Feb 20, 2010 - 3:37 pm
Sometimes I think I am. And even if I am a hypochondriac, I think that I've earned the right to be. It's hard not to assume the worst when you're not feeling well, especially considering what "the worst" could be. And it's happened before... 4 years after my first bone marrow transplant, I was diagnosed with a completely different disease. My fear isn't completely unfounded.
Anyway, my purpose to this post is not only to ask other survivors if they suffer from hypochondria, but also because I keep freaking myself out over my joints. I've had avascular necrosis in my knees, hips, and shoulders, which has resulted in a partial left shoulder replacement, a right shoulder core decompression, and a bilteral hip decompression. Now, I just had another MRI yesterday because I'm having knee pain.
I haven't heard the results yet, because I had it done on a Friday and there was no one there that day to read the films, and I'm very nervous. I just had my bilateral hip decompression last June, and I have a lot going on in my life that doesn't really afford the time off for another surgery. I'm starting school again this April, in a program where I'm literally NOT ALLOWED to miss a day of school. I live two states away from my parents (AKA my caregivers) and this last surgery drained my savings because I still had to pay my rent while I wasn't working.
OK, so maybe this is turning into more of a rant than anything else. But does anyone else get that little cough, or a little bit of joint pain, and go, "!@#$% I'm gonna die!"
Maybe not so dramatic, but... if I have joint pain, I always assume AVN, and unfortunately so far I haven't been wrong.
Anyone have any experiences they want to share??