Aug 05, 2010 - 5:14 am
Today is 8months since I lost my husband and I am beginning to fall apart. I have spent the last 8 months getting my girls and me a roof over our heads and getting us some financial security. We have moved into a new home and my new job is going well. Maybe its because I am not running around trying to fix things that I am beginning to process it all. I watched him die and was there for his last hours and minutes yet I find some part of me thinks he'll walk through the door one day. At this time last year we started what I call the beginning of the end and maybe that's why I am a little emotional at the moment. It just hurts so much. I have held on tightly to his memory and that has got me through the last 8 months but I know that I will have to let him go emotionally so we can all heal.