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The ANSWER Has Finally Arrived - A Sundance Update (CRAIG)

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  • dmdwins
    dmdwins Member Posts: 450

    Craig, sorry to hear that
    Craig, sorry to hear that you have to fight the beast again. I hope this will be your last time to deal with this. You have been through so much and are such an inspiration to so many of us, You are a wonderful person and you will beat this. Sending positive thought you way. I know you must be so tired, I have only been at this since feb and I am tired, you must be exhausted, may you gain some strength and get some rest to help you durin gthis next obstacle. Bless you. You can do it. Petrina

    We are here
    So sorry that you received the disappointing news. I'm glad that we are here this time so that you don't have to "go it alone".Rely on us as many have relied on you. You are in my prayers!!!

    Dawn
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    Strength for the battle
    Craig:

    Your post was very kind and was sensitively written--the kind of writing that reflects a strong character and a compassionate heart.

    I join so many here in saying that I wish your news had been different.

    Despite this setback and your weariness of the fight, your words convey the picture of a man who is committed to winning the battle. I wish you all the best.

    Hatshepsut

    Hatshepsut
    I am humbled by your post and I am honored that you feel such a way.

    You are a fine writer in your own right - I recognize that in you.

    It was a pleasure to have you contribute to the post - your words have touched me today and it means alot to me that you posted.

    Thank you
    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    Craig
    I am sorry that it has come back. I wish you the best and I read your post and was moved crying again. Have a wonderful day

    michelle

    Michelle :)
    Your post has touched my heart this evening...I was certainly glad to give you that RJA information and the website so your granddaughter would not have to take chemo - I sure hope you get the information you need - it made me feel so good to be able to offer you something.

    You might not know it, but I'm going to tell you. I have followed your story very closely. I came to the board after Angel's passing, but I know of him and how you guys were through your posts.

    You have had so much to have to deal with and I feel your pain, my heart just hearts for you and I wish so much I could ease your pain. I want you to know that I think you are a brave lady and you are handling everything so well, I'm certainly proud to know you.

    Thank you so much for reading my post and responding. It means a great deal to me to hear from you.

    Vaya con Dios
    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    lesvanb said:

    Oh Craig
    There are not enough words to convey my appreciation for you. You've described so much of what goes on for me as I live with cancer, and you demonstrate such boundless humbleness and love for all who share this path with you (and I bet for those around you who don't live with cancer as well). I'm so glad that you also take the time to share. You add much to this discussion board.

    Leslie

    Leslie
    Your post melted my heart! I had no idea that you were even reading me - that I've touched you in these posts makes me feel so good, so useful and of value.

    Your words are deep and from the soul - and that's the blessing to me. I'm certainly glad that you can relate to what I am talking to you about.

    I will always take the time to share with you and everyone.

    You are special!
    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    Sorry
    I'm sorry the news isn't better for you. I was humbled by your post and your compassion not to steal "the thunder". We all have a story and sharing on this board is part of our journey. This journey you take again will be with friends and people that all have had cancer so you are not alone in this third trial period of your life. I continue to pray for you and know that you are not alone and God has a special plan for you. I am glad you found this board - finally - and you are such an inspiration.

    Kim

    Kim
    You from the beginning have always made me feel welcome here! I'm so glad too that I have come here - finally yes, 5 years walking in the desert, searching and searching :)

    I certainly value your input and you've been very sweet to me. I follow you closely too and want it so bad to work out for you. You're a sweetheart :)

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    kimby said:

    Craig
    I'm so sorry for your news. I hear the weariness in your words. I understand it all too well. But, you are strong and determined. You can do this, and this time you have all of us, too. Keep going. When you're going through hell, hit the gas! Don't stop now!

    Kimby

    Kimby
    It's very nice to be able to finally meet you!

    And you're right, this time I have you guys as my "co-pilots." It does feel so wonderful having you along with me...it was a very lonely road at times in the old days.

    I'm feeling really welcome now having you, Buzzard, and John join in on my post - thank you so much for that. It really means alot to me.

    Thank you
    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    Not good news
    I'm sorry the news wasn't what you hoped for, Craig. I truly hope you don't get "too" tired to do what needs to be done next. And i'm really glad you didn't listen to that idiot doctors death sentence. You seem like a very strong willed, strong minded individual, and i have no doubt that it's in you to hold out for a cure. My great uncle Wallace lived for 25 years after it had spread to his lungs. He held out for a cure that didn't come, but one will. Have you read the reports on stem cells? This is looking like it may be very, very promising.

    You are an inspiration, and a pillar of strength, whether you realize it or not!

    Many hugs,
    Krista

    Krista
    Thank you for your input! I'm tired, but there is no QUIT in me. I'll just rest for a minute and then saddle up and giddy up!

    Thank you for your kind words - they mean alot to me.

    I'm following your story too and I'm so hoping that you can find some relief - I feel your pain and just wish you could have a "slice of the pie" and not have to suffer so much.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    Hi dear Craig,sorry that I
    Hi dear Craig,sorry that I am a little late,I didn't have internet access for a couple of days because I am travelling.Your post brought tears to my eyes again.Although you guys have cancer,you don't know how important you are to us caregivers,you are the reasons we live for,you are the reasons we appreciate life more.I always tell my husband that as long as he is here,I have a place to call home,otherwise,things will be totally different.I am sure you understand the feeling of seeing someone you love very much suffers from this beast.But no matter how painful it is,we caregivers are willing to make this fight with you together and hopefully one day we will win.I am really sorry to hear it's the third one,but I know you will be doing fine and I believe you will make it.Please take good care of yourself and let us know the surgery date.We will be here for you.

    Fight
    I can always count on you to come runnin' over the hill at full speed - not just with me but everybody!

    You know we've talked and I understand you and am glad to a friend to you. You are a very kind and thoughtful lady - and you deserve only the best from here on it - you and hubby :)

    You make my day each time you post to me :)

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    dmdwins said:

    We are here
    So sorry that you received the disappointing news. I'm glad that we are here this time so that you don't have to "go it alone".Rely on us as many have relied on you. You are in my prayers!!!

    Dawn

    Dawn
    I can tell that you keeping up with me :)

    Otherwise, you wouldn't know about my go it alone program from the past.

    Thank you for your kind words - you are very sweet!

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    Craig, sorry to hear that
    Craig, sorry to hear that you have to fight the beast again. I hope this will be your last time to deal with this. You have been through so much and are such an inspiration to so many of us, You are a wonderful person and you will beat this. Sending positive thought you way. I know you must be so tired, I have only been at this since feb and I am tired, you must be exhausted, may you gain some strength and get some rest to help you durin gthis next obstacle. Bless you. You can do it. Petrina

    Petrina
    Thank you for your support! I'm tired but will be ok, I'm ready to go. You hange in there too, I'm reading you too and you've had alot going.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    :o (
    I'm sorry the news wasn't better, Craig, but we'll keep praying and looking forward to YOUR day.

    Diane

    Diane
    I look so forward to SHARING that day with you too!

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    Sonia32 said:

    Big Hugs
    Craig,

    You and everyone else on this board are like my second family, you are one tough guy who has been through so much. Honestly feels like a online brother going through more strife. When I read about others in good positions again it feels like family going through good times.

    I believe you will get through this, and beat this monster again. As always your in my thoughts and prayers

    Hugs
    Sonia

    Sonia
    From Across the Big Pond, I can feel your presence right here in Texas.

    I hope all is well in England. I appreciate your support and you've had nothing but nice things to say about me - I thank you!

    You hang in there too - we'll all get there.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    betina61 said:

    Sorry
    Sorry to hear the news, but I have no doubt that you will have the strengh to continue fighting this battle,you are such and unselfish person,its beautiful what you did to hold the results of your onc. visit not to ruin the good news of others on the board, at least for the week-end, you are an incredible person.You will be in my prayers.

    Betina
    Thank you so much for your support!

    I just could not ruin everything the other day - people work so hard to get good news, that it was easier for me to just wait and I'm glad that I did. That was a wonderful and magical day on the Board that day - one of the best ones I've ever been a part of during my short time here.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    zigswife said:

    I'm so sorry to hear about
    I'm so sorry to hear about the results but so glad to see a post from you. I was thinking about you all weekend when there was no update on Friday and was worried about how you were doing. I felt like I was too new here to post a message checking on you but was definately considering it! I'm new to the whole cancer experience but I know a fighter when I see one.

    Sending lots of good thoughts your way...

    ZIG
    I certainly had no idea that you were "thinking" about me, what a surprise!

    I'm certainly glad that I opened the post with the update - I would hate to leave anyone hanging that wanted to know.

    Welcome to the board BTW, and I'm glad that you are with us :)

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    snommintj said:

    You're not giving me much to work with
    You ol' timmers need to get your acts together. This pattern of surgery, treatment, and recurrence is getting a little boring. I think you need to change it up some. This time around try something different. I don't know, maybe, surgery, treatment then no recurrence would make for a better story. I'm rooting for you all the way.

    JOHN
    Thanks, man!

    I appreciate your post - I'm in your corner too and pulling for you too.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    PhillieG said:

    Hi Craig
    Sorry to hear that your news isn't what you hoped for. Do they have a plan of action worked out? Did you go through a period of being cancer free or at least stopping treatment? I suppose that is one of the benefits of going non-stop, you don't get the break and have to restart it. You've come a long way with more to go but I have no doubt you will make it though this.
    -phil

    Phil
    Your friendship has meant more to me than you probably realize - thank you for that.

    Your Ol'Timer Buddy
    -Craig
  • Janet3
    Janet3 Member Posts: 59
    Thank you for sharing!
    You are truly an inspiration! I wish you the best of luck. You will remain in my thoughts and prayers. I hope for the very best for you. I have only been on this board for a few days, have read several of your posts and find them all inspirational. I am not fighting the battle but my mom is. She had her second round of Folfox today. We've only just begun but you give us hope that with determination and a positive attitude we can get through this. Like my mom says God has a perfect plan , unfortunately we can't understand it. Big hug to you!
    Janet
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    luv3jay said:

    Hey Craig!
    *sniff* *sniff*

    Hey Craig!

    *sniff* *sniff* your posts, even when not delivering such good news about you, are always uplifting and positive. How can we not all be inspired by your strength and courage? God has a plan for you, my friend...even when it doesn't seem like it. Jeremiah 29 tells us that he knows the thoughts He thinks for you..ones that lead to an expected end. Read it for yourself when you get a moment. Anyway, even in the midst of your struggles you take time to ask about others. You are a true blessing. Thank you! I will continue to pray for you that you will get the strength you need to keep fighting. But remember, that if God be for you, no one or nothing can stand against you!

    -Sheri

    Sheri
    You say the sweetest things to me! I am so touched and moved. I can always count on you.

    Glad your surgery went well and I'm pulling for you as you know.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    eric38 said:

    You are the man !
    Thank you so much for being such a kind and unselfish person. I would have been concerned and disappointed for you but it certainly would not have rained on my parade. It`s great to share good news but the posts that require some shoulders to lean on are the most important. Sharing good news makes you feel good but it certainly doesn`t require a shoulder to lean on. I am sorry that you have to do this again but you are one of the timex boys. You will never stop ticking.

    Eric

    ERIC
    Your friendship also means so much to me. You have the Texas spirit, good people who care about other people.

    Some of the things you've told me, I will never ever forget, believe that.

    Thanks for caring about me.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    Mike49 said:

    Wow
    You said alot and I am proud to know you. Tired, I bet your tired, and sometimes you need to tell someone.

    Sorry to hear your news, it sucks,

    Mike

    MIKE
    Thanks, Mike

    You've always got something good to say to me. I'm proud to know you as well. I'm with you in your battle too.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    colon2 said:

    I'm so sorry
    That the news wasn't what we wanted to hear, but we will all be with you on this journey and we will pray for you. I truly believe that prayers go up and blessings come down. So get ready, for some good news soon, because there are a lot of prayers going up right now with your name in them. You are truly an inspiration to the rest of us. Keep your chin up and lets keep fighting. We will never give up.
    God Bless you,
    Carletta

    Carletta
    You are my personal "prayer warrior."

    Thank you so much for your generosity and beautiful spirit!

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392

    Craig
    I cannot believe you kept this to yourself so you did not rain on Eric and mine's parade. That has to be the most kind, unselfish thing a human could do. I cried and cried and cried after reading your post. Oh man Craig.... I just wanna hug you.

    "Our knowledge is our power" ... I have heard that from more than one person here. Positive thoughts are important too... YOU taught me that Craig. I was never much of a religious person before all this. I now pray to God every day for all of you here. We need all the help we can get so I went right to the top.

    I know you will do what you have to do to "get er done" so keep the faith my friend.

    Jennie

    Jennie
    Just could not do it to you, Jennie

    You worked too hard for it. It's been a real pleasure "watching you grow."

    I will always remember our 4th of July post - and the one about the yelling at our CareGivers.

    You are so sweet to me and were one of the first people that I talked to.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    Shayenne said:

    Awww Craig....
    ...So sorry to hear it's back, but you know, you fought this beast many times over the years, and you will continue to kick it's butt!! We're all here for you for support, and in this together, I know you will be fine, well, I know it's still scary, but don't let it get you down ol timer, you still have plenty of years to live ahead of you, things will get better, I will be praying for you, and you just keep on smilin' :)

    Hugsss!
    ~Donna

    Cool Chicky :)
    How could I forget you, Donna

    You were the 1st to say hello to me and invite me into your world.

    My post prayer to you and Pattee were the highlight of my life and the purest thing I ever did. I was so worried about - had the ESP going, but the 4th obscured my view and you were hurtin' and nobody knew it.

    So glad to see you back here - you make me smile and your beautiful spirit emanates across the board and breathes life into everybody :)

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    KFen725 said:

    So impressive
    I agree with Patti- you are such an encouragement to so many of us and I am so sorry to hear that you're having to deal with this devilish disease yet again. Praying that you will have strength to fight and peace and continued support from all around you!

    KFen
    Thank you for talking with me last night!

    I'm so glad to hear from you and thank you for your supportive words.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    ittapp said:

    When I came on this board I
    When I came on this board I was scared and feeling alone, you were one of the first to respond to me and knew I was in pain. Your poetic words are like music to me, I found comfort in your encouragement.You are so adored here and frankly we need you. I think I speak for everyone when I say you are like family. Please keep fighting on, your inner strength is amazing and we all learn from you. I have been thinking of you and your visit to the Dr. I have been praying and will continue to pray. Please go deep inside yourself and pull out that part of you that will press on for years to come. God Bless you, Patti

    Patti
    Kindred Spirit :)

    It's been my pleasure to know you and watch you change before my very eyes. You are going to do this with me - I won't take NO for an answer!

    Your words are so genuine and sincere and they melted my ol' heart!

    Thank you for your friendshiip
    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    Buzzard said:

    Craig..........
    Hang in there Sundance.........beans will be ready when you are bud...

    Buzzard
    Thanks for your post - it's great to finally get to meet you.

    Maybe you can leave me a biscuit or a piece of cornbread too? :)

    Thanks, Bud

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    donnare said:

    Craig...........
    ((((((((((((((HHHHHHHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGG)))))))))))))))

    Ditto everything Anna said.
    I can imagine how tired you must be, and we're all disappointed for you.
    Stay strong Craig .... we're all behind you .... you can do this. You're a warrior.

    "...get by with a little help from your friends...".

    Be well Craig,
    Donna

    Donna
    We've talked to each other the last day or so, but...

    You have strung together some very beautiful words and feelings and they have touched my heart so much! You mean a great deal to me.

    -Craig
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392
    amcp said:

    You are an Inspiration
    Craig..you are such an amazing man thinking of others before yourself. You are here for others and we are here for you. When you are tired lean on us...when you are down let us lift you up...when you are weak let us give you strenth... We are a family here ...all fighting the same battle ...some have been in the fight alot longer than others..but those that have been give those of us fairly new to the fight courage and strength to continue fighting. I am a caregiver and we battle along side our mates or family member in their fight. We are adding you to our prayer list or some say positive thought list. We believe in the power of prayer and we believe that you can fight this battle another time and win. Keep up the great attitude and let your "family" help you in anyway we can. You are a blessing to to me.
    Hugs,
    Anna

    Anna
    An unexpected pleasure to meet you.

    Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement.

    I guess more people are reading than I realize, how wonderful is that?

    -Craig
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,036
    Craig,
    I'm just now getting

    Craig,

    I'm just now getting a chance to read your post, and I'm so sorry not to be able to have a better report from you. Both your post and your spirit, though, are beautiful. I'm sure you are an amazing person to know.

    Your wistful tone when talking about being tired reminded me so much of a young man I came to know about 10 years ago, long before my own encounter with cancer. He had been fighting leukemia for many years and had several recurrences that just wore him down. He was living in Canada, born in France, and when things got bad he longed for his homeland. At one point he considered refusing more treatment, and we made a pact that if he made that decision, he would let me know he was ready to "go home to France." Fortunately for him, he got past that and never had to make that final trip home.

    I suspect that, despite a rough road ahead (once again), you will also not have to "go to France." How could God deny us the pleasure of knowing such an inspiring man?

    I'll be praying for you.

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • serrana
    serrana Member Posts: 163
    Sundanceh said:

    Petrina
    Thank you for your support! I'm tired but will be ok, I'm ready to go. You hange in there too, I'm reading you too and you've had alot going.

    -Craig

    craig and the third time
    I am with you on this one Craig as I was also just told it is baaaaack for the third time.This news after they almost didn't even recommend chemo three years ago when the neoadj chemo/rads obliterated my entire tumor. THey said I was "cured", wooops....no. I thought I was home free.

    I know what you mean about feeling tired but we are not quitters. We have much to do yet here on earth before we give our bodies up. We can do this....whats a little more ( or alot more) chemo/rads/surgery among friends. My surgery on my lung spots is 8/25. What are they planning for you? Let me ( us) know....we're all in this journey together. I refuse to see it as a battle, rather a scary at times swampland with times of rest on a lovely bank of plants and flowers, with the alligators far far away. Float and rest during the good days.
    Serrana