Sep 04, 2012 - 6:22 pm
I want to tell all of you how much you have meant to me over these last 30 months. I am not on the site much anymore, because I need to not think about Cancer all that I can. As you all know it is on your mind all the time when you are up to your ankles in it.
I have many CSN friends that I see very little on here or not at all anymore, because they have moved on (I hope positively, but some I know we lost). I need to name a few people that are special to me, even though they don't know it. Adventure Bob, D Lewis, Hondo, Glenna, Kent Cass, patty anny,Osmotar, Jim &I, Kimba, puma kitty, dennis, jimbo, Greg, fisrpotpe, Ratface, Soccerfreaks, Hal61, Arndog and of course Sweetblood. I could go on with more names but you get my point. I needed these folks alot from jan 2010 when I came on board till sometime this year. At some point, I saw all my old friends leaving. There were new faces and names that came here and I felt like I needed to stay away and let you all, in the heat of the battle, help yourselves from start to finish, like those of us who are not here much anymore did.
I must acknowledge Skiffin John here. He has been here since I got here and is still upbeat and helping all you special folks that come here looking for answers and a happy tone. It is not easy to be that kind of helper. Stay on John, you are needed in ways you'll never know. I call you a friend even though we have never met, but I'd recognize your humor anytime and I'd love to try meet you someday. You are a good man (and probably a fair fisherman,lol.)
I will be on here from time to time going forward, but I wanted you all to know today that this crap does get better. That's why I posted my NED diagnosis, so that you can see that life gets better. I still have issues and am learning my "new normal". We are all at different levels of normal. But Skiffin John is somewhat Abi-normal as you all know.
All you newbies, just hang in there and help each other. Give advice, give love and prayers, and accept what others need to say. Because in a couple years, you'll see other "newbies" and you may offer advice, but not at the level that they may need. You too will move on and find your new normal and new happiness. Life, afterall, is very, very good and it is up to us to be happy. May you all find your happiness.