Okay, so you are all going to think I am crazy. I had a good visit w/ my oncologist yesterday. Good test results etc... But I have been very down and emotional ever since. I saw some patients having chemo and it brought the whole horrible scary experience back to me. But it didn't hit me till the next day(today). I still after three years since diagnosis cannot let it go emotionally. I have been perseverating on it since yesterday and this seems to happen after each visit. I get anxious a day or so before each visit too. I am so lucky to be in good health, I know I should just be able to focus on that and count my blessings, but somehow I can't.