Aug 08, 2013 - 10:46 pm
2 years ago today I had my first all day chemo treatment , cisplatin, taxotore, and my favorite the 5FU pump, I would have 2 more of these all day treatments each 21 days from August to Oct before starting 7 1/2 weeks of rads with 1 infusion of carboplatin for ever week of rads. As I sit and remember the last 2 years , I remember my ENT telling me I had cancer ,my onco doc using phrase and terms I had never heard before, I'm the first person in my family to have cancer; apparently cancer didn't care that I had plans of an early retirement, to go back east spend time with family , enjoy watching a then 6 yr old granddaughter grow up, everyday life enjoying all it had to offer. While fearful of the unknown, treament , how cancer would effect my life,my mortality, I do know that the first time I had an infusion my daughter and granddaughter were with me, they left to do some shopping as I was going to be there all day and they would pop in and out, watching them walk away,brought tears , but at that moment I could have looked at myself as a victim or as lucky and a survivor, I chose the later. Lucky in the fact the cancer was diagnosed , that I ultimately placed my life and care into the hands of very qualified doctors,nurses and technicians. Cancer also taught me about the total love my family and friends have for me,how they changed their lives to be at my side , it taught me to take time to enjoy every day, even the tough ones , to laugh more,to appreciate the little a things,to slow down and make time for all that is important , and not to stress about things I couldn't control or change. Did I loose my hair, yup, my taste, yup, lack of saliva, yup..but you know it all comes back. Today, 2 years later , I'm working full time, I work out ,my health is good, and as I sit here writing this I realize at the end of the day I don't care what cancer thought , I've come thru the other side.
love , blessings , and light to all of you