i am hangin but barely

nettie4
nettie4 Member Posts: 145
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
hello all. i went to mayo and my surgeon sd that surgery may not be an option for me. he is going to take a good look at my last scan in sept and tell me what he thinks. for now i have been sick with migrains and just am getting over the flu right now. i have been off chemo for almost 4 weeks but need to get back on. the folfox 6 stopped working so i have to go what they call a second class drug erbutux and pray that it works. i am now 35 and have a wonderful husband and 2 kids ages 5 and 7 and i would surly like to be here to raise them. i need some encouragement for my spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. you all are great people and again i thank you in advance for all your kind words and prayers. you all take care.

truly yours
nettie

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  • juliababy
    juliababy Member Posts: 130
    Nettie, please hang in there. I work in the Pathology department and I see huge success stories come out of here every single day. Please stay strong, you will BEAT THIS THING! I will keep you in my prayers.

    Susana
  • fedester
    fedester Member Posts: 753 Member
    hey nettie,
    1, you are not feeling well (sorry to hear that)
    2, he didn't say no surgery
    3, you will be here along time for your husband and kids and grand kids.
    4, it's hard to keep positive sometimes but we have too!!! for our families
    5, stay the course and keep the faith
    6, there are many survivor stories on this board where people have taken a second class drug and have had great results.
    7, we are all here for you and always will be, we are family
    stay positive and all will be okay

    all the best
    fedester
  • Edina77
    Edina77 Member Posts: 13
    Nettie,
    don't ever give up. you are young and you can beat this. You have many reasons to fight harder then ever and you have to believe in yourself. You can do this. Keep reminding yourself that you can beat this. I will pray for you every day. He will hear and help you through this.
    Don't EVER give up.

    Love,

    Edina.
  • Nettie, I've said this many times already on this board but I don't think it can be said enough so here goes.....when you see no light at the end of the tunnel, get up and march down there yourself and light it!!!! In short, it summarizes what everyone else has already said. DON'T GIVE UP!!!! You have three (and probably more) GREAT BIG REASONS TO KEEP ON GOING and just because things don't look so good today doesn't mean that they can't turn tomorrow.

    You're in my prayers and I'm sure He's listening.

    ((((((HUGS))))))
    Monika
  • kangatoo
    kangatoo Member Posts: 2,105 Member
    unknown said:

    Nettie, I've said this many times already on this board but I don't think it can be said enough so here goes.....when you see no light at the end of the tunnel, get up and march down there yourself and light it!!!! In short, it summarizes what everyone else has already said. DON'T GIVE UP!!!! You have three (and probably more) GREAT BIG REASONS TO KEEP ON GOING and just because things don't look so good today doesn't mean that they can't turn tomorrow.

    You're in my prayers and I'm sure He's listening.

    ((((((HUGS))))))
    Monika

    Nettie, Nettie, Nettie--ah told yu the last time we spoke I was gunna come over n thump yah one sweetie--now don't tempt me!!!!!!!!!
    Fed has the best advice--yu make sure yu read them--numbered 1-7!
    The best things in your life right now are your hubby and 2 kids---yu want I should say more?
    Kanga's gunna send yu another rainbow Nettie--and only the battlers get 2 on this board--yu are qualifyied--but hell Nettie--yu gotta take all that love at the end of it and put it to good use!
    cheer up sweetie-never ever give up---luv n ((((((Nettie))))) kanga n Jen
  • Moesimo
    Moesimo Member Posts: 1,072 Member
    I am keeping you in my prayers. this is a terrible illness. I hope that they find the right mix of meds to help you.
    Maureen
  • 2bhealed
    2bhealed Member Posts: 2,064 Member
    Hi nettie,

    I have two things to say:

    1. A Cancer Battle Plan by Anne Frahm

    2. When Hope Never Dies by Marlene McKenna

    peace, emily who hasn't taken her nose out of the books yet and it's been threeyears!!! I am always looking for hope too.
  • steved
    steved Member Posts: 834 Member
    It would be so abnormal if you didn't have doubts and feelings of hopelessness at times through all this- I know I certainly have. They do pass with time and good moments begin to filter through the bad again. My four month old son and mife keep me sane through these moments as it sounds like yours do. LEan on them a bit if you need to and make sure your hubby knows how you are feeling- he is probably having the same fears you are. Talk it through and accept these are normal feelings that do pass.
    Let us know how things pan out and keep using this site as much as you need to.
    Steve
  • Kanort
    Kanort Member Posts: 1,272 Member
    Hi Nettie,

    It sounds like maybe fighting the flu and your headaches are zapping your energy. However, you said it all when you mentioned that your spirit is willing. I pray that your strength will come back and that your new drug will work. You and your family will be in my prayers. Keep fighting!

    Kay
  • scouty
    scouty Member Posts: 1,965 Member
    Nettie Honey,

    Your message told me one major thing...you are not ready to go anywhere, anytime soon. This is a very hard, hard struggle with some days being easier then others. Those bad days seems to "consume" more of us then they should. They can sneak on up us and make mountains out of molehills in the grand scheme of things. Your grand scheme....your family and you..... keep that focus honey!!!!
    I grew up as a second class citizen (seriously) and look what that did for me (don't really answer that). Cancer cells are weird, they react to some drugs and ignore others. Emily says it all in her message...the basics in nutrition seem to really frustrate the **** cells. Work on number one here for a week or two. Eat right and take special care of yourself. PLEASE!!!!
    We need you, since we are your extended family...we need each other.

    Lisa P.
  • bsrules
    bsrules Member Posts: 296
    Hello! Hang in there with everything you have!!!! You will beat this thing!!!! Your family is there for you and you will be there for them!!! Prayers are coming your way for stength!!! Remember you will beat this thing!!!

    Best Wishes and Prayers!!!

    Sue and Bob