I think I'm going to Scream.....UGGGGHHHH~!!!!!

taleena
taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Okay.. so little miss impatient me called Genomic Health Customer Service (the company conducting the Oncotype DX test) today... just to see if the test had been completed... well it turns out that although the onco sent in the request for it to be done on the 25th of June... they didn't send in the tissue until July 2nd.... UGGGGHHHHH .... for pete's sake...
So, I'm on the wait train at least another week...or up until July 16th... well... if they can make me wait that long... then..."I'M GOING ON VACTION TO WA STATE ON THE 16TH and I'll come back and deal with it all then...after the 25th"

Sorry Pammy... I didn't cheat on purpose!!! You go first..

To all of my sisters who have endured this journey before me... You are Saints... I think I want to kill something....

Hugs...
~T

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  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
    Just to spite your doc, enjoy your trip!!!!!!
    I complained at one point about a lack of results, and my onc's nurse said "Well, she is a busy lady, and we see more patients in a day than you can imagine!". My reply? "I only see one doctor, so maybe I should start looking for another, if she can't keep things like this straight...I would not be missed, I guess". Amazing the care I got after that...ROFL! (I think it had something to do with I WAS a paying patient...LOL!)

    Sorry for the 'hurry up and wait'...it IS the pits!!! And, yes, I felt like killing someone many, many times...BUT, my fav line was "Well, I can either threaten to sleep with someone or NOT sleep with someone, whichever works!"

    Enjoy your trip. You should have a grand time!!!

    Hugs, Kathi
  • sausageroll
    sausageroll Member Posts: 415
    KathiM said:

    Just to spite your doc, enjoy your trip!!!!!!
    I complained at one point about a lack of results, and my onc's nurse said "Well, she is a busy lady, and we see more patients in a day than you can imagine!". My reply? "I only see one doctor, so maybe I should start looking for another, if she can't keep things like this straight...I would not be missed, I guess". Amazing the care I got after that...ROFL! (I think it had something to do with I WAS a paying patient...LOL!)

    Sorry for the 'hurry up and wait'...it IS the pits!!! And, yes, I felt like killing someone many, many times...BUT, my fav line was "Well, I can either threaten to sleep with someone or NOT sleep with someone, whichever works!"

    Enjoy your trip. You should have a grand time!!!

    Hugs, Kathi

    So sorry
    I am so sorry "T" that you have this wait...it is so thoughtless. The waiting is the worst part and they should know that better than anyone.

    I hope you get some good time away and great results when you get back. Thinking of you.
  • Akiss4me
    Akiss4me Member Posts: 2,188
    I'm so sorry this happened to you all :(
    OK, you get to slide on this one!!
    Maybe though your Oncologist tomorrow will still be able to give you a better idea in your treatment! The OncotypeDX is just a tool for part of the decision...not the only criteria. Maybe tomorrow could still be a "what if my score is this..." and you'll have an idea which way to go! Ask the Oncologist to elimate the middle ground so you will know to go one way or another. Like say anything below A 24 you skip chemo or anything above a 24 you add chemo? That may ease your mind some?
    I am so sorry, Taleena, that you have to go through this. That was entirely too long in getting your sample submitted!! Sounds like not only could that Oncologist help you to make a better decision the first go round, He also had no regards in dealing with your disease in a timely matter.
    I hope the one you see tomorrow is much better, you like alot, you feel confident after your appointment and get way better answers!! I say a prayer for you that the right person is put into your path!
    Hang in there, sweetie, just need to take some DEEPER breaths!! (It wouldn't hurt to practice some kickboxing, karate, ty kwon doe too!! Never know when you might have the urge to use it!!) :) Pammy
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    Akiss4me said:

    I'm so sorry this happened to you all :(
    OK, you get to slide on this one!!
    Maybe though your Oncologist tomorrow will still be able to give you a better idea in your treatment! The OncotypeDX is just a tool for part of the decision...not the only criteria. Maybe tomorrow could still be a "what if my score is this..." and you'll have an idea which way to go! Ask the Oncologist to elimate the middle ground so you will know to go one way or another. Like say anything below A 24 you skip chemo or anything above a 24 you add chemo? That may ease your mind some?
    I am so sorry, Taleena, that you have to go through this. That was entirely too long in getting your sample submitted!! Sounds like not only could that Oncologist help you to make a better decision the first go round, He also had no regards in dealing with your disease in a timely matter.
    I hope the one you see tomorrow is much better, you like alot, you feel confident after your appointment and get way better answers!! I say a prayer for you that the right person is put into your path!
    Hang in there, sweetie, just need to take some DEEPER breaths!! (It wouldn't hurt to practice some kickboxing, karate, ty kwon doe too!! Never know when you might have the urge to use it!!) :) Pammy

    Pammy If I practice some
    Pammy If I practice some kickboxing, karate, ty kwon doe... do I get to use it on that "useless" onco???

    Oh please say yes...

    and Kathi ... to threaten to sleep with them or not to... hum... roflmao~!!!!

    Thanks for the positive thoughts sausage...I plan on having a great time... up in the Cascade Mountain Range!!

    ~T
  • cabbott
    cabbott Member Posts: 1,039 Member
    Waiting is a Pain!
    Dear T,

    Waiting is certainly a pain. One thing that helped me a little was realizing that cancer doesn't double overnight. It is important at this point to get a good idea of the cancer you have so that the treatment over the next few years is as effective as possible, but don't fret too much. I somehow managed to always have tests and operations during the summer months when my vacations took place, not to mention the doctors' vacations also took place. With breast cancer I went to the beach between the mammogram and the stereotactic biopsy, to see my sister in another state between the biopsy and the lumpectomy, and to the fair and then to work for a month or so between the lumpectomy and the mammogram. In all it took from the middle of June to October 1 before the final surgery was finished. I was petrified that the delay was going to kill me, but I couldn't get things done any faster and I hated to miss a minute of my summer vacation or the start up of the school year (especially since I figued it could just be my last one. . . that was back in 2002). The nurse kindly explained about doubling times for various forms of cancer. Some breast cancers are extremely aggressive and double about every 27 days. That's quite rare but it happens. The good thing about that sort is that it responds to chemo better than the slower growing sort. Mine was not very aggressive and probably doubled every 210 days. Somehow she had gotten this off the information given on the path report on how many cells were actively dividing in the tumor sample. She said that they try to limit delays to 1 month before surgery just to be sure they aren't risking anyone's life, but that they aren't sweating about an extra week or two tossed in there. Of course, they weren't the ones staring at the ceiling not sleeping every night. They didn't seem too worried about getting me to treatment after the surgery either. There went another month. Oh well, I had to wait. Again, all the medical folks didn't seem too alarmed. They said they didn't want to see more than three months go by before I started treatment after surgery. A survivor friend of mine, somewhat older and considerably calmer about things than I was, said you make your doctor's appointments on your calendar and then carry on with the business of living without giving cancer more time than it deserves. She said you get used to living two lives at once: the one life where you are dealing with the business of having cancer and the other life where you are doing the usual things of life and living. Easier said than done perhaps, but there is a bit of wisdom in there. Make your doctor's appointments, get after the lab folks to do their job, take whatever meds the doctor insists on, but don't miss your vacation! After all, vacations are all about living and that's why you are going through all those medical interventions. Good luck!

    C. Abbott
  • dmc_emmy
    dmc_emmy Member Posts: 549

    So sorry
    I am so sorry "T" that you have this wait...it is so thoughtless. The waiting is the worst part and they should know that better than anyone.

    I hope you get some good time away and great results when you get back. Thinking of you.

    T-we can scream together
    Long post, forgive me. I guess today is Venting Day--and it started out so beautifully, too:

    First, I am so sorry that you have to wait T even longer than expected. However, I feel, in my heart of hearts, that the drs are really trying to their best. But, I also think that sometimes they (those in the med'l profession) forget that we, the patient, are the ones being impacted with news (or in your case, no news) and it can be devastating. Their lives will go on normally, ours-well, it's always a wait and see.

    Now, is it okay for me to do little screaming? How about some more crying?

    About 2 years ago, I asked to see my prognosis. It was, however, not what I was expecting, but I did ask for honesty. I was planning to stop the Femara at that time, due to se, and I wanted to know how this would effect my odds of survival. I decided to stay on it, because it raised my chance of surviving (according to the stats) from 30% to 40% for ten years from my dx. I never told my daughter and I never told my folks. I never even told all my new friends here.

    To forget about myself, I got a dog and took her through therapy training so we could help others who were worse off than myself. I admit that I over indulge when it comes to my dog, my family (especially my daughter), and my gardens. I know this, but I thought this was better than anti-depressants and wallowing in self-pity. But, I am also on the fast-track to pay off our debts so my hubby will not be straddled with debt, should he outlive me.

    This AM, I got an urgent msg from my little brother to call him. I paniced, thinking something had happened to my mom. Well, to make this as short as possible, they (my folks) thought that my dog was more important to me than they are because I had not made definite plans to come down to visit yet and, if I went, I had planned to stay only for a long week-end. Stupid, huh? My mom means everything to me. My father and I have never gotten along and week stay with him could mean disaster. I didn't think that was in anyone's best interest. It is true that I really have no one here to care for Emmy as I do, my hubby cannot walk her (he's deaf and blind), my daughter works, and I give Emmy (okay, I admit it) too much attention.

    I have been telling my mom, "I haven't made plans yet, but I will after my appointments." The last phone call, "I plan to come down, but it will be only for a long weekend. I do have other commitments." (All true, but not the whole truth.)

    It would have made things much easier if my father would have let me bring her with me. I would be able to take my time traveling and would stay in their guest house. I do not have the endurance to travel (without a driver to share with me) since my lymphodema is flaring up, my joints are in pain, and now my breast hurts, too. Flying is the best option, but I don't want to make plans until I know what the drs say. Not happening-my father said he will not allow me to bring a dog into "Mom's home".

    Three problems: my dog, my heatth, and possibly more dr visits...

    Well, as my daughter sat on the sofa, I told my mom (with my father screaming comments in the background)the whole truth as to why I had not made definite plans. I am basically waiting for my mam results. I found two small masses in my remaining breast and several in my surgery site. They are very paiful and I am scared to death. I told my mom why I over-indulge in my dog, gardens, and family...I told her everything. I told her my prognosis and that I was just trying to protect her from what I felt she didn't need to know-especially since she was sick. I told her I pray only that my parents will not need to bury their daughter.

    There, now everyone knows. My daughter, who sat on the sofa crying (you know the hurtful silent tears?), all of you, and my mom. I told my daughter that I was sorry for not being upfront with her, but I wanted her to live her life as she should and try to revolve around what may or may not happen to me. I told her that she had her whole life ahead of her and that my joking about never being able to retire-because of the latest market crash, (and should the stats be correct) and that I hoped she will enjoy the money that I have put away for her. It was my way of accepting what may happen. My daughter told me she was not angry with me, she understood.

    Was I wrong? I love my mom so much and I hate to hear her cry. When we said goodbye, we were both crying.

    I feel like doggie doodoo right now (I didn't know if the other word would be edited :))
    Thanks for listening.
    dmc
  • dmc_emmy
    dmc_emmy Member Posts: 549
    taleena said:

    Pammy If I practice some
    Pammy If I practice some kickboxing, karate, ty kwon doe... do I get to use it on that "useless" onco???

    Oh please say yes...

    and Kathi ... to threaten to sleep with them or not to... hum... roflmao~!!!!

    Thanks for the positive thoughts sausage...I plan on having a great time... up in the Cascade Mountain Range!!

    ~T

    Enjoy T
    sounds beautiful!
    dmc
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    I don't blame you.
    Awww T I am sorry things did awry. It happened several time to me as well, so now if tests are being done I am on the phone within a few days to gently push some buttons to ensure they don't shelf me. I think you should get out and go have some fun, put them on the back burner for a bit and enjoy yourself!


    Hugs,

    RE
  • CR1954
    CR1954 Member Posts: 1,390 Member
    Awwwww T.......
    I'm so sorry! What a crock o' poop!!

    Hang in there kiddo! Go on your vacation and try to forget about it for a few days.

    Hugs,

    CR
  • Akiss4me
    Akiss4me Member Posts: 2,188
    dmc_emmy said:

    T-we can scream together
    Long post, forgive me. I guess today is Venting Day--and it started out so beautifully, too:

    First, I am so sorry that you have to wait T even longer than expected. However, I feel, in my heart of hearts, that the drs are really trying to their best. But, I also think that sometimes they (those in the med'l profession) forget that we, the patient, are the ones being impacted with news (or in your case, no news) and it can be devastating. Their lives will go on normally, ours-well, it's always a wait and see.

    Now, is it okay for me to do little screaming? How about some more crying?

    About 2 years ago, I asked to see my prognosis. It was, however, not what I was expecting, but I did ask for honesty. I was planning to stop the Femara at that time, due to se, and I wanted to know how this would effect my odds of survival. I decided to stay on it, because it raised my chance of surviving (according to the stats) from 30% to 40% for ten years from my dx. I never told my daughter and I never told my folks. I never even told all my new friends here.

    To forget about myself, I got a dog and took her through therapy training so we could help others who were worse off than myself. I admit that I over indulge when it comes to my dog, my family (especially my daughter), and my gardens. I know this, but I thought this was better than anti-depressants and wallowing in self-pity. But, I am also on the fast-track to pay off our debts so my hubby will not be straddled with debt, should he outlive me.

    This AM, I got an urgent msg from my little brother to call him. I paniced, thinking something had happened to my mom. Well, to make this as short as possible, they (my folks) thought that my dog was more important to me than they are because I had not made definite plans to come down to visit yet and, if I went, I had planned to stay only for a long week-end. Stupid, huh? My mom means everything to me. My father and I have never gotten along and week stay with him could mean disaster. I didn't think that was in anyone's best interest. It is true that I really have no one here to care for Emmy as I do, my hubby cannot walk her (he's deaf and blind), my daughter works, and I give Emmy (okay, I admit it) too much attention.

    I have been telling my mom, "I haven't made plans yet, but I will after my appointments." The last phone call, "I plan to come down, but it will be only for a long weekend. I do have other commitments." (All true, but not the whole truth.)

    It would have made things much easier if my father would have let me bring her with me. I would be able to take my time traveling and would stay in their guest house. I do not have the endurance to travel (without a driver to share with me) since my lymphodema is flaring up, my joints are in pain, and now my breast hurts, too. Flying is the best option, but I don't want to make plans until I know what the drs say. Not happening-my father said he will not allow me to bring a dog into "Mom's home".

    Three problems: my dog, my heatth, and possibly more dr visits...

    Well, as my daughter sat on the sofa, I told my mom (with my father screaming comments in the background)the whole truth as to why I had not made definite plans. I am basically waiting for my mam results. I found two small masses in my remaining breast and several in my surgery site. They are very paiful and I am scared to death. I told my mom why I over-indulge in my dog, gardens, and family...I told her everything. I told her my prognosis and that I was just trying to protect her from what I felt she didn't need to know-especially since she was sick. I told her I pray only that my parents will not need to bury their daughter.

    There, now everyone knows. My daughter, who sat on the sofa crying (you know the hurtful silent tears?), all of you, and my mom. I told my daughter that I was sorry for not being upfront with her, but I wanted her to live her life as she should and try to revolve around what may or may not happen to me. I told her that she had her whole life ahead of her and that my joking about never being able to retire-because of the latest market crash, (and should the stats be correct) and that I hoped she will enjoy the money that I have put away for her. It was my way of accepting what may happen. My daughter told me she was not angry with me, she understood.

    Was I wrong? I love my mom so much and I hate to hear her cry. When we said goodbye, we were both crying.

    I feel like doggie doodoo right now (I didn't know if the other word would be edited :))
    Thanks for listening.
    dmc

    Dmc...
    I am soooo sorry you are going through this. I can't imagine the torture you are feeling right now. I don't even have any words at the moment to say to help ease your pain other than I wished you had not had to go through all this. I will keep you in my prayers and say an extra one for your daughter and your family. Try to remember that The Will of God will not take you where The Grace of God will not protect you. :) Pammy
  • Akiss4me
    Akiss4me Member Posts: 2,188
    taleena said:

    Pammy If I practice some
    Pammy If I practice some kickboxing, karate, ty kwon doe... do I get to use it on that "useless" onco???

    Oh please say yes...

    and Kathi ... to threaten to sleep with them or not to... hum... roflmao~!!!!

    Thanks for the positive thoughts sausage...I plan on having a great time... up in the Cascade Mountain Range!!

    ~T

    Ummm...OK
    YES!!!!!!
  • jk1952
    jk1952 Member Posts: 613
    Akiss4me said:

    Dmc...
    I am soooo sorry you are going through this. I can't imagine the torture you are feeling right now. I don't even have any words at the moment to say to help ease your pain other than I wished you had not had to go through all this. I will keep you in my prayers and say an extra one for your daughter and your family. Try to remember that The Will of God will not take you where The Grace of God will not protect you. :) Pammy

    DMC, please try to remember

    DMC, please try to remember that you were not telling your family because you love them: don't beat yourself up about it. It was a very loving gesture on your part, to want to protect them. And, it is good that they now know the truth. Now you'll be able to talk to them when it would help, and they will understand what a loving daughter and mother you are, putting them ahead of yourself.

    Joyce
  • mimivac
    mimivac Member Posts: 2,143
    dmc_emmy said:

    T-we can scream together
    Long post, forgive me. I guess today is Venting Day--and it started out so beautifully, too:

    First, I am so sorry that you have to wait T even longer than expected. However, I feel, in my heart of hearts, that the drs are really trying to their best. But, I also think that sometimes they (those in the med'l profession) forget that we, the patient, are the ones being impacted with news (or in your case, no news) and it can be devastating. Their lives will go on normally, ours-well, it's always a wait and see.

    Now, is it okay for me to do little screaming? How about some more crying?

    About 2 years ago, I asked to see my prognosis. It was, however, not what I was expecting, but I did ask for honesty. I was planning to stop the Femara at that time, due to se, and I wanted to know how this would effect my odds of survival. I decided to stay on it, because it raised my chance of surviving (according to the stats) from 30% to 40% for ten years from my dx. I never told my daughter and I never told my folks. I never even told all my new friends here.

    To forget about myself, I got a dog and took her through therapy training so we could help others who were worse off than myself. I admit that I over indulge when it comes to my dog, my family (especially my daughter), and my gardens. I know this, but I thought this was better than anti-depressants and wallowing in self-pity. But, I am also on the fast-track to pay off our debts so my hubby will not be straddled with debt, should he outlive me.

    This AM, I got an urgent msg from my little brother to call him. I paniced, thinking something had happened to my mom. Well, to make this as short as possible, they (my folks) thought that my dog was more important to me than they are because I had not made definite plans to come down to visit yet and, if I went, I had planned to stay only for a long week-end. Stupid, huh? My mom means everything to me. My father and I have never gotten along and week stay with him could mean disaster. I didn't think that was in anyone's best interest. It is true that I really have no one here to care for Emmy as I do, my hubby cannot walk her (he's deaf and blind), my daughter works, and I give Emmy (okay, I admit it) too much attention.

    I have been telling my mom, "I haven't made plans yet, but I will after my appointments." The last phone call, "I plan to come down, but it will be only for a long weekend. I do have other commitments." (All true, but not the whole truth.)

    It would have made things much easier if my father would have let me bring her with me. I would be able to take my time traveling and would stay in their guest house. I do not have the endurance to travel (without a driver to share with me) since my lymphodema is flaring up, my joints are in pain, and now my breast hurts, too. Flying is the best option, but I don't want to make plans until I know what the drs say. Not happening-my father said he will not allow me to bring a dog into "Mom's home".

    Three problems: my dog, my heatth, and possibly more dr visits...

    Well, as my daughter sat on the sofa, I told my mom (with my father screaming comments in the background)the whole truth as to why I had not made definite plans. I am basically waiting for my mam results. I found two small masses in my remaining breast and several in my surgery site. They are very paiful and I am scared to death. I told my mom why I over-indulge in my dog, gardens, and family...I told her everything. I told her my prognosis and that I was just trying to protect her from what I felt she didn't need to know-especially since she was sick. I told her I pray only that my parents will not need to bury their daughter.

    There, now everyone knows. My daughter, who sat on the sofa crying (you know the hurtful silent tears?), all of you, and my mom. I told my daughter that I was sorry for not being upfront with her, but I wanted her to live her life as she should and try to revolve around what may or may not happen to me. I told her that she had her whole life ahead of her and that my joking about never being able to retire-because of the latest market crash, (and should the stats be correct) and that I hoped she will enjoy the money that I have put away for her. It was my way of accepting what may happen. My daughter told me she was not angry with me, she understood.

    Was I wrong? I love my mom so much and I hate to hear her cry. When we said goodbye, we were both crying.

    I feel like doggie doodoo right now (I didn't know if the other word would be edited :))
    Thanks for listening.
    dmc

    DMC,
    I am so sorry for all that you are going through. What a hand you've been dealt. You have so much to deal with between the bc and your family and the bills, etc. I wish I knew the right thing to say. My scar line also feels very lumpy. I was told that was normal. My best wishes for benign results on everything. You're doing the right thing.

    Mimi
  • phoenixrising
    phoenixrising Member Posts: 1,508
    Taleena, sorry about your
    Taleena, sorry about your delay. I know how frustrating it can be but glad you are taking some time out. Where and what are you going to be doing in the Cascades. You're not going to kill anything are you??????????? LOL
  • phoenixrising
    phoenixrising Member Posts: 1,508
    dmc_emmy said:

    T-we can scream together
    Long post, forgive me. I guess today is Venting Day--and it started out so beautifully, too:

    First, I am so sorry that you have to wait T even longer than expected. However, I feel, in my heart of hearts, that the drs are really trying to their best. But, I also think that sometimes they (those in the med'l profession) forget that we, the patient, are the ones being impacted with news (or in your case, no news) and it can be devastating. Their lives will go on normally, ours-well, it's always a wait and see.

    Now, is it okay for me to do little screaming? How about some more crying?

    About 2 years ago, I asked to see my prognosis. It was, however, not what I was expecting, but I did ask for honesty. I was planning to stop the Femara at that time, due to se, and I wanted to know how this would effect my odds of survival. I decided to stay on it, because it raised my chance of surviving (according to the stats) from 30% to 40% for ten years from my dx. I never told my daughter and I never told my folks. I never even told all my new friends here.

    To forget about myself, I got a dog and took her through therapy training so we could help others who were worse off than myself. I admit that I over indulge when it comes to my dog, my family (especially my daughter), and my gardens. I know this, but I thought this was better than anti-depressants and wallowing in self-pity. But, I am also on the fast-track to pay off our debts so my hubby will not be straddled with debt, should he outlive me.

    This AM, I got an urgent msg from my little brother to call him. I paniced, thinking something had happened to my mom. Well, to make this as short as possible, they (my folks) thought that my dog was more important to me than they are because I had not made definite plans to come down to visit yet and, if I went, I had planned to stay only for a long week-end. Stupid, huh? My mom means everything to me. My father and I have never gotten along and week stay with him could mean disaster. I didn't think that was in anyone's best interest. It is true that I really have no one here to care for Emmy as I do, my hubby cannot walk her (he's deaf and blind), my daughter works, and I give Emmy (okay, I admit it) too much attention.

    I have been telling my mom, "I haven't made plans yet, but I will after my appointments." The last phone call, "I plan to come down, but it will be only for a long weekend. I do have other commitments." (All true, but not the whole truth.)

    It would have made things much easier if my father would have let me bring her with me. I would be able to take my time traveling and would stay in their guest house. I do not have the endurance to travel (without a driver to share with me) since my lymphodema is flaring up, my joints are in pain, and now my breast hurts, too. Flying is the best option, but I don't want to make plans until I know what the drs say. Not happening-my father said he will not allow me to bring a dog into "Mom's home".

    Three problems: my dog, my heatth, and possibly more dr visits...

    Well, as my daughter sat on the sofa, I told my mom (with my father screaming comments in the background)the whole truth as to why I had not made definite plans. I am basically waiting for my mam results. I found two small masses in my remaining breast and several in my surgery site. They are very paiful and I am scared to death. I told my mom why I over-indulge in my dog, gardens, and family...I told her everything. I told her my prognosis and that I was just trying to protect her from what I felt she didn't need to know-especially since she was sick. I told her I pray only that my parents will not need to bury their daughter.

    There, now everyone knows. My daughter, who sat on the sofa crying (you know the hurtful silent tears?), all of you, and my mom. I told my daughter that I was sorry for not being upfront with her, but I wanted her to live her life as she should and try to revolve around what may or may not happen to me. I told her that she had her whole life ahead of her and that my joking about never being able to retire-because of the latest market crash, (and should the stats be correct) and that I hoped she will enjoy the money that I have put away for her. It was my way of accepting what may happen. My daughter told me she was not angry with me, she understood.

    Was I wrong? I love my mom so much and I hate to hear her cry. When we said goodbye, we were both crying.

    I feel like doggie doodoo right now (I didn't know if the other word would be edited :))
    Thanks for listening.
    dmc

    Oh D, I am so sorry to hear
    Oh D, I am so sorry to hear you've found new lumps. I too have lumps on/around my scar and I'm sure the others can be cysts. But I would panic too. I think it's good you told your family. You know if my son kept that from me I would be very upset. I know you wanted to protect them and that is sweet but it prevents them from supporting and helping you. I would want to be there for my son and would be very hurt if he hid it from me. So in my eyes anyway, you are not doggie doo doo and I hope you get your results soon. We will be hoping for the best possible outcome and please keep us posted.

    hugs
    jan
  • Moopy23
    Moopy23 Member Posts: 1,751 Member
    Delay
    Taleena, sorry to hear you won't have the oncotype test results until the 25th. Waiting on the information needed to make such an important decision is frustrating. Going on your vacation to the Cascades and just forgetting about it as much as you can is a great idea.
    And enjoying that adorable grandpup will help, too.
  • Kayla1
    Kayla1 Member Posts: 101
    Moopy23 said:

    Delay
    Taleena, sorry to hear you won't have the oncotype test results until the 25th. Waiting on the information needed to make such an important decision is frustrating. Going on your vacation to the Cascades and just forgetting about it as much as you can is a great idea.
    And enjoying that adorable grandpup will help, too.

    T,
    I am so sorry to hear of

    T,
    I am so sorry to hear of your delay. Pack those bags and enjoy your vacation!!!!
    K
  • Kayla1
    Kayla1 Member Posts: 101
    Moopy23 said:

    Delay
    Taleena, sorry to hear you won't have the oncotype test results until the 25th. Waiting on the information needed to make such an important decision is frustrating. Going on your vacation to the Cascades and just forgetting about it as much as you can is a great idea.
    And enjoying that adorable grandpup will help, too.

    dmc,
    I hope you found some

    dmc,
    I hope you found some relief in finally getting it all out? Your Mom & daughter needs to know, how else can they help you. My daughter comes to every appointment and treatment because, as hard as it is to face the truth, she needs to know for herself. I too, as a mother, try and shield the hard stuff from her. My daughter is learning she is stronger than she thought as I am sure your daughter will learn the same.
    It is all about you righ now!!!!!!! Stop worrying about others and do what is best for you. If you want to see your Mother and can only do a long weekend, then do just that!

    Hugs & prayers for you,
    K