Apr 15, 2014 - 11:51 pm
Jim was doing so well at the Hospice fascility. Since he has been home he has been very restless, angry and agitated. He keeps wanting to die. Last night I called Hospice because I didn't know what to do with him. I finally got him to sleep at 2 am with the recommended med combo of the on call nurse, The Hospice Councelor came by today. She told me that this happens to some patientsespecially men and I probably had a few more weeks to endure this. She stated that he was in emotional as well as physical pain. He is down to about 3 cans or less Jevity per day and very weak. I am having a very hard time getting him turned and to the bedside commode. I have finally gotten him sleeping now, I pray he sleeps through the night. Yhis is not the Jim I know. He has never yelled at me or cussed at me. I know he doesn't know what he is saying and I try not to let it bother me. Oh how I wish he could find some peace. It is so hard to see him suffer.
Thanks for listening and for the prayers. I do not want to scare anyone or depress anyone. Just needed to talk.