It's been 4 weeks since my wife passed away from breast cancer. I find myself lost in this large house where it used to be such a happy place. Coming home to speak to her daily and seeing her smiling face. Now it is just a house not a home. My wife died on September 8th
and my grandaughters 1st bithday was on the 24th. I found myself unable to fit in. Where it was always me and my wife now it was only me. I can visit the kids if no one is around but I feel very unconforable with other couples. I hate going home and do everything possible to keep from going home. Shopping,moviies or just walkng around like a homeless person.
I know I am not the only one going through this but the loneliness is devistating. I loved my wife with all my heart and kept my vows to love,honor and charish in sickness and health until death.
I am going to a group consuling session now but I feel all the widows are in the same shape I am and I don't want or need a co-dependent relationship. I don't know how long I should wait to start trying to find someone new or should I even try?? Four weeks does'nt sound like much but my wife suffered from cancer for four years and appoximently 2 years ago we lost all psyical contact with each other. I not saying I am just looking for psyical contact but more of a social contact. I just feel lost in space!!! with depression, sorrow and lonliness.