May 22, 2013 - 4:45 pm
Hi All. I appreciate everyone who responded to my first post a while back. My brother will not start his treatment until next Monday (May 27). He went to have his tube in but there was a bit of miscommunication on his need for a driver, so now that is scheduled for this Friday.
I have been faithfully reading posts, and I must say that my emotions keep going back and forth from happiness that this cancer most likely will not take my brother, to total dispair knowing what he will surely have to endure. My heart simply breaks for him and for each and every one of you. I just want to cry. In fact, I have cried often reading your posts. I try so hard not to get down, as after all, this is not happening to me. I am glad that I have this site to ramble about on, because it stops me from crying to my brother. I know I have to be strong and upbeat for him. It is just so hard, and it hasn't even begun yet!!! I am so afraid and I know he and his wife are too.
I am amazed by all of you here. While I do get sad hearing about all of the pain and suffering you all have had to endure, your wisdom and strength has already lifted me up and I am sure it will continue to do so. I sit, at times with my mouth wide open, reading what you all have endured and continue to endure. I am not quite sure where the strength comes from, but I pray my brother will find that same strength and endurance that you all have found.
Thank you for being here.