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scared to death

hoagiemom's picture
Posts: 87
Joined: Feb 2007

I just found out I have stage 3 colon cancer. I'm scared to death. I'm 42 and was told it was a small tumor on my sigmoid colon and shouldn't be more then a stage 2. Well surprise surprise I'm sitting here thinking how the hell did this happen to me. I'm waiting for a onocologist to call for my next appt. The waiting is toughest. I just had my colon resection and 2 of my lymph nodes have cancer. I know it sounds hopeful but it was such a shock when he told me that my 2 lymph nodes have cancer. It has been great reading the message board and see the hope and the knowledge that everyone brings to it.

Monicaemilia's picture
Posts: 455
Joined: Nov 2006

I am sorry you are going through this, but the good news is that they were able to get all the cancer out and, with some chemo, you should be back to your normal, healthy self in no time. The word cancer is the scariest word I ever heard in my life, but it has been beaten, and you can beat it too. This board is a fountain of information and support, so don't ever hesitate to e-mail any one of us or post at your heart's content. Monica

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Joined: Jan 2007

I'm sorry. I know it's a big shock. My hubby went for "routine" colonoscopy week before xmas and he has stage 4 with mets to liver. There was no "preparing for the shock" and it's just something you get thru and get on with. You will find much support here, you'll learn a lot , and you'll meet many new friends . Keep positive, pray and research all you can. Good thoughts and prayers coming your way.

Posts: 56
Joined: Jun 2006

Hi Hoagiemom.....I'm sorry that you are going through all of this. I want to tell you that a year ago, I was right where you are....diagnosed with Stage III CC, with 3 positive lymph nodes. I went through 7 months of chemo, and I'm still alive and kicking. I know exactly what you're feeling, and I'm here to tell you that you'll make it through this! Take one day at a time, and try to keep a positive outlook. There is light at the end of the tunnel :-)


betina61's picture
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Joined: Aug 2006

Hi hoagiemom,reading your post is almost like reading my first post on this site, the same thing happened to me,I was told first that I had what it looked an early lesion, and of course I needed surgery, but he didn't think I will need any further treatment after surgery,to my surprise the patology determined that I had it too, in one limph node, I was devastated so now I was stage 3,so I know perfectly well how you are feeling, but let me tell you it will get better, the first month or so is the worst, I just finished almost 6 months of chemo,and feeling fine,now I need to do some scans to see if I am cancer free, hopefully it will be like that, I have a lot of faith in God and from the beginning, I ask him for peace and courage and he listened, well I hope that next time that you post a message you will be feeling much better, and optimistic, I was told by my surgeon than actitud was 80% of recovery.

jsabol's picture
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Joined: Dec 2003

Your post could have been mine, 3 years ago, in Dec 03. My baseline colonscopy had 2 small polyps; surprise, one was cancerous. On to a colectomy, surgeon says everything looked great; another surprise, 1 positive node. Well, 6 months of chemo and I can only hope that all those nasty cells are gone for good.
You will get through this, one day at a time. The chemo was tolerable; support from family and friends and this board were "priceless". (I also found this site while waiting for chemo.)
I have been No Evidence of Disease (NED) since July of 03, (according to my onc, who counts from completion of chemo.) Whatever date I use, I'm hear to tell you that this is a managable process. With the surgery behind you, you have already gotten through a big step. Take good care of yourself.
Best of luck, Keep us posted, Judy

ron50's picture
Posts: 1729
Joined: Nov 2001

Hi Hoagiemom,
Cancer is just a cruddy disease and we cure diseases all the time. Sure it is a toughie but so are the folks who inhabit this board. I was dx st3 with 6 bad nodes. I have been clear for over nine years. I'm scared of spiders and sharks but not cancer,sharks i stay away from and spiders ,well in australia we wear flat sandals called thongs and that takes care of the spiders. If at some time ca pops up again well I'll just have to beat it again,no worries. All the best ,Ron.

chynabear's picture
Posts: 483
Joined: Jul 2005

Hi Hoagiemom,

As you have already noticed, we all have similar stories.

I had colonoscopy, fairly big polyp that "looked healthy" and shouldn't be cancerous, was. Shouldn't have spread, and surprise, one lymph node had cancer. Six months of chemo to kill anything lurking. And here I am today. You'll be writing this same post a few years from now, I'm certain. I am 2 years and 4 months past surgery and when I determined I was cancer free or NED. It's not a fun journey, but it can be an enlightening one and one that is well worth completing.

All my best,


P.S. You have found the best site for knowledge and support.

spongebob's picture
Posts: 2598
Joined: Apr 2003

Ahoy, hoagiemom -

Welcome to the SemiColons! Know that you are among friends here and we're glad to have you in our (unfortunately) ever-growing little club.

Looking forward to hearing from you more as time goes on.

BTW, I was 37 when I was diagnosed. I will be hitting the 5 year mark next month!


- SpongeBob

2bhealed's picture
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Joined: Dec 2001

congrats on your upcoming 5 year mark SB!!

we're the "oldies" around here!

peace, emily

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I'm sure that you see there is a similarity in all these posts. It is normal to be scared. It is quite a shock when we are told. I was told a little over a year ago that I might have diverticulitis or colits. Suprise came when I had a colonoscopy that I had stage 3 cc (1 node cancerous). My GI doc was suprised too. I was only 42 at the time. You will find that there are many "young" people here on this site that don't reach the "age" requirement per insurance. As the others said, take one day at a time. Please come back and ask any questions you have. We have all been there. You are now an official "semi-colon" and this disease CAN be beat! HUGS!!!

Lisa F.

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Joined: Feb 2007

I am really sorry to hear about your terrible news. My mom was diagnosed with stage 4 CC met to liver. She tried chemo and long story short we are now trying natural therapy as our lost resort (which should have been our first but we had no choice). I firmly believe that natural therapy can and does work but I am not sure that it will work for my mother due to her current state. Waiting is the toughest thing and the worst thing you could possibly do. The longer the doctors made me mom wait the more her cancer grew...time doesn't stop for cancer. Your condition is not in the same state as my mothers and I just wanted to pass some information along to you...

A women by the name of Anne Frahm wrote a book about her battle with cancer. She too was stage 4 and the cancer had spread all over her body. She had been through every treatment you could think of before turning to natural therapy when they sent her home to die. In 5 weeks of her program she had no cancer...that's right NONE! Anyway she is an insipration to me (along with others) and I definetly think her book is a valuable investment to anyone with cancer. The book is called "A Cancer Battle Plan". I hope that you get a chance to read it and I hope that everything works out for you. I will keep you in my prayers!

2bhealed's picture
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Joined: Dec 2001

hi hoagiemom,

I also had Stage III colon cancer in my sigmoid colon. I too had 2 positive lymph nodes (out of the 19) that were close to the site. No mets (thank god).

I had my diagnostics and surgery done at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN which is world renowned. The adjuvant chemo that was recommended was 5FU and Leucovorin. My oncologist is wonderful.

I declined the chemo and instead went on an alternate route of Eastern Medicine with dietary modifications and juicing of fresh organic veggies being the foundation of my protocol. Cancer likes an acidic blood pH so my goal has been to stay alkaline. Juicing organic green veggies helps me do this. Cancer cannot live in an alkaline environment. Cancer likes sugar and processed foods. Cancer cells have more sugar receptors than healthy cells so it gobbles up the sugar and goes on a feeding frenzy. that's one reason why diet is so vital in healing cancer. Juicing also provides live enzymes which are integral to a healthy body.

I also took many supplements, herbal and otherwise. I consulted a Naturopathic Doctor who helped me tweak my supplements targeting cancer. My Traditional Chinese Medicine practitioner did all the "hands-on" treatments of acupuncture and massage to name a few.

Thankfully I have remained CANCER FREE for the past 5 1/2 years and I continue to juice and maintain a cancer prevention regime.

I tell you all this to give you hope and an awareness that there are options for you out there.

I was 39 at my dx and was still nursing my 20 month old. I have 5 kids and a cancer dx can be a nightmare experience if we allow it. It is possible to come to the place that cancer can be a powerful positive force in one's life too. You are in the fear mode (we all go there) and now that i am on the other side I am telling you that you will be here one day too!

You have come to a wonderful place for support. We're a crazy bunch of semi-colons!

So claim your cure and focus on its success!

peace, emily who is happy to be alive each and every day!

Posts: 553
Joined: Mar 2006

I understand the fear you have about your diagnosis and everything that goes along with it. You have definitely come to the right place for advice and support. As you probably have read or will read, there are many stage III and IV cancer survivors on this site. Once all of this sinks in, you will be ready to fight this and will have a great deal of knowledge about this disease and the treatments. Your case sounds very hopeful to me. You will get through this. You are in my prayers.


Posts: 484
Joined: Jan 2005

Hi and welcome,

I'm here for stage 2 colon cancer, but my dad was diagnosed with advanced stage 3 colon cancer more than five years ago. He underwent surgery and chemo at the age of 76 and is doing fine.

Cancer is a very scary thing for all of us. Try to hang in there and take it one step at a time. There's a lot you're going through--both pysically and emotionally--all "normal". Folks here have a variety of experiences to share if you have quesions along the way.


Posts: 87
Joined: Nov 2006

Hi Hoagiemom,
Welcome to this wonderful site. Yes it's a crummy way of getting here but you will be so thankful you found us! My husband just finished his 4th round of chemo this week and has 8 more to go but it hasn't been all bad. You will find many here who have a wealth of knowledge and experience and they all offer support each and everyday. The best advice I can give you is ask ,ask ,ask questions be proactive in your care it gives you a sense of power over this crummy diease. Another suggestion is have a positive attitude thats 90% of the battle. Keep us informed how you are doing, and any questions are good questions never feel a question is dumb because it isn't! Take care and I will add you to my prayer list.


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