May 07, 2013 - 4:51 am
For those of you that are wondering what happened to me i have just been suffering in every possible way. My family has been doing their best to keep me going and my husband, dad, and father-in-law, are the ones at the top of the game. From the horrible side effects i got from the chemo and not being able to do my normal daily activities and missing my son have just done a major number on me. MAJOR... I can actually feel my broken heart. Lying here now watching my husband sleep and listening tohim breathe breaks my heart at the thought of it being gone at any moment. we were just married and so in love with eachother. would do anything for the other. i miss my son so bad. the pictures all over my house just crack my heart more and more everyday. this past weekend hecame and seen me for a day and i was so sick i couldnt do much but lay there. holding him knowing i may not be there to see him grow and hardly ever getting to see him. im hurting so bad emotionally i dont know what pain is worse. the physical that keeps me from sleeping if i dont take any meds, or the emotional where i can actually feel my broken heart. watching my new family everyday and knowing how much i love them. my son. please everyone just keep me in your prayers. i nedd them so bad right now to heal my broken heart. and to anyone on facebook that wants to befriend me im caitlin peña in ohio. please and thank you.