Feb 25, 2011 - 11:08 am
I have joined this forum with the hope of connecting with others. Though my story is common in many ways, in one huge way, I feel isolated.......January 30, 2011 my life changed forever. A life without my parents or my only sibling, my older brother. All three had lung cancer. All three died from this disease -(dad 1/24/2001, brother - 11/14/2006 and mom 1/30/2011). Though I am married, I feel very alone. ? My memories which are supposed to comfort me, upset me. There is no one left from my immediate family. How is this possible at only 41 years old? I know there are people in worse situations, but I am devastated beyond belief. The nights are impossible, going to work is an effort. I can't sleep and seem to be eating through my emotions. I have purchased a couple of books to help, joined a support group and pray.I even started a blog on this site to help me sort out my emotions. Nothing is making this easier......I feel like I am in a dark, deep hole. I know I will never get over it, rather I will get through it. I just need to connect with others who understand what I am feeling.