, you've just been through so much lately. Stay stronger and as always you're in my prayers.

    God Bless you,

    Aurora
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159
    Well, Well, Well~ That's a Deep Subject!
    I was trying to think about the good thing about wells, and falling in one! I came up with, in no particular order: They make grand hiding places, you can hear what's going on around you without having to join in, if the water isn't too deep you can literally "cool your heels",the scorching sun won't beat on your head, and when you are ready to come up out and be on dry land, all you have to do is yell and your friends will throw a rope down to you and pull you up!!!

    Glad to see you with your feet on terra firma again, Ms Julia; I've missed you bunches!

    Hugs,
    Chen♥
  • chickad52
    chickad52 Member Posts: 497
    Tasha
    Please don't apologize for they way you feel. Know that we are all here when you need us! For me talking seems to help! Keep in touch. Hugs, Diane
  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow Member Posts: 2,686 Member
    Tasha, I'm fairly "new" here
    Tasha, I'm fairly "new" here but I hope you're feeling better. I have been on long enough to have shared your humor and advice to those in need. Looking for more of those days for you. Take care.
  • outdoorgirl
    outdoorgirl Member Posts: 1,565
    I'm sorryTash.
    I know what it's like to feel like you don't have anything left to give. I hope that you are feeling better...
  • mimivac
    mimivac Member Posts: 2,143
    I totally understand
    That depression can be a monster and so debilitating. So sorry. Have you changed your meds because of Tamoxifen? Adjusting to a new regimen? Please know that you are missed, but we understand completely. Lurk and read and write when you're ready. Your prespective is so valuable and unique here. It's not the same without you, Tash!

    Mimi
  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    The good thing about there
    The good thing about there being so many that post is you get to slide and just read. We know you will be popping in when you can. Sliding is fun too. Weeeeee. Hugs.
  • cruf
    cruf Member Posts: 908
    Marcia527 said:

    The good thing about there
    The good thing about there being so many that post is you get to slide and just read. We know you will be popping in when you can. Sliding is fun too. Weeeeee. Hugs.

    Miss you
    Miss you Tasha! Glad you dropped in to say HI! You know we're here for you.Come back as soon as you feel you want to. HUGS!!! Cathy
  • sgamtd
    sgamtd Member Posts: 124
    cruf said:

    Miss you
    Miss you Tasha! Glad you dropped in to say HI! You know we're here for you.Come back as soon as you feel you want to. HUGS!!! Cathy

    (((((TASHA))))
    Missed you alot, glad you found the way out of the well and was able to post - that's a good step toward getting back to normal. Hang in there, take care and post when you feel like it again.
    sgamtd
  • aurora2009
    aurora2009 Member Posts: 544 Member
    sgamtd said:

    (((((TASHA))))
    Missed you alot, glad you found the way out of the well and was able to post - that's a good step toward getting back to normal. Hang in there, take care and post when you feel like it again.
    sgamtd

    sgamtd
    OH my gosh I just had the wierdest thing just happen to me. The whole time you've had that avitar, I've been looking at his nose holes and thinking those were his eyes, and I thought his eyes were ears. Which would mean that the light grey part was his face and the grey area was his hair. Try looking at it that way if you can. lol. It was like one of those puzzle pictures that some people see one way while others see some thing totally different. Now that my eyes see it the way it really is, I don't know how they were playing tricks on me.
    lolololololol.

    Wow am I losing it or what? lol
    Can anyone else se that ?
    Or is it just me?

    Aurora
  • tommaseena
    tommaseena Member Posts: 1,769

    sgamtd
    OH my gosh I just had the wierdest thing just happen to me. The whole time you've had that avitar, I've been looking at his nose holes and thinking those were his eyes, and I thought his eyes were ears. Which would mean that the light grey part was his face and the grey area was his hair. Try looking at it that way if you can. lol. It was like one of those puzzle pictures that some people see one way while others see some thing totally different. Now that my eyes see it the way it really is, I don't know how they were playing tricks on me.
    lolololololol.

    Wow am I losing it or what? lol
    Can anyone else se that ?
    Or is it just me?

    Aurora

    Julia
    I've been thinking about you.
    Hope each day is better.

    Hugs,
    Margo