May 10, 2013 - 12:10 am
I am really struggling. With my anniversary on Sunday I am feeling like I can't breathe. I miss David and his smile and his warm hand to hold mine. I tried to be brave and not whine, but I am so tired. I just keep wondering when it will get a little better. Why was it that my husband was chosen to go to heaven so early? Why couldn't I have some time with him. Even one night in a hotel during our marriage. I have two cards, dry flowers and one wall hanging that sums up all that I have from my time with David. Excuse me for saying, but this sucks. I know God had to be proud of how David responded to his illness and death, but I am not so sure what he thinks about me.