Oct 23, 2011 - 7:31 pm
After yesterday's disaster. Today is a much better day. He is staying on the blow up mattress and is not in any pain. His blood sugar level is a bit high but I am taking care of that with the sliding scale and doing a good job.
Today while I was talking my nap (I do when he does) I was on the couch and he grabbed my hand and held it. As I was asleep I had the best dream, it was almost real like. Mark was loving on me (still being sick but during the early days) and kissing me and telling me how much he loved me. Then next thing he was in the mood for a burger, I said "burger and onion rings or fries". Then he was sitting in the living room window sill (which is sortof impossible) he stated to me that "I feel the spirit". This was such a great dream. And as soon as he stopped holding my hand I immediately woke up!! But when I woke up I felt so peaceful knowing he is not in any pain and we connected moreso while it being in a dream. I told him that I had this dream and he smiled. He is in and out of conscienceness and sort of alert and coherent sometimes.
As we were watching the football games today he kept looking up at me on the couch. Probably to make sure I was still there. Any time I do get up I tell him that I am getting up and I will be right back. Tell him what I am going to do.
His brother called today. Talked to me more than Mark because Mark is having a hard time holding anything. I have to hold the phone up to his ear. Mark's brother has this feeling that this may be the last time he will talk to him and I agreed to a point. Maybe one more time...maybe two..So tonight I will probably sleep on the couch and hold his hand again. Maybe we can connect in our dreams together. Even though that couch hurts me I will be honored to be by my ailing husband and take aspirin in the am to get rid of the ache it gives me.
Thanks for listening!!!