Jul 25, 2013 - 5:04 pm
I just finished my online application for Disability benefits. What an ordeal--I see why people hire attorneys for this. Monday, I filed the Application for Benefits and printed out some instuctions about what information I would need to file the Disability Report. Tuesday, I assembled, compiled, and recapped medical information. Doctors names and addresses, medical record numbers, lists of medications, medical tests, surgeries and procedures. Dates for everything!
Tuesday night, I couldn't sleep. Looking at all those medical records and reading about what I have been through, brought it all back and made me cry and gave me nightmares.
Today, I submitted the Disability Report. One of the first questions was something along the lines of, "Do you have a condition that will likely cause you to die"? I really struggled to answer that question. Of course my doctor has never said, "you are going to die". And I am in remission, so no, I don't think I am close to dying from lymphoma. But the fact of the matter is: I have cancer. So, I relectantly answered "yes". Now I'll probably have nightmares again tonight.
A message popped up instucting me to call my local SS office after I had submitted the report, telling them I got the message, and they may be able to expedite my application. I guess I will call them tomorrow.
As hard as this is, I know I can't work now. I am an accountant and I'm sure I don't need to tell you I'm not as mentally sharp as I was before 8 rounds of R-CHOP. There is no way I could do my former job right now. It took me days to apply for disability! And even though, we have excellent insurance through my husband's work, I also know I don't need to tell you this is a very expensive disease we have. With all the co-pays and deductibles, I have quite a tab! And with our income reduced by half for almost a year, we are really starting to struggle. We have wiped out our savings and have also borrowed against the equity in our home. Not good.
Wish me sweet dreams tonight and patience for the wait I'm now facing?
I hope everyone is well today,