Jul 13, 2012 - 12:46 am
Got home a couple of hours ago from my appointment with my onc. I made a few calls and then came to the board.
I will start Tamoxifen tomorrow once I have bloodwork done as onc wants a CA 125 to see what my starting point is.
My son was with me and after asking a lot of questions we agreed I should try this option. As I told the onc, "If this doesn't work, the heavy artillery is still there."
I feel at peace now. I told Dr. Ivanov that for the last couple of months I have been putting my life on hold. Now, I must tell you, I lead a quiet and fairly mundane life so there isn't really a lot to put on hold but I want to stop doing it at all. This disease is all about making us wonder and worry and I refuse to let the monster have the upper hand.
I told her how I attempt to take a day at a time as I believe everyone should. Sometimes today may not seem that good but we all know tomorrow could be a lot worse. I look back at some of the times I thought my life was the pits and feel like slapping myself for not realizing how good it actually was.
I had my haircut today and I told my hairdresser I wasn't sure if I was going to have to cancel the appointment because if I was having chemo...what was the point? But since I had pretty much decided I would try the pill I kept the appointment. Before I left she asked, if we were dying it next month? I said yeah, because I won't be losing my hair. She said, I didn't mean that I just meant it's time, right? I said yes, and I think I want to go red! You might see a new picture of me here.
Thanks again for all your support. You all mean so much to me. My sisters.