Aug 05, 2012 - 10:34 pm
I sure am missing you all. This has been so difficult, really knocked me down!
I am waiting for a call from the cancer center with the time of my scan. The docs seem concerned about all the pain. Me too! So they will scan me probaly tomorrow sometime. I'll let you know.
Your support has been amazing and so comforting during all this. I thought I was such a strong woman, I've had many surgeries, rads, all sorts of treatments, etc. But this time, has shown me that I am not super woman not even close! Sometimes I feel like I cannot do this for one minute more. But then I do, I have no choice. None of us do..
I can manage the stairs okay, but hubby won't let me do them alone. To many drugs on board. I even napped outside ( about an hour)on the patio today, first time outside since the surgery. except to see the onc last week. Felt really good to be in the sun.
Still am not able to eat much of anything. The pain becomes so awful after eating. I had some yogurt and a few bites of ice cream. Not really hungry, so that part is good. But losing way to much weight way to fast. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get some answers and advice. Seems like I have tried everything there is to try.
To all of you going through so much, thank you for thinking of me. I continue to send you all positive healing energy.
I know that I'll get through this, but boy oh boy is it ever a huge mountain to climb.
Hugs to all