Feb 28, 2010 - 10:31 pm
We had some friends out today and one of my friends said that since all of my treatments are over now, I can just go back to being the old me again. I just smiled and said yea, sure. Why can't people understand that I don't think I can go back to the old me, that I have changed, and probably not in a good way for now. I finished rads just a few months ago and I still feel lost. I still feel like I am kind of in a queary as to how do I forget about a recurrence, how do I just not think of my bc everyday. How do I not look at her or any of my other girlfriends and just say why, why me. Guess I am just feeling a little down and like others on here, needed to write this down. I will get past this, it just upset me that she thought I can go back to how I was before my bc, because I can't, no matter how hard I try. Thanks for reading this.