Dennis had another scan yesterday... we get the results tomorrow. For those that aren't familiar with our fight he was diganosed Feb 1st 2011 with stage lv (primary tumor in rectum and many large tumors all over his liver - bleeding internally). After chemo, rfa, colon resection,embolization and 65% of his liver (whole right lobe - Feb 2012)resected he was sitting at NED. He then had a scan in June that kept him at the NED status.
Here we are at another scan and as you can imagine I am shaking on the inside. I was just sitting outside on my front porch thinking that I am going to lose my mind. It's so quiet except for a wood pecker pecking away at a big oak tree. I wanted to yell at him to knock it off...I mean doesn't he know that I am on edge and need some peace and quiet?!
I have had some really hard times with all of this but being still and waiting on GOD was enough to keep me sane but now I am feeling like I need to get some counseling to help me cope and process everything. I still have tons of hope in my heart but my mind is not holding up as well.
Could I get you guys to send prayers for us? I feel so numb and afraid that it is hard to pray...I know GOD knows my heart and all of our needs but knowing that you are sending up some prayers would really help me get through.
I pray that we all have a blessed holiday and those of you that aren't from the US I pray you have a blessed Thursday along with us.
GOD's blessing to all.
The scan was all clear! Praise GOD!
The doctor that ordered the scan is the one that told us that we needed a miracle and that Dennis had 2 years (almost 2 years ago). He told us that the "news is good for now", he said that he still thinks it will come back. He also brought up a 3mm nodule in his lung that has been there from day one. The Madison group determined that it was a non issue when it didn't change with 6 months of 5fu and Avastin, they explained that lots of people have nodules that are non cancerous and Dennis was one of them. I have always called this Doctor,Dr. Doom becuase he has never given us any hope. When we asked him for a referral to the UW he told us that "he thinks it's a long shot". He told us today to go home and have a good Thanksgiving and Christmas as if he were suggesting that it won't be this good next year. I guess time will tell... but we are happy as can be after a visit with Dr. Doom. :)