My husband Bill was quite the gardner...that was his thing....I loved seeing and bragging about the results of course..but never actually got involved in the planting.
When Bill got sick....he was concerned that he would not be up to doing the garden this year..it made him sad to think of not having flowers this summer....I promised him that with his supervision and direction....I would be his arms and legs and it would be done.
I was even looking forward to doing in and having some laughs with him about my profound lack of gardening ability...but he left way too soon.
People always commented on the garden and he so enjoyed that....he was a real quiet guy but so enjoyed the compliments.
So today I planted the garden....went and brought the plants and got out there and got it done.....he would be so proud....all of it is an ongoing tribute to him and his spirit.
There was many times over the past few days when I doubted that I had the emotional strenght to do it....but something drove me....and I knew I had to do it.
I still miss him with my whole heart and soul....and many times I wonder how I am going to fill the void his passing left in my heart...but I keep moving forward...now I think that at least for today...seeing the flowers now planted will give me some peace.
I start with the Berevement group on Monday..hoping to find some answers there....but at least for today...I made good on a promise....and I know he is happy !!