Feeling off today ~~

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Lighthouse_7
Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
in Breast Cancer #1
I know I always tell other kindreds that it's perfectly normal to have a bad day but I'm 2 years this month finished with chemo and rads.
I was just wondering if anyone else with this length of time still has these days. I'm sad, on the verge of tears and today it is upsetting me that I'm not stronger emotionally.

I think, truthfully, I'm looking for "the ol' misery loves company". I'm sorry to say it that way, but it's a rough day.
Thanks,
Wanda
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  • Clementine_P
    Clementine_P Member Posts: 518 Member
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    You are very strong!
    We all have days like that even when we aren't recovering from cancer. Vent away, maybe have some chocolate - this will blow over soon. Hang in there!

    Clementine
  • aisling8
    aisling8 Member Posts: 1,627 Member
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    Clementine_P said:

    You are very strong!
    We all have days like that even when we aren't recovering from cancer. Vent away, maybe have some chocolate - this will blow over soon. Hang in there!

    Clementine

    I agree
    You are strong. But not today. Or however long this feeling lasts.
    You want company? I've been having a hard time lately -- a pile of unrelated things which, gathered together, are causing me grief. My head knows this too shall pass, but try telling that to my screaming insides:)

    You are probably exactly where you're supposed to be. The reason why will be revealed down the line.

    Huge hug,
    Victoria
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
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    I'm glad you chose to come
    I'm glad you chose to come here and share your mood with us...I'm not 2 years out, but I don't think it matters. I hope that telling us about it, and the support you get here helps. Soon your rough day will be over and the memory will simply be a reminder that you're human.

    Hugs,

    Linda
  • Nana C.
    Nana C. Member Posts: 108
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    Me Too!
    I told my husband yesterday, was hard to admit, I can't seem to get it together! I have always been an upbeat person, but for the last few days, I can't seem to pull myself out of it. I hate feeling like this!
  • Lighthouse_7
    Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
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    Nana C. said:

    Me Too!
    I told my husband yesterday, was hard to admit, I can't seem to get it together! I have always been an upbeat person, but for the last few days, I can't seem to pull myself out of it. I hate feeling like this!

    Thanks .....
    It does help just to know you are all there. I went to see my granddaughter sing in a Christmas Pageant and had to come right home. I had wished that would lighten my mood.
    Clementine and Nana C, thanks for the kind words and Victoria and Linda for the MUCH NEEDED Hugs.
  • SIROD
    SIROD Member Posts: 2,194 Member
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    Perfectly Normal
    Dear Wanda,

    It is perfectly normal to remember a horrible experience on the anniversary. As time passes, you will think less and less of that time. Of course, every back ache, unknown pain does bring back a reminder that it could return. Remember that 70% of women and men never do and life forever cancer free.

    Feel sad today and hopefully tomorrow the sun will return to your life.

    Best,

    Doris
  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
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    Lighthouse_7 said:

    Thanks .....
    It does help just to know you are all there. I went to see my granddaughter sing in a Christmas Pageant and had to come right home. I had wished that would lighten my mood.
    Clementine and Nana C, thanks for the kind words and Victoria and Linda for the MUCH NEEDED Hugs.

    C'mere Wanda
    as I want to give you a big hug! I, as the other pinkies, are always, always here for you. I am glad that you came here to let us know how you were feeling. I hope that we can give you some comfort and to make you feel better.

    Everyone has bad days, days where we cry, feel sad and maybe just want to pull the covers over our head and stay in bed all day. It's normal! When you consider what we've gone thru to rid ourselves of the beast and then on top of that put the everyday struggles of everything else on top of that, it's a wonder we aren't all in the loony house.

    Be kind to yourself, allow yourself days like this, but know that there are brighter days ahead of you. I pray that this feeling will pass quickly from you Wanda as you are one of the sweetest pink sisters I've ever known on here!

    If you want more hugs from me, you got them!

    Sue :)
  • carkris
    carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
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    SIROD said:

    Perfectly Normal
    Dear Wanda,

    It is perfectly normal to remember a horrible experience on the anniversary. As time passes, you will think less and less of that time. Of course, every back ache, unknown pain does bring back a reminder that it could return. Remember that 70% of women and men never do and life forever cancer free.

    Feel sad today and hopefully tomorrow the sun will return to your life.

    Best,

    Doris

    Life still happens and it
    Life still happens and it can be unrelated to cancer, but we all still get down. I have been pretty touchy lately. Holidays are exhausting and there is so much expectation and stress.
  • waffle8
    waffle8 Member Posts: 234
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    carkris said:

    Life still happens and it
    Life still happens and it can be unrelated to cancer, but we all still get down. I have been pretty touchy lately. Holidays are exhausting and there is so much expectation and stress.

    stress
    Hey this site needs a like button! Are you on any tamoxifen or my case femara? I blame my moods on the meds!
  • gagee
    gagee Member Posts: 332
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    Sorry you are feeling down.
    Sorry you are feeling down. Sometimes the holidays can bring on some depression. So much to do and so little time. Or some such saying. Plus having lost both parents and being far from loved ones can bring you down (me anyway). Hope talking about it helps you out. Wishing you the best. Diana
  • Frankie Shannon
    Frankie Shannon Member Posts: 457
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    Sorry you are felling sad i
    Sorry you are felling sad i am a year and a half cancer free and have those days also when i just cry for know reason but they pass i think we are missing our hormones hang in there Hugs Frankie
  • SIROD
    SIROD Member Posts: 2,194 Member
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    carkris said:

    Life still happens and it
    Life still happens and it can be unrelated to cancer, but we all still get down. I have been pretty touchy lately. Holidays are exhausting and there is so much expectation and stress.

    1994, a not so great year!
    Hi,

    I just read your profile. I was diagnose in 1994 too. It's nice to find another women who has put in the same time with this disease.

    Now you should have learned over these many years, that one doesn't allow themselves totally exhausted or to stress themselves. Give yourself a day for pampering just you. If the card don't get out, call people in January, attend only the parties you want to attend, cut, cut, cut until it is manageable.

    I'm a lot older as my children were a lot older than yours in 1994. You had it rough with two children, a baby and a toddler. One of mine starting college and the other high school. It was a rough year, one of the roughest.

    Wishing you the best of holidays and a wonderful time with your older teens.

    Best,

    Doris
  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
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    Hi Wanda, Yes I think we all
    Hi Wanda, Yes I think we all have those days and hopefully it too shall pass. Sometimes I think everything just loads up but as you know from the last 2 years, it does get better.

    Sending hugs,
    Carol
  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
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    aisling8 said:

    I agree
    You are strong. But not today. Or however long this feeling lasts.
    You want company? I've been having a hard time lately -- a pile of unrelated things which, gathered together, are causing me grief. My head knows this too shall pass, but try telling that to my screaming insides:)

    You are probably exactly where you're supposed to be. The reason why will be revealed down the line.

    Huge hug,
    Victoria

    You are very strong and
    You are very strong and don't you forget it! I think you can see that lots of us have these days. The main thing is to not have too many of them in a row. I think with the holidays and all of the pressure that it doesn't help matters either.

    Allow yourself to have these feelings and even cry. We're here to wipe away your tears.

    The biggest of hugs,

    Megan
  • Lighthouse_7
    Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
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    camul said:

    Hi Wanda, Yes I think we all
    Hi Wanda, Yes I think we all have those days and hopefully it too shall pass. Sometimes I think everything just loads up but as you know from the last 2 years, it does get better.

    Sending hugs,
    Carol

    Thanks again to everyone.
    Well it's Monday and I feel a little better. I can't tell you what it means to have you all here. Sue, you made me cry, thank you ( with joy though ) I wanted to come here with my sadness because I'm tired of burdening my family and all of you made me realize what a safe place this is.
    Love you all,
    Wanda
  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
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    Sorry having an off
    Sorry having an off day...

    Denise
  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member
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    Lighthouse_7 said:

    Thanks again to everyone.
    Well it's Monday and I feel a little better. I can't tell you what it means to have you all here. Sue, you made me cry, thank you ( with joy though ) I wanted to come here with my sadness because I'm tired of burdening my family and all of you made me realize what a safe place this is.
    Love you all,
    Wanda

    I am glad that today you are
    I am glad that today you are feeling better Wanda. Just take it one day at a time. This is your safe place so just keep sharing your thoughts with us and hopefully, we can make you feel better.


    Big hugs,

    Noel
  • DebbyM
    DebbyM Member Posts: 3,289 Member
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    gagee said:

    Sorry you are feeling down.
    Sorry you are feeling down. Sometimes the holidays can bring on some depression. So much to do and so little time. Or some such saying. Plus having lost both parents and being far from loved ones can bring you down (me anyway). Hope talking about it helps you out. Wishing you the best. Diana

    Hoping that you start to
    Hoping that you start to feel better really soon Wanda. Hugs to you!
  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
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    Lighthouse_7 said:

    Thanks again to everyone.
    Well it's Monday and I feel a little better. I can't tell you what it means to have you all here. Sue, you made me cry, thank you ( with joy though ) I wanted to come here with my sadness because I'm tired of burdening my family and all of you made me realize what a safe place this is.
    Love you all,
    Wanda

    Sorry that I made you cry
    Sorry that I made you cry Wanda :( I wish I had some happy pills to give to you. Heck, I just wish they existed so we all could never have bad days. Keep posting and let us help!


    Now put a smile on your pretty face,


    Sue :)
  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
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    disneyfan2008 said:

    Sorry having an off
    Sorry having an off day...

    Denise

    I'm sorry that I am late in
    I'm sorry that I am late in telling you that we understand, we all get it. Try to focus on positive things in your life, but, let yourself also have days like this. I hope that tomorrow is a better day!


    Sending really big hugs,


    Kylez

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