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pokismom
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Joined: Jul 2009

Hi Everyone,
I had a Catscan on Tuesday and today my oncologist said minimal growth again but it is growing, so he said that I can still wait to start the Chemo or start the choice would be mine. I'm wondering if I wait I'm maybe putting myself at risk to develop cancer some where else and the growth could be faster. His stand is they kind of don't really know if I start now or later it's really going to make that much of a difference so if I wanted to wait I still could. Although I'm not really fond of what's coming up the reality is I need to do the chemo anyway. Been pretty much feeling good otherwise, weight normal, I lost about 20 pounds after I went vegetarian. Energy okay too. Got to think about this one in the mean time he said to think about it and come back in a month. Any advice?
Donna

neon356
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Joined: Mar 2004

donna,

For me there wouldn't be much choice- I'd want that **** beast out of me asap and I'd want to start any available treatment the day before yesterday! For me the feeling of being proactive was important. When my treatments were over I even felt sort of lost, like it was up to fate and I had no more control. And like you said, if you're going to have to have the chemo anyway why not just start it now. That's my vote.

carl

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just4Brooks
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Joined: Jun 2009

Hi Donna, The cancer is not waiting why should you? Jump on it now before it gets worse because cancer never sleeps, it never takes the day off, and does not go on vacation.

Life is funny sometimes
Brooks

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Sundanceh
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Joined: Jun 2009

Hi Poki :)

Always a dilemma isn't it?

I'd probably get started as soon as I was ready to do so, would not wait too long...maybe go enjoy something or do a couple of things you want to do but won't be able to when chemo starts.

With the new year upon us, it's a new decade and a new time so better to go and fight this now so that the 2nd half of the year could be better for you.

We don't want to give the Cancer too much free time, but take a moment for yourself - breath deep - get your mind right to fight - make your peace with it - and then get after it!

I hate that you have to go through this - breaks my heart, but my heart would be even more broken if things got away and something happened to you - that would be hard personally for me to deal with - especially after getting to know you and what a wonderful person you are and what a big and generous heart that you have - "You Are Special" :)

I/We will all be here to pick you up if you stumble...I'm right here beside you.

-Craig

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tootsie1
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Joined: Feb 2008

I think I'd go ahead and get started. But we'll be here for you, no matter what you decide.

*hugs*
Gail

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idlehunters
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Joined: Apr 2009

NOW..... I SAY DO IT NOW...... THE LONGER YOU PUT IT OFF THE STRONGER "IT" GETS.....FIGHT NOW BEFORE "IT" HAS THE UPPER HAND..... WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU. THATS MY 2 CENTS WORTH.

JENNIE :)

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pokismom
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Joined: Jul 2009

Thank you all my friends, and Craig you brought tears to my eyes. I am yes, faced with another decision to make and I guess sometimes Im thinking that maybe I could beat this on my own and there you guys are all giving me your honest advice, thank you. I was trying so hard to go the alternative route but seeing how my cancer is progressing and not stabilizing or shrinking, I guess it's not completely working. Thank you for all your love and support it really means so much to me at this crossroad. I am tryuly dreading the awful chemo and I think I need this kick in the butt to get me going. My doctors are thinking more quality of life vs quantity and I guess I'm always trying to be optimistic that it will just go away. The other night I broke down in tears with my husband and apologized for being sick, and he's like it's not your fault but I so hate to be so hopeless and sickly. Thank you for being there, god bless you all!
Much love
Donna

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